Alexandra didn't know why, but now she felt uncomfortable, all alone in the cabin with Jonathan.
Just a few moments ago, she had wanted to feel him, wanted to kiss him, and now she just wanted to be somewhere else – whatever, wherever but not here with him. Alexandra grabbed some of the blankets and towels and crossed over to the room to change, without saying anything.
She took off her clothes very slowly and wiped the water off her body. Maybe she just wanted to play for time, to not finish too soon and find Jonathan in an embarrassing situation.
Alexandra noticed a few scratches on her arm. It must have happened when she tumbled into the mud. She heard a rattling noise, like metal and glass, in the background. That had to be Jonathan, who was continuing to fire up the oven. Alexandra looked down at her body.
Physically, she just looked like a typical 16 year-old girl, maybe even more mature. Her skin glimmered in the light of the oil lamp. Alexandra covered herself with a towel and a blanket – and she just caught her thought of seeing Jonathan naked.
She knew, he was, compared to her other classmates, a skinny boy, but she imagined his body was similar to his face: with fine but also, striking features. He seemed to be small and thin, but strong at the same time. His steel-blue eyes, in whose depths she had been lost many times, his thick black hair, that always fell into his face and made him look older and wiser than he really was at 17 years. Now that he wasn't wearing his glasses, this impression became stronger.
Alexandra remembered the smell of his after-shave when he had held her firmly in his arms. He never admitted it, but Alexandra knew he shaved frequently. Jonathan had always declared that his beard would be just 'fluff' but Alexandra knew better.
She remembered the light scratching on her skin when Jonathan had kissed her and this thought about him excited her. His full mouth, his lips, so soft on her own. His tongue – softly exploring, almost polite, gentleman-like, but also seeking, demanding, demanding more...his kisses on her mouth, on her throat, on her hands, on her cheeks, his body next to hers, his heavy breath, his soft moan when he kissed her … she wanted more from him, she wanted so much more. She wanted to touch him, all over his body, she wanted to caress him, kiss him.
She wanted to feel Jonathan close to her, she wanted to feel him inside of her..