"I'm handing it over to you. I realize that this situation won't get any better so…,"
She paused. J.D. stared at her, wanting to see a flicker of lie in what she was purposing, but saw none.
"You want me to decide whether he lives or dies." He felt numb.
"Yes." Jordan quietly said. "I'm giving this job to you, now. Fully. She choked and held her fingers to her face and turned quickly to leave. She couldn't stand it any longer. Now it was all up to J.D. he had to put all of his emotions aside and become the doctor his mentor made him to be.
But this...
Why him?
J.D. overlooked his mentor's body. It was still, with the exception of the slight raise and fall of his chest. This was it. The young doctor was finally out of his prime and had to make themost difficultdecision of his entire life.
He then turned towards the respirator; the only thing keeping Dr. Cox's heart beating was this machine. Sad. What was he going to do? He loved Dr. Cox more than just a teacher…. he was like his father to him. Tough, but with love. What would he have done in a situation like this?
Cox looked on from above, feeling a bit high from all the excitement earlier. It was not a good feeling.
"J.D. You know what you have to do. It will be for the better, I promise newbie, it really will be. Just trust me, like you always have, don't wimp out on me just because I'm not there to cheer you on! Come on! Pull the plug! It's all right…It's okay, don't worry…don't' worry. I can't stay away from here for long. I love you…. wow, I never thought ever say that, especially to you.
I mean come on; I can already here Amazing Grace playing over and over and over in my head!
Finally, when J.D.'s mind was finally clear of everything, he bent over and switched off the respirator. In one swift motion he had just determined a man's life. Life was all too fragile...he thought he might have already known that by how many sisters, brothers, mothers, cousins and friends came and never left Sacred Heart.
He never even felt the tears leave his eyes.
I'm sorry it took SO long for me to post this chapter, I had it all finished but I just never got around to it, I hope you still read this thought :) thank youDory