Shitza: My computer has decided to go haywire, and I have no idea what has happened to it? Indeed, nothing works as it used to do. One time, it completely shut down. Now it works, but for how long? I'm confused!

Anyway, I'm writing this through this time, so the spelling may be worse then ever. I'll crrect this once I'va managed to make this thing work properly again, for I have no idea what is going on.

Story Summary: Kouji and Takuya have a row. Takuya leaves the room for a while, as Kouji secretaly reads his diary. What will happen, can a friendship meand together again?

Fic inspired by KellyQ's 'Takuya's diary' which is one of the cutest stories ever.

Pairing: Takouji

Rating: T, for swearing and other things

One-shot!

Please enjoy!

Shitza

Diary of Love

Kouji cursed under his breath. "Damn you Takuya, why do you have to be such a spoiled brat! Can't you mind your own business for a change, or do you really have to mess around in other peoples business? Why can't you mind your own business for once, why do you have to be so damn hot!"

Kouji stopped in his tracks. Then he started to curse himself for calling Takuya hot. Still, hot could be used in another term, as the brunette ruled over fire. It had surprised them all to learn that even though they were back in the Human World again, some things still were with them. A small light dangled in Kouji's fingers proving this. His bond with light would never cease, and thus so would he, Takuya, Kouichi, Izumi, Junpei and Tomoki still ve connected with their elements. It had been a shock to discover it during Chemestry, when Takuya never noticed he held his hand over the fire. Izumi could levitate in the air, Junpei had advanced tricks with electricity and Tomoki had turned out to become one of Japan's best skaters.His brother Kouichi had suddenly become some kind of night creature. He was always lazy during the day, to be fully awake in the night. It was scary, but cool as well.

Kouji lay down, on Takuya's bed. The brunette was in the kitchen having been called over by his mum. Kouji yawned feeling life was boring as ever. Nothing seemed to happen and it only felt worse as he could hear the screaming and protests from the brunette's mouth. He had no idea what they were talking about. It wasn't as if the walls were paper thin or something.

Kouji put his hand under the pillow, and suddenly stopped. he felt something under it, something hard and made of leather. He sat up and took out a small leatherbound book. Now what?

Kouji looked at it. It was as big as his palm. He flicked through the book to see small writings accross the pages. It was a diary, he could conclude. A diary, well written and very closely detailed. He closed his eyes, no Takuya would probably not come back in an hour or so. Lots of time for sneaking a bit. He opened it, read the first page.

April 22nd 2005

My name is Takuya Kanbara. What can you call me? Thin as bones, sporty and athletic. Crazy in soccer and sports? A fourteen year old teen with a passion like fire? Well, as well as these things are true, I am even more.

Three years ago, I was also a digidestined. A warrior to protect some odd creatures called Digimon. You probablywonder what a Digimon is? Well, I don't have all the thories, but it is data as well as living creatures. I still can't figure out how that would fit. I can only guess, the others may know more about this.

Now, you probably wonder whom these others might be? Well, I'll tell you. There is Izumi, the Italian girl with lots to say and a heart speaking freely through her wide mouth. She is cute, or so i thought. Until the day I found out after school I really had no interest in girls at all. Pretty pathetic, huh?

There is also Junpei, he's cool and smart. he's sort of fat, but we don't tell him that. He loves chocolate and he eats a lot. He can be sort of funny from time to time and he sure knows magic.

We also have little Tomoki, the little guy in our group. He's younger then any of us, around eleven by now. He's cool as well, he is sort of childish and such, but he likes me... uhm, I mean as a friend or sort of substitue brother or something. Weird little fellow.

Kouichi is another nice guy. He can be really shy, espacially since he accidentally walked in to the Cheerleaders' Changing Room. poor guy, he is mostly quiet an doesn't talk much.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot to tell you about Kouji, my best friend. He's a lonewolf and a bastard from time to time. I sometimes wish he could be more.

I can say I'm no ordinary guy. How come? I have no ordinary life. My life is a roller coaster of strange feelings.

Take this for example. How can you tell your best friend that you love him? Espacially since you don't want him to reject you for being gay.

Answer that? I can't. That's why I'm still so weird.

Kouji scratched his head, his bandanna falling down over his head. Sighing he pulled it of. His mind was racing with new thoughts and feelings. His heart beated as he turned a few pages. He would not have time to read through the whole thing.

June 5th 2005

Today's been a wonderful day, all though I seem to have some slight problems from getting everyone to read what I'm writing. Indeed, it's hard to write with Izumi trying to read over your shoulder. Indeed that girl grows more and more annoying to your nerves for every second you get to know her. Thankfully she has forgiven me for NOT going out on a date with her. Honestly, I have concluded, I have absolutely no interests in girls anymore.

Now, where was I? Oh yes... now I remember. The sleepover at the twins, Kouji and Kouichi. It's been a wondetful day, I mean I am lying only a metre away from him, hasn't happened since our journey in the digital world. I just wish I could tell him. I'm a complete coward, I know. I just don't want to risk our friendship.

That is the problem being gay, not to know if you should tell or not. I mean, if I was dating a girl it would have been a lot easier. At least people wouldn't talk to me behind my back. I have a feeling someone else knows about this. People have started to talk behind my back in school. A few guys even went as far as to lock me into my own locket. This simply gets worse and worse.

I have to go now, before Izumi manages to read all of it. Like i said, she is a pain in the ass when it comes to sneaking around.

Kouji looked up from the diary for a short minute. He turned a few pages more, ending up to simply a few days from now.

September 12th 2005

I cannot take this, not much more of it. I have tried and tried to say anything, but what I can't say I can't say. I don't want to loose him, maybe we are simply just meant to be friends. yes, that must be it.

Lately things are disastrous. Everyone knows, well apart from Kouji. I've been able to prevent the truth from getting too cloose to him. They all haunt me, curse me and makes everything miserable. Shinya, my own brother, even called me a fraud and closed his door right before my nose. They've used me, pushed me into walls so that I can feel my own blood trickling.

Today, our class went to the old temple down the street for a visit. My old friends, people I've known for so long, they made me become the foul of this generation making the scene look like I've done everything. Those monks threw me out, making me taste the dirt on the ground. maybe I deserved it. Maybe I don't deserve to live. Why live, when you are as miserable as I am?

Kouji, my love of heart. Forgive me for doing this. I must abandon you to continue...

Kouji stared at the page. He didn't understand a thing? He cursed himself, feeling tears of sorrow. Why? Why did this have to happen. Takuya loved him, and through the beatings of his heart, he suspected, he loved him back.

Kouji slipped the diary back under the pillow as Takuya walked in, looking tired. He looked so normal, so fine. He looked happy, and Kouji blamed himself. He stood up from the bed, rushed over to takuya and gave the startled teen a kiss. Then he hurried out from the apartment, down the stairs, down th road to never return. he would never be able to look Takuya in the eyes again.

Tears streamed down from his eyes, melting into the rain. He was running, he had to escape.

'What just happened? Takuya thought as he heard Kouji slam the door behind him. 'Did Kouji kiss me, why?'

He could feel something, withing him, blooming again. he could feel his heart race of excitement, to slowly die yet again. No, he didn't want that wonderful feeling to die. Kouji had kissed him, it must have meant something.

Takuya hurried to get out, grabbed his jacket on the way and ran out into the rain. It was hard to see anything, since the rain was pouring down. The brunette looked around. Down the street he saw a blur of someone moving away in a great speed. 'Kouji'

"Kouji, wait!" he called running after. He praised all his soccer practise as he managed to catch up. but as kouji ran over the street, with takuya by his heels, a truck came. Takuya could feel his heart stop. He would not make it!

"Kouji!" he screamed pulling the guy of the road. The two teens landed in a dicth, mud splattered over them. Takuya held on to the startled raven-haired teen who too had embraced his love.

"Kouji, I'm so sorry I gave up on us!" Takuya said as warm tears trickled down his cheeks. Kouji sighed and kissed them away. Takuya moaned as the rain showered them while love drowned them in their own little word.

Kouji shook his head. "It's me who should be sorry, Takuya I should have known all the time! I love you, I should have told you this sooner if I ever had listened to my own heart."

Takuya sniffed. "How did you find out?" he asked.

Kouji smiled, one of his many rare smiles. "Through your Diary, my love. Through your Diary of Love."

The two teens stood up, leaning closer to each other. their breaths sending shivers down their spines as the gap between slowly disappeared. Kouji lounged to taste Takuya's lips again. Takuya responded back, eagerly.

"And you know. If the bad guys in school decides to pick on you again. Let me know. No one will touch you again, I promise!"

Takuya smiled. The rain poured over them, but who cared. This was simply another chapter added in their Diary of Love!

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Shitza: number four is out, whew this sure took a while to finish. My computer is evil, still I'm glad it didn't completely crash. I'll have my brother to take care of it. I'm leaving for Stockholm tomorrow, last thing written before i leave, three days gone from writing. I'll take that as a vacation.

If you liked this, review! If you didn't then do as you want. this author loves reviews and would like to thank:

Bonnie Mizuhara Asakura, Angel Spirit and LZfOx1379 for reviewing the previous 3 stories.

Sayonara, till next time I get a new Takouji idea!

Shitza