A/n: Sorry for taking so long people. I've been trying to gather thoughts in which direction to go in. Oh well…on with the story.
Chapter Three. Going crazy.
Weeks later….
It was a lie. Everything he said was a lie. Men are LIARS. So what in the hell made her think that Li Syaoran was any different? After their so called "friendly lunch" things went from bad to worse.
No, she didn't have to pay for the damages in her last hotel. In fact, Syaoran had gotten her a top of the line suit, so she owned the whole floor. Her hotel room was like an apartment, with a recording studio inside and Jacuzzi. But everything that glitters aint gold.
Meiling was still a pain in her ass and the record company was slowly trying to manipulate her. Sakura had to fight tooth and nail over which hotel to stay in, what places to visit on tour, and how she should sound.
Sitting on her 30,000.00$ futon, Sakura sighed. "Tomoyo, please don't make me do it!" Tomoyo gave her best friend a sincere look, and sighed. "No can do. Kaho said you should meet with some of the members of the committee."
"Kaho sure has a lot to say." Sakura huffed. Kaho wasn't any better than Li. Whenever there was an argument; she always backed up Syaoran as if her damn life depended on it.
Tomoyo sat next to her friend and boss. "Kaho has never leaded us astray. Come on now, let's go make this thing happen."
With a reassuring pat, Tomoyo got up and left Sakura to her thoughts. With a deep exhale, she stood up, walking into the showers. Getting dressed into business attire, she combed through her beautifully short hair, and spun around in the full length mirror.
"It's now or never…" With that, she headed out to face the firing squad.
-o0o-
Li sat at the head of the table, making deals on his cell phone. "Yes, and I want three records of the same file…"
The door opened, getting his attention. Sakura walked in attempting to look professional, but her expression screamed otherwise.
"I'll get back to you on that. Ja." Li ended the call.
Meiling snorted in disgust at Sakura who had the nerve to take a seat on the other side of Syaoran. "Well aren't we all grown up, today." He smirked.
Sakura glared at him. "I do what I do when I can do it."
All the other men chuckled at her response, and she noticed she didn't know anyone in the room. Li sensed her uneasiness. "Sakura, to your right on down is Eien, Goro, Jin, and Kan. They will be your advisors for your music."
Sakura didn't like the sound of that. "What advice can they possibly give me? My sound is perfect." She stated defiantly. She knew he was up to something. He had to be with the devil as his fiancé.
"Actually, it's distorted." Goro spoke up trying to help Li out.
Sakura immediately vented her rage onto him. "Much like your face I imagine." She snapped back.
Syaoran gave Sakura a warning stare but she brushed it off. She wasn't called the Queen of Mean for nothing.
Jin cleared his throat and Sakura slid him her glass of water that was courteously offered. "Here, drink this, gargle, do what ever, but don't open your mouth to talk." Eien wanted to slap her, but the fact that her voice pays his salary, prevented it.
Meiling chuckled. "Such an immature girl. Typical. Li, where on earth do you find them?"
Syaoran cut her a glare. "Now isn't the time. Sakura, can I speak to you in private, please?"
Sakura rolled her eyes but stood up, following him out the door and into another room. Syaoran held the door open for her, and slammed it after she had walked in. "What the hell is your problem!"
"I could ask you the same thing!" Sakura shot back.
Syaoran took a breath. "What is it that you want from me?" Sakura frowned, hearing the desperation. "I want you to quit."
"Quit what! I haven't done anything. You've been acting like a bitch ever since I took you out to lunch." Li stated heatedly. He didn't like this Sakura. The Sakura he knew was all smiles and nothing more.
"You're trying to change me after you promised you wouldn't." Sakura huffed. "I'm not trying to change it. The music advisors…"
"I know what they do Li. Stop sugar coating it." She cut him off.
Syaoran flopped into a chair. "Sometimes I wonder if you're even worth the headache."
"Just like I wonder if you were worth the heartache." She countered back softly. Syaoran opened his eyes wide at hearing her small confession.
God, she confused him. If it wasn't done her way, she got upset. If she had it her way, she wasn't satisfied. She didn't want him to move on with his life without begging for forgiveness, and she wrote these songs of passionate hatred, knowing he was her source of anger.
"I'm not going to change you Sakura. The music advisors will back off, but it's a lot easier with them around. Every artist I've had, they've been on the number one slot for over a year. I want to keep that reputation." He explained tiredly, softly.
Sakura rolled her eyes and mumbled "Whatever." She plopped down in the chair he had gotten up from. Smelling is intoxicating scent, she switched chairs.
Syaoran didn't want to even get into it. Getting out of the chair, her walked to the door, but didn't open it. "We're both adults in a profession. I'd appreciate it if you started acting like it. Meiling is my fiancé and that's all there is to it."
"I bet she is." Sakura scowled. Syaoran just left her sitting there. Her little temper tantrums weren't his problem. 'Not anymore…'
Sakura sat, all heart broken. What did this Meiling bitch have that she didn't? "How can he just….forget about me?" Looking around the room, she found a sheet of paper with a pen and began writing.
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby
Bridge 1
Now every time I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about…
Putting down the pen, she whimpered because she couldn't write anymore and her tears were clouding up her vision. Why must everything be so hard? Syaoran didn't love her as much as she thought he did, her voice was an emotional roller coaster, and mind was in parole.
"Lord help me." She whispered.
-o0o-
Kaho finished looking over some tracks, focusing on Sakura's sound. She smiled. The girl was a singing goldmine. As soon as the tour started, her album would be number one on every billboard in the world. All she had to do was sit and wait for the bomb to fall right into her lap.
"This is perfect." Kaho laughed. Going over the sound check, she didn't notice Sakura was into the room until she turned around and was scared half to death. "DAMMIT SAKURA! Don't do that!" she screamed grabbing her chest.
Sakura smirked. "Do what K?" Kaho frowned, hating to be called "K". "My name is Kaho and you know damn well what I mean. You've been doing it since I've met you! That creepy crawly thing in the shadows."
Sakura shrugged. "Sorry." Kaho nodded. "Yeah, so what are you doing here? The meeting with the musical advisors ended over an hour ago."
It irritated the hell out of her when Kaho did that. Knowing everything that she did even before she knew it. "So you knew about the meeting! You know I hate music advisors!"
Kaho smirked. "That's why I didn't tell you. Otherwise you wouldn't have gone. But you didn't answer my question." Sakura fidgeted uneasily. "I have something that I want to tell you."
"Sure sweetie, anything. Here take a seat." Kaho patted the chair next to her but Sakura declined. "This won't take long."
Sensing it was something seriously wrong, Kaho nodded. "I see." She didn't see anything. If it were a Li problem, she wasn't worried. If those two could just resolve their problems, the work place would be a lot less tense.
Hell, if they resolved their issues, Meiling wouldn't be getting married. Kaho thought.
Sakura looked down to the floor, crumbling the piece of paper in her hand on accident. "I….Kaho, this place…" she started but didn't finish. Kaho let out an uneasy laugh. "Come on spit it out. You what?"
"Kaho…I want to quit." Sakura stuttered out. Kaho sat back in her chair, mouth open, head spinning. Boom.
---Hours later---
Syaoran banged on Sakura's apartment, getting the message Kaho has sent on his cell phone. The woman sounded like she had seen a ghost. "Dammit." He took a step back. "Sakura open the door!"
He didn't hear noise on the other side, which frightened him. He banged harder on the door, this time for his mother's sake. She had got the news and had made him rush over to retrieve her. Personally he didn't care if Sakura quit, but he and his mother knew he wasn't telling the truth.
On the other side, Sakura sat in her futon in tears, hearing Li yell at her from the other side. Why he was at her doorstep and not with Meiling was beyond her knowledge or care. She didn't want to deal with him.
"Go away." She whispered. The banging on the door had stopped. Feeling really cold all of a sudden, Sakura got up to close the window, only to come face to face with Syaoran. She gasped taking a step back.
Syaoran saw her puffy eyes, clearly from crying. 'Shit.' "Sakura…" he started but she cut him off by pointing to the door. "Don't let it hit you on the way out." she seethed, turning away to go upstairs to her room.
Syaoran grabbed her wrist, making her stay. Sakura tried to struggle but he was too strong. Her pleading emeralds met his intense ambers. She was begging to be released AND for him to never let go.
His gaze looked regrettable because he already had. Syaoran moved closer, not letting go of her wrist because he was afraid she'd jump out the window just to get away from him. Sakura watched outside of herself as his lips came in contact with hers. It was like heaven on earth for the both of them. Sakura was defenseless against his touch. When his sharp tongue ran across her teeth demanding entrance, she gave it to him.
Syaoran brought his arms around her waste, missing how much of a perfect fit they were. Hungry for more, he grabbed her butt with both of his large hands, picking her up, with a smile from hearing her moan. Sakura immediately wrapped her legs around his lean waste. Still in a lip lock, he went up the stairs blindly, both laughing when he almost tripped.
The bedroom was dark, only the lights from the city illuminating it. They broke the fevered kiss, Syaoran working his way to her neck, expertly unbuttoning her shirt, then bra. He remembered Sakura's body like the back of his hand. She was still beautiful. He didn't have to look because he could feel it.
Sakura worked on his belt, finally getting his pants loose. Her heart was racing as she ran her fingers over his chest, grabbing her favorite toy. It jumped and she laughed out loud. Li smirked before kissing her again, this time tenderly.
Everything after that happened so fast. Well not that fast. Sakura woke up around4:00a.m. thinking of the best dream in her life. Feeling that she was naked, she looked down, seeing Syaoran sleeping peacefully next to her. 'Oh god! What have I done?' Putting her head in her hands, she took a deep breath.
Getting up, she wrapped the sheets around her, silently leaving the room.
-o0o-
Li woke up about thirty minutes later, after realizing Sakura's body wasn't next to his when he tried to pull her close. Hearing a small noise, he got up, wrapping the sheets around his well built torso. He walked down the hall, seeing a light from the recording studio. Walking him, he saw Sakura in the recording booth, singing to her soul.
ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
my life just hasnt been the same ohh baby, nooo
when I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)
baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
cuz the feeling that I feel within
no other men could ever make me feel so right
its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
but I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight
(Bridge)
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
for you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
(Chorus 2xs)
thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby
Sakura felt like lifting a heavy burden off her shoulders. Singing off the top of her head, she felt tears in her eyes. Anyone who was listening could tell the situation she was in. A girl in love, and there was nothing she could do about it. There was no moving on because she didn't know how. She had just had the most amazing sex in her life, for the second time that night, and hadn't felt any better afterwards… 'Because he's getting married…and I'm the other woman.'
break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
from the moment I met you its been so damn real
my heart seems to skip another beat
every time we speak can you believe I feel so weak
tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
and you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the one for you
I'm falling so deep for you crazy love for you
Im calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
Wish you would stop fronting
its so in the weather i can no longer go on without
I just break down (down)
(Bridge)
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
for you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
(Chorus 2xs)
thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby
ohhh, ohhh...
crazy... lady... lately...
ohhh ohhh...
ohh ohhh ohhhhhh
baby...
Syaoran watched as Sakura opened up her heart to anyone who was listening. Then it dawned on him that the song was in fact ABOUT them. He must have felt like an idiot just then. What the hell had he done! What was he going to do about Meiling? Every thought swarmed his mind at that exact moment.
Not hearing the music stop, he snapped out of his trance when she was standing in front of him. "So…what do we do now?" she asked unsure of anything.
Syaoran gazed at Sakura, wanting to scream to the world that he loved her. Too bad that wasn't going to happen. Unwillingly, he transformed back into a hard ass, giving her the cold shoulder.
"Nothing. Nice song." He walked away, leaving Sakura to deal with it the best way she knew how. Through her music.
A/n: Wow, harsh chapter ne? I didn't want to write a lemon just yet, but its coming. I'm going to bring Tomoyo and Eriol into the fic some more. Just had to get the preliminaries out of the way. And before anyone asks…NO Sakura isn't pregnant. The first song I used was Mariah Carey- Don't forget aboutUs.The second was Natalie- GoingCrazy. Please Read and Review! Thanks.