A/N- Sry for not reviewing in awhile, I had troubles with my new pc so I had to wait awhile for that to be fixed, and I just couldn't come up with anything else until now. So I hope you like it.

Losing Yourself –

Buffy exited the factory knowing that she left them dumb folded and she loved it. As she was a few meters away from the factory she could sense something but ignored it. She continued down the street to her favorite cemetery and she entered it and found a perfect little crypt that she could crash in.

She thought of going to Giles's house or letting her friends know she was home but she just couldn't face them right now. She started to get all fidgety and she took a small boom box out of her bag and pulled out a cd and placed it in after sticking batteries into the boom box. She pushed the play button and the song "Missing" by Evanescence filled the room.

She then took off her arm warmers and put them in her bag and pulled out her blade, and thought sweet bliss. She sat down on the floor and took the razor to her wrists and she pushed hard into her skin and felt a first jolt of pain but then recovered and felt pure bliss.

(Spike and Angelus an hour before)

"What the bloody hell was that?"

"I have no idea and I do not intend to find out,"

With that said Angelus walked into his and Drusilla's bedroom and shut the door. But Spike on the other hand decided to follow buffy. He walked out of the factory and spotted her so he hid in the shadows as he walked. He could tell that she knew something was there at the way she stiffened but then he saw her relax and keep walking so he figured that she didn't completely sense him.

He watched her go into a cemetery and walked into a crypt and shut the door tight. He crept up to the crypt and stood there. Waiting for what… I don't know. He heard music filling the silent night and heard Buffy sing with the lyrics:

"Isn't something missing, you wont cry for my absence I know, you forgot me long ago, am I that unimportant, am I so insignificant, isn't something missing, isn't someone missing me? Even though I'd be sacrificed, you won't try for me not now, though I die to know you love me, I'm all alone, isn't someone missing me?"

At the end of those lyrics he heard her stop singing and he smelt her blood. The smell was intoxicating and he felt like running in and draining the rest of her dry but instead he did the unthinkable. Spike slammed the door open to reveal Buffy on the floor with blood pouring out of her body. He fell to his knees at her side and supported her head on his lap.

"Come on, love, you can't die… not like this. I was supposed to do it."

Buffy just looked at him through her bliss full eyes and he looked deeper into them and what he found scared him but excited him more. He saw total darkness and pain and he made his decision of what he was going to do.

Spike vamped out and Buffy just stared up into his true face and knew what he was going to do and she hesitated but then just let it happen.

Spike lowered his mouth to the throbbing vein in her neck that was calling to him. He punctured his fangs into her neck and drank hungrily and savored the taste and Buffy let out a moan as she felt as though she was seconds near death and she felt him pull his fangs out of her neck and she saw him bite his own wrist and draw blood. He moved his wrist towards her mouth and she just looked at him deep in the eyes and she grabbed his wrist before he could move it to her mouth. She put his wrist to her mouth and fed hungrily.

He was surprised that she wanted to be like him. He expected her to struggle but here she was just feeding off of him without hesitation. He wondered what had happened to the old Buffy that used to love to kick his ass. Well it didn't matter now since of course she was gone.

He got pulled from his thoughts when he knew had given her more than enough and felt a little light headed. He took her mouth away from his wrist and held her close as her body died and she was reborn but in a deathly slumber.

He fell asleep holding her to him in a protective way. Why? He had no idea I guess it could just be the child sire relationship thing because he felt as if she was a part of himself.

A/N- I guess that turned out more lovey than I thought it would. Sry if it was a little too sappy but my writing sometimes turns out that way. Well I will try to update soon.