Saint Jude
Chapter 3:First day:7:45am-10:50am
Oh, by the way, in this fic Raven isn't a lesbian, but a few of the girls will be. So I just thought I'd clarify, because the only other fic I have out is a yuri, so after this chapter a few of you might have believed that this was going to be one too...but it's not.
Just to warn you I have a very important Authors note at the bottom of this chapter, so after your done reading don't forget about it.
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Raven was in the cell again, it was dark and cold, and she was hurting. The source of her pain was now in the corner of her cell putting his clothes back on. She was laying in the middle of the floor on her back, her legs were still spread rather wide, and there was a puddle of bodily fluids around her crotch...red and a little white...
She just lay there...staring up at the stone ceiling with vacant eye's.
Raven had learned that some of the men only liked it when she struggled, so if she didn't struggle, they would eventually leave here alone. She had already gotten three men to stop coming...this man getting dressed in the corner of her cell was hopefully never coming back...he seemed pissed that she hadn't resisted again...he hadn't even bothered to finish up...just pulled out, hit her across the face, and started getting dressed while muttering curse words.
He was now leaving the room, the giant rusted metal door opened, light flooded the room as a gust of cold air rushed in, Raven knew he was watching to see her reaction...so she made none, instead she just lay there, bathed in a yellow light that revealed every bruise, and every cut, as the cool air caressed every inch of her naked and abused body, and she stared at the ceiling with vacant eyes.
She heard the man give an angry grunt at her lack of response as he slammed the door shut, Raven waited until she heard the lock slide into place to insure he wasn't going to barge in again before she allowed her emotions to return.
Still she just lay there as silent tears rolled down her face...as well as she could hide it, she still felt as though her body was on fire and her soul was being ripped apart every time she was raped. But there was nothing she could do, she had tried to kill herself, that had only made things worse, she couldn't escape...so Raven did the only thing she could. She rolled over on her side, curled into the fetal position, put her hands between her legs to slow the bleeding, and she cried...
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Gasp Raven shot up breathing heavily as she tried to place where she was.
Her heart beat slowed when she realized where she was, but her breathing, though slowing, was still hurried. It took another minute to realize that the room was dark, all the lights in the bedrooms were off, and the only light that shown in was from some rather soft lights in the hallway, so soft in fact that they must have been night lights.
"Bad dream?" A slightly groggy voice asked from the other side of the room.
It took Raven a second longer to remember who this voice belonged to.
"Yea, it's nothing though...sorry if I woke you..."Raven said apologetically as she realized it must have been pretty late.
"Don't worry, I'm a really light sleeper, besides.."Collette looked over at her clock "...it's almost time to get up anyway.."
Raven looked over at the clock on her rather bare bedside table, it read '7:49'
"What time do they make us get up?"Raven asked, thinking she couldn't possible slept through the entire night.
"Eight o'clock...then we have twenty minutes to get ready before breakfast"Collette said this as she swung her legs out of bed, so she was sitting on the edge.
Collette started scratching the back of her head lazily when she started talking agian "You know, I'm actually surprised you slept this late...usualy when people first get here they take a quick hour long nap...at the vary latest they would wake up at like two in the morning or something...you must have been pretty fuckin tired to sleep for almost fourteen hours"
"I guess..."Raven said as she brought her hand up to her forehead to wipe away the sweat.
"Are you sure you don't want to talk about it?"Collette asked in a concerned voice.
"What? Oh, yea, I'm sure"Raven said as she took a deep breath.
"Guess I should get dressed..."
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Raven was slowly making her way out of her room with Collette firmly in front of her. Raven purposely did not look at any of the other girls, she was to tired to speculate accurately about anyone, she hated this, she over slept...so now she would be sluggish for her entire first day...
Collette lead Raven though the doors on the other side of the dorms, they came out in a hallway, right across from them were a pair of open double doors.
"That's the all purpose room..."Raven said aloud as she remembered the floor plan as explained by Selene.
"Wow...not only did you take the tour...you remembered it"Collette was obviously impressed.
Raven blushed at the sudden complement.
"It is the the multi-purpose room...one of it's many incarnations is the dining hall..."
As they walked into the room Raven saw what must have been near forty girls at tables, chatting and eating away.
A shocked expression appeared on Raven face at the large number of girls in the room.
"It can be pretty overwhelming at first...you were probably expecting like a dozen girls, right?"
Raven didn't know what she had expected, not this for sure. So she just nodded in agreement.
"Come on, we need to eat...well I do at least.."With that Collette grabbed Raven's hand and lead her over to a line up.
Some temp. tables had been set up near a wall in the room, a door in the side was open to reveal a kitchen, there was also a large glassless window that connected the kitchen to the rest of the room.
As the line moved up, Raven caught sight of breakfast, waffles, Raven smiled inwardly at this familiar food, the smile soon vanished.
Thinking of waffles made her think of of Cyborg, and thinking of Cyborg made her think of the team...and at the moment, she really didn't want to think of them.
Raven staked her plate and turned, her heart sunk, where was she going to sit? None of the tables were empty. The only person she knew was Collette...and she was already seated, Raven didn't want to impose on her new roommate.
Raven was snapped out of her trance as her arm was grabbed and pulled, almost causing her to spill her tray. It took a second to realize that it was Collette, and that she was dragging her over to her table.
As soon as they came to a stop Collette held out a hand showing the group at the table and said "This is your group therapy group..."
"Everyone, this is Rei"
They all have a half hearted wave before Raven could ask "How do you know if this is my group?'
Collette responded by holding out a peice of paper. Raven looked at it, it was her time table "How did you?"Raven started
"I ran into Selene in the hallway when I went to the bathroom...she told me to give it to you...funny, must have slipped my mind..."Collette's smirk at the end made it clear that she had not forgotten.
"So...you gonna sit?"Collette said as she pulled out a chair for Raven right between herself and a rather drained looking girl.
Raven sat down and just as she was about to start eating, Collette started talking again
"Let me introduce you to the group...which I'm also in by the way" Raven's spirits rose slightly at this, she wasn't going to be in a room of complete strangers at least. Raven had really tried to avoid group in the first place. The only thing she had talked to Selene about on there car ride here was if it were possible to get her out of it...but that was not possible...
Collette then went about introducing the rest of the girls "Well you already know me, the girl on your other side is Sandy(She pointed to the rather drained looking blonde next to Raven, she was extremely pale, and the smile she showed Raven looked extremely forced), the redhead next to her is Sophia(She pointed to the only redhead Though the red was so deep it was obviously dyed, it was darker then blood in the group, she flashed a sincere and somewhat coy smile at the mention of her name, she seemed to be one of the more layed back of the group), next to her is Mary(She pointed to a rather beautiful girl, she had bright blonde hair, vibrant blue eyes, and a beautiful figure, she shone one of the most perfect smiles Raven had ever seen at the sound of her name) and last, but not least, Samantha...though we just call her Sam (She pointed now to the girl on the other side of herself, Sam was the most normal looking girl at the table, black hair that stoped a little below her shoulders, hazel eye's and a slightly cocky smirk on her face...she looked like every normal teenager in America...)
Raven sat down with her meal as the other girls started to chat amongst themself.
"So how's Renea doing in the adults wing?"One of the girls asked Collette, Raven couldn't remember if the girl was Mary or Sam. That question was pushed out of her mind by another.
"Adults wing?"Raven asked slightly shyly.
Collette looked at her with a slightly puzzled look. "I thought you took the tour"
"It was kind of rushed..."Raven blushed slightly at her lack of knowledge.
"Ok, did you see a pair of double doors that you didn't get a explanation for?" Collette asked
Raven couldn't remember, she after all, didn't pay much attention. So she just nodded in agreement.
"Ok, those go to the other two wings of this place, this wing is for anyone under the age of 18, there's no minimum age to come here, so every once in awhile we get some little eight year old girl in here..."
This shocked Raven, eight? They sent people that young to a live in mental hospital?
Collette continued "One of the other wings is basically the exact same as this wing, but for people 18 and over. Thats the wing we were talking about. A friend of ours just turned 18 and she was moved there last week..."
"What's the third wing?"Raven asked, her curiosity peeked
"The residential wing...if you have no chance of ever getting out they stick you in there, regardless of your age..."
While Raven was a bit worried that there was a 'full time, never leave' type place just feet from her...the fact that she wasn't bad enough to be put there did make her feel better.
And in her present situation, that was the best to hope for...
To feel...just a little bit better...
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The rest of the meal went rather fast, Raven opted not to join in any of the conversation topics. She after all, still knew very little about this place, and even less about the people.
They were now heading down the hall, they had group now, Raven was reluctantly near the front of the group. She wanted to stay near Collette, unfortunately Collette liked to be at the front of the group.
As they entered the group room Raven took a look around.
There were cabinets along the wall, a desk was off to the side, it was rather messy and there was about three bathrooms worth of cosmetics strewn over it, in the middle of the room were a group of chairs.
As Raven was studying the room the other girls took there respective seats.
This left Raven standing alone in the doorway as the therapist walked in.
"Oh, you must be Rei"Raven's first thought as she saw the woman who was suppose to be the source of authority in the room was 'My god, she must have been really smart if they let her graduate the day she hit puberty'
She did indeed look like she was younger then most of the girls in the group, if Raven had to guess her age, she would say 14 15...maybe 16 tops.
"I guess since we have a new girl we should go around and introduce ourselfs"The shrink said as she took a seat in the nicest chair.
"Actually we already did that..."Raven blushed slightly as she said this, a new person, one who holds a great deal of authority over her (Despite how she looks) and the first thing she says to her is a correction...not good.
"Oh, good, then I suppose you should take your seat"At this Raven realized that she was the only one standing in the room, she cursed inwardly, not only was she embarrassed, but this would seem as if she wasn't ready to co-operate, this might keep her here longer...but surely they would look at the whole, not just one incident...
Raven took a seat in the only available chair. As the shrink introduced herself "I guess I'm the only one in the room you haven't met, I'm Jaime"
Raven had to hold back a smirk, even her name sounded like it belonged to a teenager.
"I guess since basic introductions are already done we should start, Rei, do you want to tell us about yourself?"
Raven cringed inwardly, she didn't want to talk at all, but she couldn't just say nothing, she would seem uncooperative.
In the end Raven opted for silence and simply shook her head 'No'
Jaime nodded and said "It's alright, you can just listen for today"
Raven nodded, she was glad, because she really didn't want to retell her story so soon after telling the titans, then showing Selene her scars.
The entire session seemed like it dragged on forever despite the fact that they took a fifteen minute break after the first hour, but that might because Raven felt awkward just sitting in her chair not talking while everyone told the group some of there most private secrets, Raven could never imagine telling anyone but the titans her story, though after how it turned out with that, she would be more reluctant to tell even them, and it also gave Raven a chance to learn more about the other girls.
(AN:You might want to refer to the first descriptions of these girls so you can more easily remember them)
Sophia appeared to have a drug problem, and a behavioral problem that Raven doubted very much was cutting.
It seemed as Ravens guess about Mary having an eating disorder was accurate, there was something else, but she didn't talk about it enough for Raven to get a sense of what it was.
Samantha, or 'Sam', seemed to also have a drug problem, but Raven got the sense that it might have just been an excuse to get her in so they could deal with her 'Behavioral problem'. Raven thought this because it seemed that every time she talked, it was about how her parents hated her friends and that it was her business who she spent her time with, and every time Jaime tried to change the subject, though it never worked, all it really did was piss Sam off.
Sandy...well she seemed to want to talk even less then Raven. So Raven had no idea why she was here. The only thing that was for certain, she really didn't want to talk about it.
"Okay, what do I have next?"Raven said to herself as she walked out into the hallway.
"Studying" Collette said as she stuck up behind her.
Raven looked at her schedule "Ha, it says 'Individual therapy'"
"I know, but you don't start 1 on 1 until your second day, so you just have study hall to do...but they never get school work until at least the second day so it should be called 'reading time' cause that's all they will let you do"
Raven nodded, then asked "Why wait a day?"
"It's so all the shrinks trying to crawl in your mind doesn't shock you...at least not until the second day..." Collette chuckled at the last part.
"But wait.."Raven said as she looked at her timetable again "It says 'Study hall' for right after lunch.."
"Yea, I hope you like reading..."
"Are these things completely random?"Raven asked marveling at how unorganized this place was, Raven was under the impression that this place was one of the best ones.
"Not completely random...they have to have all the members of a group therapy session having group at the same time...that would be weird huh? having group, but everyone else is set to have at another time so your like the only one there"
"Also we have to have study hall every day, most of us after all legally have to go to school. The last parameter is that they always have study hall after individual therapy, so your not super irritated from home work...but besides that, ya, completely random"
Just then Collette looked at her watch and her eyes went huge "Shit! I'm late for anger management, um, k, study hall is in the library, go down the hallway and you'll see it. there's a sign over the top, if you run across the double doors to the residential wing you've gone to far k?"
As soon as Raven nodded Collette was off, leaving a slightly confused Raven in her wake as she ran down the hall.
Raven followed Collette's instructions, she remembered the library was closed when Selene gave her the tour. It was only a moment before she came across the double doors with a a sign over that read 'The Dr. B. Bright Memorial Library'
Raven entered and was immediately struck with the fact that this room had not been intended to be a library. It was certainly large enough, but instead of the standard square shape, it was rectangular. It did at least seem to have a good selection though.
As Raven headed of to one of the bookshelves a very sweet old lady appeared from one of the back rooms.
"Oh, your a new face.."
"Uh, I was told to come her for study hall"
"Yes that's right, oh where are my manners, I'm Altena, the librarian"
"I'm Rei, this is my first day here..."
"I assumed that dear, since I received no paperwork that means your school hasn't sent over your homework yet, so you'll just have to read for today"
Raven nodded, she wondered what they were going to do when they didn't receive any work tomorrow, after all she didn't go to school, not that she needed to, Raven had an IQ of above 200, and a mind for literature, not to mention a photographic memory.
She walked over to a bookcase that was filled with old leather bound books, Raven grabbed one and was surprised when she read the title, 'The Divine Comedy: The Inferno'
this was one of Raven's fav. books, she walked over to a rather comfy looking couch and sat down as she opened the book, the publishing date revealed that this copy was second edition of the english version. Raven had a third edition, but in the original spanish.
As Raven started reading she gained a little more respect for this place, hell, any place that had a vintage copy of Dante's work couldn't be all bad.
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Okay, unfortunately I have no will to write and no inspiration, and no time to write it. It all adds up to the fact you won't be seeing a new chap for awile.. Now don't worry, I will continue, but it may take awile...this is actually just a snippet of what I have written, I wanted to write a chapter that had her entire first day in it...but then I worked out what her time table would be and ended up realizing that it would take like 50 pages to do her entire first day so I'm going to break it up...actually I'll give you her time table below (Keep in mind that a few things might change, and I haven't worked out what will happen in those spots that say Day 1 on the other days)
Time Table
8:00am: Wake up
8:00am-8:20am: Getting ready
8:20am-8:45am: BREAKFAST
8:45am-8:55am: Getting ready for and heading to class
8:55am-9:40am: (Day 1) Group therapy
9:40am-9:50am: BREAK
9:50am-10:35am: (Day 1) Group therapy (Continued)
10:35am-10:40am: Get to next Period
10:40am-11:25am: (Day 1) Individual therapy
11:25am-11:35am: BREAK
11:35am-12:20pm: (Day 1) Individual therapy (Continued)
12:20pm-1:20pm: LUNCH/BREAK
1:20pm-2:05pm: (Day 1) Study Hall
2:05pm-2:15pm: BREAK
2:15pm-3:30pm: (Day 1) Study Hall (Continued)
3:30pm-3:35pm: Get to next Period
3:35pm-4:20pm: (Day 1) Anger Management
4:20pm-4:30pm: BREAK
4:30pm-5:15pm: (Day 1) Anger Management (Continued)
5:15pm-6:30pm: Outdoor Activities
6:30pm-7:15pm: DINNER
7:15pm-Respective lights out: FREE TIME