My puberty wasn't that difficult for me… I had too much on my mind to be worried about a few zits, a lot of hair and a squeaking voice. But Mokuba on the other hand… I've noticed all of this and more. So its like I'm going through the 'big change' at 18. And it is hell.
I really hate this. Its like Mokuba is going through it so much, some of it is rubbing off on me. That sounds crazy, I know, but I don't know how else to explain it.
For some reason I know this: that girls, women who spend a lot of time together, will eventually have there cycles together. Well… Mokuba and I aren't female so we don't have to worry about that. But we have something like that. Since I'm going through puberty again, I will break out, for no reason at all. And then he will. Or vice versa. Its weird I don't get it. But whatever.
My voice will squeak, I hate that.
"How was school?" I hate it when he looks at me like that. One eyebrow slightly raised. "That never happened." I tell him. He just smiles. I can control it for the most part. But with him, its like every other word is finished with a high-pitched sound.
I really hate this, not because my voice squeaks, or because I have zits. Its because I can look at myself, at Mokuba, and know that we are human. I don't want to be human. I want to be immortal, I want to be forever. But as long as my brother is too. Because forever would be too long without him. In fact, if I had one wish, that would be it, that we could live forever. How awesome would that be?
I'm afraid of growing up. I'm afraid of getting old. I'm afraid of looking in the mirror one day, and looking at an old fart, I'm petrified of that.
LaNuitInYourEyes: Is Mokuba Catholic? Did I say that? I didn't want him to come off as that. And I know that Christianity isn't very big in Japan, but Seto and Mokuba are world travelers, they have see a lot of different people and their religions that go along with it.