I'm slowly killing myself. With sleepless nights, pots of coffee and mid night flights to the middle of nowhere. I'll be dead by the time I'm 30. Live fast, die young, right?
The thought of being dead makes me shiver. What would happen to Mokuba, to the company, to Mokuba? He's the only thing I really care about, but what would happen to him? I know that he'll be an adult, hopefully when I pass, but how will he take it?
He is my very reason for life… I know that he dose not feel the same way about me, and I'm all right with that. I want him to have others, I want him to be better off than I am, or ever will be. Because he's better than I am. So I think that he will be bothered… when I die. He will cry and he will miss me so much. And he'll always think of me.
But he wont kill him self, like he dose in my dream.
I have this reoccurring nightmare, I die. And then one week later, they find him, dead on my grave a bullet in his head. His death scars me more than my own. I don't want that to happen, I can't let that happen.
If I do die, before he is old enough to take care of himself. Roland is his legal guardian. That might sound weird, leaving my brother to my main assistant. But whom else would I leave him with? Who else would I trust with him? But I'm not paneling on dieing a day before his 18th birthday. After that, I can rest a little easier. But not much easier.
I know I already worte one about this... but it's important to Seto... its important to all of us.