Stand Still- Chapter Eight: You Can't Help Who You Love
Summary: Luke and Lorelai broke up after her parents wedding, then she left Stars Hollow when Mike Armstrong offered her that job. But now shes back in town, 5 years later,to give Luke something, onlyto find that he is a very changed man and there's something he isn't telling her. What's he hiding and what will she do when she finds out?
Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls or any of it's characters. I only write this for fun and don't make any money off of it or anything like that.
Rating: pg13 just to be safe
A/N:
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Now to what you've been waiting for...
"Hi, Lorelai," Rebecca said as she walked up behind Lorelai.
Lorelai jumped, "oh you scared me." She turned around to look at the blonde woman who was giving her a very weird look. She was looking at her as if she knew something that Lorelai didn't, something that would make her unhappy. She began to get nervous and maybe even a little bit scared.
"I just wanted to talk to you for a few minutes. Wanna go outside?" Rebecca asked.
Lorelai nodded. She knew this wouldn't end up good.
They got outside and stood there for a few seconds in silence.
"I know what your doing." Rebecca stated as she crossed her arm over her chest.
"What am I doing?" Lorelai asked as if she really didn't know, but of course she knew.
"I know your trying to get Luke back. So I just thought I'd save you some time and tell you not to bother." Rebecca told her.
"Not to bother?" Lorelai repeated.
"Yes. Don't bother, he won't go back to you, Lorelai. I wish you'd understand that. He's not going to go back to someone who he knows will only break his heart again. He's not going to just let go of a great realationship like ours and go back with you so that you can only hurt him again. He's done with you, Lorelai. He's done with your games and your lies. He's done with you hurting him." Rebecca told her.
Lorelai wasn't sure what to say. That was what she had been fearing the most, that Luke wouldn't go back to her because he was afraid to. She was scared that Rebecca was right, that he wouldn't go back to someone who hurt him. She held in the tears as she listened to Rebecca go on and on.
"And all I've ever done for him is support him and love him, so just give me one good reason why he would leave me for you. You broke his heart and tore it into shreads and then I put it back together. If a dog eats your shoe, you get it fixed and then make sure you keep the shoe far from the dog..." Rebecca said.
Lorelai wanted to laugh at what she had just said, but she was too upset to laugh at her. She was so afraid that maybe she was right, maybe he wouldn't go back to her, maybe she was only wasting her time trying to get him back.
"I just wanted to tell you so you wouldn't waste your time."
"If your so sure he won't go back to me, then you shouldn't have to worry about anything I might do, right?" Lorelai said fighting the tears that were about to come. She didn't want her to think she had given up, although, maybe she had. Maybe she was right, maybe Luke wouldn't go back to her because she hurt him, why should he anyway? Maybe all of this was just a waste of her time, maybe she should just pack her bags and go back to New York. Maybe this was a mistake.
Rebecca rolled her eyes and then walked away, looking back at Lorelai every few steps, and giving her the evil eye.
"Hey big brother!" Liz said as she came into the diner that morning. Her and TJ were still married and still living in Stars Hollow.
"Hey Liz," he said. She could tell he wasn't in a good mood.
"I hear that Lorelai is back in town, boy I missed her around here. You were so much happier when she was around." She said not knowing what she was getting herself into.
"No I wasn't." He snapped back at her.
"Sure you were, and that glow you got when you talked about her, it was so sweet." She smiled as she remembered how things used to be.
"I didn't glow." He argued.
"Yes you did." She told him.
"No I didn't... I'm getting married, Liz. Lorelai is just my ex girlfriend, she's just a friend." He told her.
"Luke, you know as well as I do that Lorelai Gilmore will never just be a friend to you." She smiled.
"That's not true. I love Rebecca. I'm marrying Rebecca." He told her, trying more to convince himself than his sister.
"You just want to love Rebecca because you know she won't hurt you, you know that she'll love you forever. You know that Rebecca will stay by you. But you really love Lorelai, your just afraid to admit it because your afraid she will hurt you." Liz told her older brother.
"C'mon," he said leading her out the door. They stood near the gazebo and began talking.
"I'm just...uh... confused..." He told her quietly. "I thought we'd be happy together, I thought I had finally got over her...But then, she comes back... I don't know...She's only a friend..." Luke told her.
"Luke...Can you see yourself in twenty or thirty years still with Rebecca?" Liz asked.
"Sure I can," he said and it was the truth. Rebecca was a nice, smart girl and he could see them together.
"Can you see yourself in twenty or thirty years without her?" Liz asked begginning to get very serious, a side of Liz that not too many people knew very well, not even Luke.
He thought for awhile, "Yeah I can." He said and sighed.
"Now...Can you see yourself with Lorelai in twenty years, being happy and everything?" Liz asked.
"Yeah..." He answered.
"Can you see yourself in twenty years, without Lorelai, but still happy and completely over her?" She asked.
Again, he thought for a very long time. "I don't know."He told her as he shoved his hands into his pockets and began to study the ground.
"You love Lorelai. Whether you want to love her or not, you do. Whether you want to admit it or not, you still love her...I think you always will. And I know that she loves you, so why don't you just get it all over with and tell her how you feel, and you better let your fiance know, too." Liz told him.
"Liz..." Luke started even though he wasn't sure what his response to that would be.
"Luke...You can't help you who love, right?" Liz asked him.
"No, I guess not," was his response.
"...I know you don't want to get your heart broken again, but neither does she. You guys could end up having something really great. But if you never act on these feelings, you could be missing on that really great thing just because you were too afraid to get hurt." Liz said.
"But what if I try things out with Lorelai and then regret letting Rebecca go?" He asked. The second he had said it, he couldn't believe that he actually had. Was he really considering going back to Lorelai?
"You could go either way, Luke. But do you really want to go through life wondering what would have happened if you had just taken that chance with Lorelai? Like, do you ever go back to a moment in your life where you had to make a big decision and wonder what would have happened if you made a different decision? I- I just don't want you to have regrets, Luke. I know it sounds really cheesy, but listen to your heart...It's like the song...Just, do what your heart tells you to do." Liz said.
"Thanks, Lizzie, really, thanks." He told her.
"But, just think about this...You and Lorelai would have beautiful babies together!" She told him.
"Now that's the Liz I know and love." He joked.
"I have to go, brother. I'll see you later, love you!" She said.
As Luke walked back to the diner, he had so much to think about. He didn't even know where to start. When did everything get so hard? When did it all become so confusing and difficult? He didn't know...all he knew was that he had a lot of thinking to do.
"Hey Mom!" Rory greeted her mother when she came in the diner. Rory was sitting in the far table by the window. The diner was pretty busy. Lorelai sat across from her daughter.
"I think the plan's off." Lorelai told her.
"What?" Rory asked.
"It's off. I'm only wasting my time going after Luke. He won't go back to me, not after I screwed up." Lorelai said with the sound of defeat.
Rory looked at the sad woman sitting in front of her. This couldn't be it, she couldn't just let her mother give up. She loved Luke and she knew that Luke loved her, she couldn't just give up, not again.
"No, Mom. Your wrong, your so wrong." Rory told her grabbing her arm.
"No, Rory. I was wrong before, now I'm totally on target. Why would he go back to me after all I did? Rory...If a dog eats your shoe, you get it fixed and then you keep the shoe far far away from the dog..." Lorelai said.
"Where did you hear that?"
"It's not important...but it's true, it's very true. I'm only wasting my time." Lorelai said looking down at the table.
"Mom, what about the horoscope and the ring and the Lorelai Box! That all means something. He doesn't just have all of those things because he thinks they'll be worth money someday! He still loves you, Mom." Rory said.
"It doesn't matter, even if he did love me, he wouldn't go back to me. He's happy now, I shouldn't try and screw that up." Lorelai said.
"Mom, it's Luke...he's the one, remember? You can't just let him go without a fight." Rory told her mother, trying to get her to cheer up a little bit.
She wasn't going to let her mom give up, not after all of this. There was no way that Lorelai Gilmore was going to give up on Luke, no way.
Luke walked into his house that night. He sat down on the couch and listened to the silence. He never realized how empty the house was. It was so big, so big and so empty.
"Luke! It's one o'clock in the morning, honey, what are you doing out here? You have to go home..." Babette said as she walked over to him, rubbing her shoulders trying to keep warm.
"I don't want to, not yet." He said still staring at her house, Lorelai's house.
"Honey, you've been out here all day, all night. You have to leave sometime." She said touching his shoulder.
"Not yet." He told her still staring at the house.
"Honey..."
"Has anyone offered to buy the house yet?" He said, finally turn to look at her.
"Well...no...You've scared them all of."
"I want to buy it." He said looking back at the house that stood in front of them.
"You what?"
"I want to buy it. I'll give you whatever you want for it, I just want it."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"Really?"
"Yes."
"Maybe you should just get some sleep..."
"No, I'm sure. I want the house."
"We'll talk about it in the morning, OK doll?"
"Just tell me I can have the house." He said. He looked at her again, straight into her eyes.
"Luke..."
"Tell me I can have the house, Babette. I want this house. I need this house. Nobody else should live in this house.Everyone else will just change it, put an addition on or a basketball hoop in the driveway...I'll keep it exactly the same. Please, tell me I can have the house." He looked very serious, very sad...She knew she didn't have a chance.
"You can have the house, honey."
He remembered that night so well, as if it was yesterday. He had been sitting on Lorelai's porch for hours until Babette finally told him to leave. It had become a routine of theirs the last few days, but that night it was different. He didn't just go home like he usually did, instead he bought her house. He was never really sure why he did it. It was a big house, too big for only him. For awhile he was just hoping that Lorelai would come home to him and they could live there together. But then she didn't. After exactly one year had passed, he gave up hope and then he made the Lorelai Box. He stopped wearing his flannel and his hats, and he started sleeping on the couch. He couldn't sleep in her room, not yet.
But then Rebecca came along and she asked a lot of questions. In the begginning he didn't really care and would just change the subject when she asked why he never slept in his bedroom. But then, he had to answer her so that's when he finally slept in that room, her room. He didn't have a choice, it was hard the first week, he didn't get much sleep. But after that it wasn't as hard, he barely ever thought about it.
Then he began to wear his hats and his flannel, again. He thought he was getting over her, he really thought he was. But after Rebecca told him she didn't like that look, he began to get flashbacks, of her. He began thinking about Lorelai again, he could even smell her when he wore the shirts that she used to wear.He thought he was going crazy,so he put them back into his Lorelai Box and never took them out again.
Rebecca was happy, and well...He was just ignoring it, he was ignoring all of his Lorelai thoughts. He didn't think too much of it, not until Lorelai came back. And now that she was back, he had no idea what was going to happen.
His conversation with Liz kept running over and over in his head. She seemed so sure, like she had a crystal ball somewhereand knew exactly what was going to happen. It was like she knew that him and Lorelai would end up together, that they would be happy. It wasas ifshe was reading a fairy tale and the two main characters were him and Lorelai, and she knew that by the end they would live happily ever after.
Happily Ever After...What a crazy thought.
He just couldn't get the questions out of his head...
What if by trying something with Lorelai, he was missing on a great thing, the real thing with Rebecca?What if by marrying Rebecca he would be missing out on something wonderful with Lorelai?What if he regretted leaving Rebecca? What if she was the one? But what if Lorelai was the one?
There were so many buts and what ifs. When did this all become so complicated?
"...I know you don't want to get your heart broken again, but neither does she. You guys could end up having something really great. But if you never act on these feelings, you could be missing on that really great thing just because you were too afraid to get hurt."
Maybe she was right?
A/N: So...As I finish writing this you guys are reading the 3rd chapter...I wonder where I'll be when you are reading this chapter...Yes anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for all of your wonderful reviews, in case I haven't said it enough.
Next chapter is veryyy long soo it makes up for the shorter chapters I have been writing,and I promise to post it soon!
But anyway,
Next chapter: Luke and Rebecca have a serious talk and make some decisions. Rory tries to convince Lorelai to go through with her plan. And Kirk has one of his bright ideas...