#68 Thorns (pt. 4)
Raining Tear Drops
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I watched her struggle against the door. It was stuck as it did whenever the weather was cold enough. She began to whimper and cry at her luck. I felt bad. I slowly walked to her. I bent down to touch her face in a friendly gesture. She receded back from me. I slowly bent down beside her trembling form. I picked her up bridal style and strode into the bathroom across the room. I placed the plug in the tub and let the water flow from the spout at a reasonable temperature that would help to heat her exhausted body.
"Please do not cry. I am here to help you."
I slowly began to undress her and tried to be modest and not let my eyes wonder. This was hardly a time for such. She whimpered when the cool air hit her body. I placed her within the recesses of the tub and began to let her hair down from the odangos. She looked at me unshed tears in her eyes.
"I am not going to hurt you." I tried reassuringly. "I only wish to help you. After you are better you may leave." She nodded and I began to wash her hair.
I used a bowl to wash out the shampoo and conditioner. When I finished cleaning her, I pulled a towel from beneath the sink and handed it to her. She wrapped it around her body and secured it so it would not fall.
"May I look at your wrist?" I reached for it. She did not pull away. When I examined it I noticed it had clotted forming a crust over it. The cut was shallow and she had not lost too much blood. I grabbed the gauze and some ointment. I began to wrap it and what she asked next made me stop.
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why help me. You hate me. I am nothing but a burden and a thorn in the existence of this world. You should have left me to die. Why did you not?" her eyes held mine and I could see the determination present.
"No one deserves to die."
"No one would miss me." She looked away from my eyes.
"Someone would." She barely heard it but I saw her gaze snap to me.
"And how would you know." I secured the gauze into place. She snapped her wrist away from my grasp. "You have only deepest hatred for me. I am of no use to this world. Sorry to have wasted your time."
She turned away and walked out of the bathroom. It took a second for me to realize what she was implying. I walked out after her and she was banging upon the door that held her captive to me. Slowly she sank to her knees on the floor. "Why me. Why couldn't I have just died in peace? This pain is just too much to bear." She hung her head. The golden strands skimming across the floor.
I sank to my knees behind her and pulled her to my body. "Because, though it may not look to be, I don't want you to leave." I took a deep breath and prepared to tell her something I have told no one. "Usagi. If you left my world would be pain, I would fall into the depression you have now. There would be no light. Everything around me would cease to exist and I would fall into a despair as your own." I turned her to face me. "I brought you here because I care for you. I want you here. And if you will have it, I would like to help you with the pain you are experiencing. I am sorry for the way I have treated you in the past. I thought that if I made it look as if I hated you no one would ever know the feelings behind the things I say. But the truth is, I like you Usagi. I have since the day you threw the paper into my head. I only hope you can accept me. But I just want one thing before you walk away from me forever. But know, I will wait."
He moved his lips to her own and kissed her with pent up feelings and emotion. They all poured into her. Then it was gone. He stood and pulled the door open.
"You can go." He turned away from her and shadowed back to his room. She was torn. Her life as of now was the opposite of what it had been a few hours ago. She did the only thing she could. She ran out the door and didn't stop until she was a block away from his home.
She needed time to think. Which, he had given her just that. He said he would wait.