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Warning: Contains mild language, violence, sexual situations and shonen ai/yaoi (mxm pairings) if any of this bothers you, do not read. Rating changed to R for this chapter and some future chapters.

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I Like Hating Him:

Rooftop Confessions

Kyo sat up on the roof and looked at the stars. He felt sick to his stomach and couldn't believe what he had just done with Yuki. The kissing and messing around he could have pushed aside attributing it to hormones and the curse, but he had lost his virginity to his male cousin who he hated, and even worse, all he could think about was experiencing Yuki's body again.

Kyo messaged his temples. Why did everything have to be so confusing? Why hadn't he stopped? Why had he allowed himself to be guided inside Yuki's body and why was he so damned disappointed when it had ended? At the time he thought he wanted to feel the sensations forever. He had left immediately after, hastily pulling on his pants and retreating to the roof, humiliated by how he had slammed against Yuki; by how he had called out his cousin's name.

Yuki had said nothing when he had left, but had only stared at the ceiling his eyes full of turmoil. Kyo felt he should have said something, but didn't know what to say.

"Kyo?" Yuki pulled himself onto the roof and walked toward his cousin tentatively.

"What do you want?" Kyo snapped.

"Calm down, you don't have to be so nasty." Yuki tilted his head up disdainfully.

In the evening light Yuki looked beautiful, and Kyo suppressed the urge to stand up and kiss him. "How am I supposed to calm down after…that?" Kyo steamed.

"Oh, I see, so now it's all my fault. You weren't exactly kicking and screaming."

Kyo let out a grunt of disapproval.

"Oh, I'm sorry let me revise that statement." Yuki gave him an undeniably sexy half smile, "You weren't kicking, but I do recall screaming."

"Shut up, you stupid rat!" Kyo's eyes were afire with rage. "I guess I didn't realize what kind of danger I was in. I didn't know you were so…experienced, but I should have guessed. You always did seem to play for the other team."

Yuki's lip trembled the way it did when he saw Akito. "I guess in that way it was my fault, but don't act like I forced you. You could have stopped it if you wanted to." His eyes regained his former confidence.

"So you have done that before." For some reason that fact made Kyo feel even worse.

"That obvious?" Yuki sat down beside him but far enough away that there was no chance of their bodies touching. "I guess it was obvious to me that you hadn't."

"Shut up." Kyo was too curious about Yuki's past sex life to come up with a good response. "So who?" he asked trying to sound casual. "Haru?"

"No. I told you we only kissed. No tongue even. It was more of a friend thing." Yuki looked thoughtful.

"I'm sure he'd say different," Kyo responded secretly pleased with the news.

Yuki shrugged. "Probably."

"If not him, then who?"

"Who do think?" Yuki smiled at him ruefully.

"That bastard," Kyo answered. "So you were raped."

"At first, maybe, but eventually I grew to like it okay. Sometimes…after…he would actually treat me like a human. Once he even told me he thought I was special, but you know, it's strange, he never kissed me on the mouth."

Kyo stared at Yuki with disgust. He was disgusted with Akito and disgusted with himself for always wishing he were a part of the zodiac, and for wanting to switch places with Yuki. He had a wonderful father in Kazuma and had spent his youth relatively free. He had never truly realized the torture of Yuki's childhood. He suddenly felt ill again.

"Don't look at me like that. I don't need your understanding or acceptance, stupid cat. You couldn't possibly understand." Yuki's eyes contradicted his words by shimmering with unshed tears.

"I don't think it's your fault." Kyo wasn't sure what to say.

"It wasn't so bad. I had Haru. He was always there for me, and I guess in a way I took advantage of his feelings for me." Yuki pulled his knees close to his chest. "I don't know why I'm telling you all this, but Kyo, if you tell anyone about Akito, I'll make what happened to you a few weeks ago seem like a scraped knee."

"You don't have to threaten me, asshole. What kind of guy do you think I am? I hate you, but not that much." Kyo moved closer and put an arm around him. Yuki leaned into him. "Yuki?"

"Yeah."

"Have you ever been the one to, you know…" Kyo stumbled over the wording.

Yuki arched an eyebrow. "Be on top?"

Kyo flushed. It was amazing that Yuki always seemed to know what he was getting at.

"With Akito? What do you think?"

"Oh." Both were silent for a few moments.

"Kyo?"

"Yeah."

"Do you still hate me?"

Kyo shrugged and turned to Yuki surprised to see him looking up at him. Their lips met in a simple chaste kiss which held more intimacy than any of the acts before it.

000

"I'm glad you're back to normal." Haru had met up with Kyo, Tohru, and Yuki between classes. "I thought I'd lost my sparring partner."

Kyo grinned at his cousin. "Just tell me when, and I'll gladly kick your ass."

"I bet you've been all over Yuki." Haru grinned wickedly.

"Huh?" Both Yuki and Kyo looked alarmed.

"I mean now that the real Kyo's back, he probably wants to fight you all the time." Haru smirked at Yuki.

Tohru looked thoughtful. "Actually I haven't seen them fight at all. Not that I'm saying the two of you should fight. I mean, it's great to have everyone getting along so well, and I just know Shigure is happy not to have to fix his door so often. Not that I mind fixing it. I mean, if the two of you really, really wanted to fight sometimes that would be okay. I wouldn't mind too much as long as you went easy on him, Yuki, he did just get hurt you know."

"We'll fight again." Kyo announced. "I'm just waiting until I'm completely better." Yuki rolled his eyes at this. "It's just a matter of time before I defeat that damn rat."

"I'll be waiting." Yuki's words seemed to have another meaning.

It wasn't that Kyo didn't plan to defeat the rat. His freedom and pride demanded it. It had been about a week since he and Yuki's encounter, and Kyo honestly didn't trust himself to touch his cousin, even in a fight. His thoughts were saturated with Yuki and the sex they shared. He was scared to death of what would happen if Tohru found out or his family. He had vowed to himself that what had happed that night must never happen again. Unfortunately, when he was around Yuki he felt his resolve slipping. He found his eyes constantly following Yuki's movements as he imagined Yuki's mouth pressed to him and what it felt like to be inside him.

Yuki for his part had not approached Kyo, but regarded him with fleeting glances. Kyo guessed Yuki regretted saying too much about Akito. Sometimes their eyes would meet when they caught each other staring and Kyo would always be the first to look away with an angry blush.

"Kyo-Kun?" Tohru's look was concerned.

"Huh." Kyo was brought back from his thoughts.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"Yeah," He answered with a smile. Or at least he would be as soon as he could forget about that damn Yuki.

TBC

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