Disclaimer: I do not own the characters. This story is for entertainment purposes only.

Warning: Contains mild language, violence, sexual situations and shonen ai/yaoi (mxm pairings) if any of this bothers you, do not read.

A/N: Again thank you so much for reading and reviewing. Yes, it was mean of me to break them up. I hope you can all forgive me…someday.

I Like Hating Him:

Lost and Found

Kyo had stayed away for three days and was now a few miles from returning home. He found that he enjoyed the silence and the peace being alone could give him, but he missed Yuki. He hoped that he was handling everything okay and that he believed every word Kyo had said before he left.

Kyo wasn't sure what Yuki would think. The rat probably already knew how he felt about him. He couldn't possibly ignore the way Kyo held him and touched his hair and kissed him even when it wouldn't lead to sex. Kyo was surprised he hadn't noticed his own feelings earlier, but he hadn't wanted to think too much on the issue. The only time Kyo had effectively kept his thoughts and feelings from his cousin was when he had pretended to have forgotten Yuki's attack. He hoped that the incident would be enough to convince Yuki he was now telling the truth.

He wondered how Haru had reacted. He knew from Yuki about Haru's violent outburst after Rin had broken up with him; Kyo hoped that he was actually comforting Yuki--with his white personality. Unfortunately Kyo soon found this wasn't the case.

"So I finally found you!" Haru stood in front of him blocking his path.

"I'm not really in the mood, and what do you mean finally, you stupid cow? We're only about a mile from the house."

Black Haru sneezed before giving Kyo a death glare. "Shut up, bastard! You aren't going to talk me out of this. You'll pay for how you hurt Yuki."

"Oh, yeah. I'd like to see you try. Even in black form I'll still kick your scrawny ass."

Haru sneezed again. "Who said I wanted to fight you. There are other ways to make you pay." Haru grabbed Kyo as if he were going to kiss him. Kyo turned his head in time and their cheeks touched. Haru was burning up. Soon Kyo found himself trapped beneath a black and white cow.

000

"You are such a moron." Kyo told Haru who had returned to his normal form and was currently bundled up in Kyo's sleeping bag. "So you got lost. Big surprise."

Haru frowned slightly. "I was so angry I couldn't think straight. I ended up getting caught in a storm and then I couldn't get back home."

"I'm glad I found you when I did," Kyo regarded him with slight concern. "Your fever was pretty high. Do you need me to get someone?"

Haru shook his head. "No, I think I'm a little better now, and we need to talk."

"Is Yuki okay?"

"What do you think? I don't know exactly what you said to him, but he was acting like my black side and that's just not like him."

"I'm surprised you didn't try to kill me."

Haru flushed. "It's really weird, but ever since I saw…you know…my black side doesn't seem to want to hurt you."

"Oh." Kyo's flush matched Haru's. "Hell no. My life is complicated enough as it is."

"I wasn't making an offer. So what really happened? I mean I heard rumors you were summoned by Akito. Did he find out or something like that?"

"Something like that."

"So like the other morons in the family you decide that the only way to save everyone from pain is to break Yuki's heart. Man, I wish I could think like this when I'm black. It all makes perfect sense now, but you're an idiot. You're not helping anyone and you'll only make things worse for him. If he were mine, I would fight for him."

"If he were yours, I'm not sure which one of you Akito would be angry with. After all you are two of his favorites."

"Lucky us." Haru looked thoughtful. "Kyo, I'm sure sooner or later Yuki will figure out the truth. He's not stupid."

"He might, but as long as I live I'll deny it, and if you really love him as much as you claim, you'll help me out. It's just not safe for us to be together, and besides I'm a complete asshole. I'd only end up doing something stupid down the road anyway."

"Do you love him?"

Kyo flushed and shrugged. Although he could admit it in the privacy of his mind, he definitely wasn't ready to say it out loud.

Haru stared at him for an uncomfortable amount of time. "Fine. Have it your way. If you can't own up to it, you don't deserve him anyway."

"Do you think he'll be okay."

"Of course. He has me. I'll always be there for him, and I'll always tell him how I feel about him."

Kyo flinched. "Good, I hope the two of you have a damn good time together."

Haru smirked slightly. "I hope you aren't making a mistake. I hope you aren't using this honorable martyr thing as an excuse to not have to deal with your feelings."

Kyo hated that Haru was so damn perceptive. He had been that way since they were children. "That could be part of it," Kyo's voice shook with emotion, "but mostly I just don't want to hurt him."

Haru sat up and pulled Kyo into an embrace. Kyo welcomed it and gave his cousin a firm hug in return. They stayed that way until Kyo finally pulled away.

000

Kyo had avoided Yuki at all costs the entire week after he had returned. He was worried that he'd have a hard time hiding his true emotions.

Tohru was beside herself with worry, but spent most of her time with Yuki who hadn't seemed himself. Yuki had shot him cool glances and had made no attempt to speak to him which was why Kyo was surprised when he suddenly burst into his room.

"Come on, you stupid cat, you're walking with us to school."

"Huh?" was Kyo's only response.

Yuki's voice was angry and he avoided making eye contact with Kyo. "I'm tired of listening to her whining. Do you think Kyo's okay? The two of you have been acting really strange. Did I do something wrong? Things have to be normal again or I'll go insane."

"Normal?" Kyo smiled slightly.

"You know, the three of you happily holding hands and acting like a threesome." Shigure said from the doorway.

"Like you should talk about threesomes." Kyo snorted and gave Shigure a death glare. He hadn't spoken to him either and knew he would never forgive him.

"Pervert." Yuki muttered.

"Well, I'm just glad to see the two of you on speaking terms. I was afraid our little flower would be too distressed to enjoy her graduation present." Whistling, Shigure walked on.

"Graduation present?" Kyo looked after him.

"Don't ask me." Yuki shrugged. "I'm sure whatever it is, it's perverse and twisted."

"Most likely." Kyo and Yuki's eyes met and a spark of desire flashed between them.

"You still want me." Yuki acknowledged with a smirk. "I don't know what the hell last week was about, but you still want to jump me. Interesting."

"In your dreams, you damn rat," Kyo huffed for some reason truly pissed. "You are so conceited." Didn't the rat know he was trying to help him? Yuki was so infuriating.

Kyo was seated on the bed and was surprised when Yuki took a seat next to him. He put his hand on Kyo's inner thigh and trailed his hand up to the evidence. Kyo made no move to stop him. He didn't want to. "No I don't think it's only in my dreams," Yuki said triumphantly.

Kyo shuddered, his body demanding Yuki.

Yuki rubbed for a few seconds before stopping suddenly and saying, "Come on, Tohru's waiting."

It took every ounce of Kyo's self-control to keep him from showing Yuki how much he truly wanted him.

TBC

In the next chapter you'll learn about Tohru's graduation present. Please let me know what you thought of this chapter. I welcome any kind of feedback.