We finished our food and ordered some dessert to share, the night had been going great. We talked as if we were old friends just catching up and had no former issues. I loved it that way though, I didn't have to feel awkward around him and him to me as well. I had told him stories about Laura and he had laughed as he could see how much like me she was. He told me about how he had always wanted kids, especially a girl, but Lana just never seemed ready for it. I felt for him, if only he knew he already did have a daughter than he could've had a little joy.
The dessert comes and we dig in right away, we got some sort of chocolate cake, it is like six layers of chocolate. Clark knew exactly what I liked, I still can't believe he remembers I love chocolate cake almost as much as I do journalism. He gets his fork to the slice of cake before I do and holds his fork out for me to eat off of. I laugh and lean forward eating the cake off the fork.
"Mmmm" I lick my lips and finish the bite, the joy in his laughter is easily heard. I pick up my fork and take a chunk out for him and hold it out for him to eat off of. But little does he know I have a trick up my sleeve, as he leans in I take fork and bonk him on the nose. There is chocolate all over his nose, and I can't contain my laughter. I drop my fork and start laughing out loud.
He is shocked at first but then starts to laugh at me because I am being so loud. People are staring but I really don't care, I look back to him and he still has it all on his nose and is looking at me funny. I stop laughing and look back at him as I wipe away a tear that has fallen, "What?"
"Well are you going to get that or not, I mean I surely can't." He smiles a wicked smile at me, kind of like the one Kal used to use when he wanted things. It was scary and oh so sexy at the same time. He was leaning over the table as far as he could, I bit my lip unsure of what to do.
I quickly leaned in and we caught each others eyes, I stared into his eyes for a while before I stuck out my tongue and slowly licked off the chocolate. When I was done I did what I never thought I would do again. I leaned in and kissed Clark.
We sat there for a few moments just with our lips pressed against each others and enjoying the moment. I slowly pulled back, but still kept our faces close, and just stared back at him. I licked my lips and bit the lower one and let out a small laugh, "Sorry."
He watched me with his eyes and I felt like I was naked, he said nothing at first and I started to get uncomfortable. Then out of no where he leaned in the rest of the distance between us and kissed me again. This time, as much as I wanted it, I knew I had to pull back.
"Clark wait, we shouldn't be doing this." I sit all the way back in my chair and take a sip of my drink.
He looks at me in confusion, "And why not Chl..Lois? I still have feelings for you and by the kissing you still have some for me." He looked so hurt, and I felt awful.
"Because Clark you are a married man, and I don't want to be the other woman that could break up a marriage." As much as it pained me to remind myself he had married Lana over me I had to remind him so he knew what we wanted was wrong.
"Lois, Lana and I are getting a divorce. It will be final next week, you will always be the other woman though. I could never really stop thinking of you and what we had. I felt so much more of a connection with you than I ever did with Lana. " He is still looking at me with those eyes and my defenses are easily falling.
"Clark how dare you put that on me, do you know how bad I feel now? You had your chance with me but you chose her, why would you want me now?" I was not in the mood to cry in front of people, I take out my purse put money for the tip down and slowly walk out.
I can hear Clark fumbling to pay for the rest of the bill and trying to catch up to me. I pick up my pace and get to the door and walk out, the cold night air of the city attacks me at my weakest and I freeze.
I feel his presence and before I can do anything about it I feel his arms wrap around me. I close my eyes and shutter, letting tears fall down my face, I have nothing to say to him so I stand there waiting for him.
"Lois, I didn't mean to put the blame on you, and your not to blame. Your right I had my chance with you and I was stupid and threw it away. If I could I would take that decision back, I would chose you." He is running his hands up and down my arms to warm me up and it is working but damned if I let him know that.
"But you didn't chose me, do you know how badly that hurt me Clark?" I ripped away from his embrace and turned to face him, "Do you have any idea at all?"
Tears were falling uncontrollably down my face now and I didn't even care. I stare at him and await his answer for I have been dieing to know the answer for over five years now. He stares at me, "I never meant to hurt you, I didn't want to tie you down and stop you from living your life. I didn't want you to have to put off your life for me, I didn't know if I was ever going back to the city and didn't want to make you wait for me. I am not worth that much."
I laugh and roll my eyes at him, "Clark you never mean to hurt anyone, it just happens. Clark as much as you want to think you aren't worth much you were worth more than the world to me. I would've waited for you to fly back to me." I feel cheesy as I am using lines from my own old love letter I wrote for him.
He comes up to me and wipes away my tears, I want to push him off but I just have no energy to fight him. He brushes the wisps' of hair out of my face and just cups my face with his hands. "Chloe, please give me a second chance?"
He uses my old name again, I know he really means it then. I look up at him but have to look away before I completely crumble at his feet. I look up at the night sky, you can barely see the stars in the city, which I hate. "I don't know Clark, just I don't know. I want to but I just don't know how it would affect Laura."
He nods to let me know he understands, he removes his hands from my face and place them on my lower back hugging me to him. "I understand, but I thin we should finish our date how about you?" He turns and asks the valet to summon our limo and turns back to me and smiles.
I am thankful for him wanting to resume a normal night, "Thank you, and that would be great. Should we head back to my apartment for some coffee or something?" I see the limo pull up and I turn and start walking towards it.
Clark walks in front of me and gets the door, "That sounds great, in?"
"In, but you do know I am capable of opening a door and getting in myself right?" I am happy the mood has changed again and we can be joking with each other.
He laughs at me as he gets in the car and tells the driver back to my apartment. "Yes I know but I like to do it for you."
I smile and look down at my hands in my lap and the rest of the ride is quite as we don't really know what to talk about. We arrive at my apartment and he once again gets the door for me and tips the driver even though I told him he didn't have to. We walk side by side for a while then he slides his hand up and grabs mine, I look down then up at him. He is smiling but looking straight ahead, he is so cute. I don't really want to break the bond so I just leave it, we walk hand in hand into the building and up to the elevator.
I hit the button and we wait patiently for the elevator, we hear a ding and the elevator to our right opens up. I lead him into the empty elevator and he obediently follows me. I push the fifteenth floor button and stand beside him, I look up at him and smile again. I am at a loss for words, I just don't know what to talk about.
He smiles back and I look down at my feet and realize that my feet are killing me. a strap on the heels is digging in and really killing me. I turn to Clark and drop his hand, "Hold on," I bend down and fix the strap so it isn't cutting into my skin anymore and just when I am standing back up the elevator lurches and I fall forward onto Clark.
I pushed him up against the elevator wall and I am pressed hard against his body, we are almost in the exact same position we where that one time in senior year. We were trying to figure out how the girl Lex was with, who he was framed to have murdered, had lost her earring. I remember I thought there was something there, in that moment but then the elevator door opened and a mother with her two girls found us. I look back up at him and he has a look of surprise on his face, just like then. "Hi…"
He relaxes his face and smiles at me, "Hi.." then he moves his hand and places them on my lower back. I feel a buzz go through me, just like the one that used to go through me when we used to date and he would touch me. I close my eyes and surpress a little moan by biting my lip really hard this time. Next thing I knew Clark was leaning down and kissing me again.
I wanted to push myself off but he had a firm hold on me, and to be honest I really didn't want to anyways. I actually deepened the kiss and started to trace his bottom lip with my tongue.
He was starting to grab and press me harder against him and I could feel his erection growing. Good to know I can still make that work, he finally lets me in and I start to explore his mouth with my tongue. Even though it has been so long I still remember every contour of his mouth, body, and mind.
We hear the elevator ding signaling that we had arrived at our floor and we broke apart. I look up at him and can see he is starting to blush, as am I, I smile and grab his hand and lead him out of the elevator and to my door.
-x-A new update here, I know this one is a bit shorter than the rest have been but I just thought this would be a perfect place to leave off. Plus I also thought this chapter had enough goodies in it to make up for the length. But I hope to update again soon, but don't forget to drop me a review!