Hey all. Sorry for taking so long to update, but college has started for me, so the update may take longer to post, but I put them out as fast as I can. Remember I don't own Inuyasha, but I wish I did.

Chapter 19

With each passing day, the twins were getting stronger as they grew. Sesso had even pulled himself into a sitting position within a week. Kagome smiled at her health, strong twins; but then sighed, knowing Sesshoumaru hadn't seen his pups yet and she didn't know what to do. At times of despair, she would hold onto her two necklaces, the Shikon Jewel and the sun necklace that she has had ever since birth. She has never taking off the sun necklace since it was the first gift from her real parents. She treasured the Shikon Jewel as well, but she knew that she was meant to protect it; her sun necklace was different.

Kagome looked over and saw Rin had fallen asleep next to the twins, who were also asleep, and smiled. Rin had taken on the older sibling role and feel it was her duty to help watch over them. Kagome took this opportunity to go out for awhile and try to clear her mind. She looked over at Mira and Mira understood that she wanted her to make sure her children were okay. Kagome then left the cave and entered the quiet forest.

Sesshoumaru was still determined to find his mate no matter what happened to him. He would search for her until time itself stopped dead in its tracks and even then he would continue to search. He missed her so much that he had hardly slept much. He followed the old scent deep into the forest, but then he caught a small whiff of her near by. He masked his scent so that he could get close to her. He followed the scent as it led him deep into the forest, hoping that he would finally find her.

Kagome continued through the forest until she came to a ledge that looked down into a valley. She walked up to the edge and looked across the valley at two mountain peaks and in the middle the sun was setting. She felt the breeze blow her hair behind her and she took her necklace into her hand. She lowered her head and felt a tear roll down her cheek. "Why Sesshoumaru? Why can't I forget you? I see you in my dreams and your face will not leave my mind, but I can't forget what you did." She looked up to the sky and said, "Someone help me."

Sesshoumaru followed the scent and it led him to a ledge that bordered his lands and the Southern Lands. He then saw what he had been searching for. Kagome was standing at the ledge with her head bent down. He heard say everything and it hurt him. She was asking him why she could not forget him. He had to show himself before she left him again. He stepped out of the forest and slowly walked toward her. He stopped a couple of feet from her and said, "Kagome."

Kagome gasped and turned around to see Sesshoumaru standing there. There was a long silent pause for a few minutes, but then Sesshoumaru said in a soft voice, "Kagome, I finally found you." He was about to walk toward her when she said, "Don't come near me, Sesshoumaru! I haven't forgiven you for what you have done to me and Rin." "Kagome, you have to understand, I was under a spell of some sort that cause this." Kagome narrowed her eyes and said, "How can I believe you? For the past four months, you have brought nothing but suffering upon me and Rin. I can't forget and forgive just like that. It doesn't work that way." Sesshoumaru came a step closer and said, "If you cannot believe me, then look into your heart then to me and find the answer. Your heart will tell you what to believe; but you have to understand when I say that over the two months that I was like that, I was under a spell I could not rid myself of until that night when you left." Kagome's eyes softened and there was sadness in her voice. "I want to believe you, I really do, but part of me is still hurt and is worried that it may happen again. I'm sorry Sesshoumaru, but I don't know if I can fully trust you right now."

Kagome then turned and began to walk away from Sesshoumaru, but then was stopped by Sesshoumaru gently taken her hand. "Kagome, I told you four months ago after we defeated Naraku that I never wanted to lose you ever again; and then I received a box and when I opened it, there was this purple mist that surrounded me and then it goes blank until that night when you left. Watching you leave forced whatever consumed me out and I felt like I had lost the most precious being in my life for a second time." Kagome kept her head down as she listened to what he said, but she couldn't look at him. "Kagome, please look at me." Kagome sighed and slightly turned her head toward him, but she didn't want to look into his golden eyes. "Kagome, I am sorry I wasn't strong enough to realize what I was doing. I couldn't fight the spell that has put so much hurt on you. But you must understand that I would never do such a thing unless someone was controlling me. I have missed you so much and I want you back in my life again. I would rather be killed by thousands of demons then live another day without you by my side. I…" Kagome had heard enough and turned back around away from him and said, "Please stop. I still don't know if I can trust you. I just can't." Kagome broke free from Sesshoumaru's grasp and ran off into the forest with tears streaming down her face.

Sesshoumaru watched enter the forest, but then looked down at his feet to see a necklace that had a sun charm on it. He bent down and picked up the necklace in hand and looked at it closely. On one side, it had Kagome's name engraved on it; on the other side was a picture of a sun and in the distant was a rising crescent moon. Sesshoumaru then remembered the necklace he had received for his third birthday that he still wore, but no one ever saw it. He pulled it out from his kimono and looked at the picture engraved on his. It showed a crescent moon and in the background there was a setting sun. Kagome's and Sesshoumaru's necklaces were opposite of each other meaning that they were suppose to be together in the first place. Sesshoumaru closed his hand around Kagome's necklace and then took off in the direction she had left. He was determined to get her back and hoped he would succeed this time.

Kagome ran through the forest heading back toward the den, but stopped when she came to a waterfall. She collapsed to her knees and began to cry deeply. Some of her tears landed into the water and the ripples spread out toward the waterfall. Kagome then heard, "Kagome, why are you crying?" Kagome looked up and she saw standing there a ghostly figure of her mother. "Mother, what are you doing here?" "I have been watching over you and I have seen your distress. You must believe what Sesshoumaru says. You two were meant to be together and this is a test of how much you love him." "But Mother, how can I trust after what happen?" "By trusting your heart. You have not been listening to your heart, only your fears. Your fear of being hurt again is making you blind to what your heart is trying to tell you. You should also look to your twins and Rin and that should help you answer your question. Do you want your twins to grow up with out knowing their father?" Kagome shook her head and said, "No, but…" "No buts about it, Kagome. Just listen to your heart and you will find what you are searching for." Kagome watched her Mother's image disappear, leaving Kagome to herself. Kagome decided that she needed to head back toward the den and take care of her twins, for she knew they would be waking soon.

I am done with this chapter. Sorry it took so long to update, but with college, my updates are undetermined, so I will update when I can. I hope you liked it. Review.