Donna's POV

Waking this morning I felt happy until I looked at the calendar. I just stood there and stared at the date for five minutes before finally shaking myself to get dressed for work. I just knew that the day was going to turn out to be a bad one for me. But then I would just have to get on with it. No one would understand, most of them were a little clueless. I know we work in the most powerful place on the planet, but there are just some people who don't quite get what is going on.

Opening my closet, I remember something that I had stashed away on the shelf. I hadn't looked at it in months but maybe today was the day, or would it just get me more upset. Maybe I was best not to. I grabbed my black pants and pink sweater set. For some reason I was always more confident in them.

Entering the West Wing, no one was there, and I was glad to have a few minutes to myself. Josh would be in soon and I had a busy day ahead of me. Well not really but I knew of some things I could do to keep myself busy.

Josh arrived in a whirlwind of excitement. "What's going on?" I asked him. He quickly deposited his backpack and jacket before grabbing his messages from my hand.

"CJ's sister-in-law was in an accident over night and her brother left the kids with her. She has had to bring them into work and she is desperately trying to get someone to look after them. I offered your services."

I glared at him. "You did what?" He looked up at me with surprised eyes. "Josh I have far too much work to do today. You had no right to offer my services. You make sound like a prostitute."

"Donna, what's the matter, you would normally jump at the chance to get away from me for the day." He was looking at me weird.

"I am getting away from you, but over to the OEOB. I have loads of research to get you for the thing."

He seemed to get what I meant, at least his interpretation of what I meant. "Sure, I'll try and get a hold of CJ."

"No need, I'm here." CJ sounded out of breath as she ran into the office holding a small child, trailing a surly teenager behind her. "Donna thank you so much for doing this. You remember Hogan don't you? Well this is Sebastian and he is………."

I didn't let her finish. "CJ I am sorry to interrupt but before you go any further, I can't look after the kids today. Josh got it wrong. I am very busy." I told her as she tried to pass the baby to me. My hands had started to shake and I could tell that my voice was betraying me.

"Oh." Was all CJ could say before I dashed from the room.

CJ's POV

"Josh, what's wrong with Donna?" I asked my colleague. He looked just as baffled as I did. Sebastian wriggled a little further down in my arms.

"I have no clue CJ but I am sorry that I told you she would look after Sebastian for you. Seemingly I gave her work to do that I can't remember." Josh told me as he scratched his head. He looked so puzzled. I had seen him watch Donna's retreating form but didn't catch the look on her face as Sebastian had swung his hand up at my face by that point.

As much as I love my niece and nephew I have no idea what I am going to do with them for the day. I mean Hogan is all right as she can do homework but the little fellow baffles me. He's only months old, but seems to demand attention at every turn. I don't know what I am going to do all day.

"Tell you what CJ, if you need any help, just give me a shout. I'd be glad to take the little guy for a bit this afternoon."

"Josh you are a life saver. Carol can watch him for a little bit this morning and I can give him to you for a bit this afternoon. Thank you, thank you, thank you." I tell him as I kiss his head.

Donna's POV

I have just spent most of my day in the OEOB, trying to escape the West Wing just for today. Josh hasn't called all that often, in fact he hasn't called since lunch, so now I am a little worried. He normally can't go five minutes without needing me for something. So as I head back across the road I make a plan in my head of what I am going to do tonight. I think a hot bubble bath and a glass of wine, along with my favourite Yo Yo Ma CD in the stereo.

The bullpen is suspiciously quiet when I enter it. I walk across to josh's office and push open the door. The scene I see in front of me makes me want to cry. There is Josh sitting in his chair with baby Sebastian in his arms. The baby looks to have fallen asleep but Josh keeps on talking. My breath hitches in my throat, which makes Josh turn. My face is obviously telling my feelings because he immediately looks concerned. "What's the matter?" He asks me but I don't answer, instead I turned and fled the scene, running as hard as I could out of the building and not stopping until my chest hurts from the exertion.

Josh's POV

Donna has me extremely worried today. She hasn't looked right all day and now she runs off without telling me where she is going, although I have a fair idea. I glance down to baby Sebastian who is still snugly ensconced in his blanket, asleep. Innocence sleeps. I walk across the corridor towards CJ's office. Hogan is sitting at her aunt's desk with her earphones in, writing furiously in her book. CJ has taken post by her computer, also writing furiously. "I hate to interrupt but I am going to have to." I say making CJ lift her head.

"Josh I am so sorry, I was going to come and get him in a minute." She says getting up.

"Don't worry, he's been fed and changed and is at the moment sleeping peacefully. I unfortunately have to go and find out what is wrong with my assistant."

"What's wrong with Donna?" CJ asks as she takes Sebastian from my arms.

"Don't know, I am going to find out."

"Thanks again for today Josh. You'll make a good father one of these days." And it's when she tells me that I think I have worked out what's been up with Donna all day.

I head out to my car and head over to Donna's apartment. It's weird being here. We tend to spend most of our time together at my apartment. It's closer to work, bigger and warmer. But Donna loves her apartment, that I can't take that from her. Using my key I enter the building and head up to her first floor apartment. Opening the door I quietly enter. There is no noise from the living room or kitchen. I walk towards the bedroom door and hear muffled sobs coming from behind the door. It breaks my heart to hear her like that. I just wish she had told me. I pushed the door open and find her in the middle of the bed with something in her hand I notice a box on the floor, some of its contents spilled on to the floor. Crouching down I feel the tears well in my eyes ass I see what is lying in front of me.

"Oh Donna." I whisper, but loud enough for her to hear me. She looks up at me with red-rimmed eyes and a tear stained face. "I wish you had said."

She joins me on the floor as I see what she has in her hands. The smallest piece of clothing I have ever seen. The little white booties lie in front of me, beside the ultrasound picture. "He was due today." She whispered, before the dam broke and sobs over took her body.

"It's all right, I'm here. Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere." I wrap her in my arms and rock her till I hear her breathing slow into the steady pattern I am so used to hearing at night. I place her onto the bed before placing everything back in the box and back into the closet. She isn't ready to talk about this now, maybe some other day.

A.N – Well another chapter, hope you are still enjoying it. After this the next chapter is going to have jumped a few months into the future. Hope you are still following and liking.