Gahh writing for Gaara's twisted little mind is hard… But we all love a little challenge right? Sorry for the long wait.. me and my beta where a little busy with school and stuff… you know…
Now not only the days were warm, the nights became hot as well. You could almost feel the clear sky hanging on your shoulders, like a damp blanket. The summer breeze filled with warmth became unbearable for most of the living creatures. The birds that had once sang their melodies with pride, left for places that where cooler.
While the lakes and springs were crowded as the human beings attempted to get rid of the heat.
Though at night everyone held their windows closed, no one dared to walk in the dark, afraid of what lurked in the shadows. Lately many Shinobi as well ANBU had disappeared to be found later, splattered all over the forest floor. Everyone seemed to point their fingers the Uchiha heir, after all he had become kind of… weird and isolated. Though this wasn't the truth, not at all… okay… maybe half of the truth.
Gaara's p.o.v
I gazed up at the moon, it had been my company for weeks now. In fact it was my only company after I left the fire country. Sighing I turned to my original 'task'. This annoying little bug had even tried to defend it self against me, so I gave it the great honor of feeling its dead.
I smirk as I hear its pathetic moaning, pitiful, why did ones as these even exist? I once believed they lived to make me happy, to acknowledge my existence.
But that orange carrot talked some sense in me.
I understood it perfectly now. The only the ones who had some spine could make me happy. I feel my smirk widen as I finally snap its neck.
I bring my gaze up to the moon again. What is this feeling I get every time I finish one of those pathetic humans off?
One should say "Gaara that the empty feeling you get, is the feeling to never being able to be happy again."
I always had to control myself not to roll my eyes at such a comment; me and happy, yeah right… happiness only last for a few seconds, those few seconds when the sickening cracking of bones fills the air.
No this feeling was way, way different…
Shrugging my shoulders I pull up my guard a little.
It won't last anyway, it will pass, like everything does. Everything will pass away. Everything.
"Why?"
"Stay?"
Crap… I grab my head forcefully. Forgot about that one. The echoing had never really stopped, sometimes growing louder, sometimes almost disappearing, but always there.
They were right about it. He should never ever let this 'thing' get to him. This dark, cute, best thing that had ever happened to him, that thing he had almost called a friend… almost… Luckily I didn't sank that low… good for me…
Sasuke…
I miss you, I miss your small smiles, your deep chuckle, the sarcastic comments you make, while no one knew you had an opinion, the glares you throw when you feel annoyed with something or someone, but most of all I miss your eyes…
Your eyes so similar to me, filled with the hunger of power, and the need of proving yourself whenever you can.
I hate you…
You with your smirks, your chuckles, your stupid comments, the totally waste you are, your deep red eyes that could freeze everything and anyone with one glare, always proving yourself, always trying to become stronger.
I miss you…
I remember that one night I told you all my intentions. Yes I remember that moment clearly. You stood there on our mountain, that hill, and you hypnotized me with those eyes of yours.
I walked closer to you, you where holding that chidori of yours, wanting to end your own life right then and there. I told you that killing yourself was stupid. We talked, well stared at the moon together. We shared many nights together from that night on.
Together on that hill,staring at the moon, our moon.
And you, you started to trust me, you are weak, And I told you.
You're weak Sasuke, so weak. I told you to go, I got sick at the sight of you, your feelings made me nauseous.
And you left with your head down.
But we met again, on the same hill, our hill, under the moon, our moon. And it was cold, so cold, your skin so pale, eyes so dull.
And it was all because of me.
Why weren't you crying on such a terrible night, though you should have noticed this demonic vision of me? Why were you silent on such a cold night?
I caused you so much pain. I told you to leave me, become happy again.
You stayed.
Why won't you go away?
Images in my head of you wiith your head bowed down just like that day…
Under the moon changing phases I became utterly alone. With only the words that never reached you as my company.
Review Please? Gives you VERRY scary puppy eyes Mehehhehe okay you got the point…
Wow must be my longest chap since… ever?
Jianetsu signing off