Summary: Ryou learned a long time ago that he is only there to be used by others and then cast away.
Warnings: One-sided male/male relationship.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh in any way or shape or any of its characters.
Ryuo Bakura hates being used more than anything. That is why he finds it so frightfully ironic that it happens to him so often. His father used him as a reminder of his mother and sister, his friends used him for help with homework, the spirit in the ring used him as a host with no say in anything they did and now the dark Malik was using him, just like all the others. That is the way it has always been. This is the way it will always be.
Sometimes, though, Ryou dreams that everything could be different, but it isn't.
He has to put up with Yami Malik's hands touching him, caressing him, but he doesn't want to. Perhaps he would not mind as much if he knew that this darker side of Malik wanted him, Ryou Bakura, but he knows that is not the case. Yami Malik is not even remotely attracted to Ryou, he wants someone he can never obtain. He wants Yami Bakura, Yami Bakyura who he banished to the Shadow Realm himself. Ryou is a substitute. He looks enough like his Yami that the dark Malik can for short moments fool himself into thinking that Ryou really is him.
Ryou sometimes dares to wonder why Malik sent his Yami to the Shadow Realm if he desired him, maybe even loved him, so much. He never asks though, he is too afraid to. The dark Malik is insane. No, he is so far gone over the line of sanity that it cannot be described as merely insane anymore, he is beyond the fragile limits of insanity.
Many times Yami Malik is violent and rough in his ministartion, mostly simply becuase he can and many times because he hates Ryou for not being who he wants him to be. It is strange to have sex no, fuck with someone whose eyes are so desperate for something, anything, in the beginning and then to see that desperation turn to hatred so dark and deep and burning that you can't look away even though you can't look directly at it either.
Ryou thinks he would have gone insane, too, if it hadn't been for Malik's lighter side that was still with him. Malik talks to him at night after his darkness has left. He isn't especially kind or comforting but he's there and he's there for Ryou's sake. It makes him feel a little less used. But in the end he wonders what Malik wants from him, because nothing is ever for free – that is the lesson Ryou will never forget and the lesson that no one will ever allow him to forget.
The End.