Striking The Heart

Her name is Gosha

He sat in the cold plastic chair, face in hands, thoughts taking over him. So many questions, so many feelings, so many troubles. He just wanted to take his brain out so there would be nothing to think about. Tears spilled down his pale face at the remembrance of why he was in the hospital. His wife…had died.

He looked down at the tiled floor, watching his tears hit it with a small splash. The sorrow he felt was unbearable. He might be the strongest man in the world, but this was a power too strong for him…

He sniffled a few times, wiping the fresh tears away, but more kept on spilling…What was he going to do?

He had three kids to look after now. Three kids, one house, one job…how the hell was he going to handle that? And with the baby!

"The baby" he whispered, remembering she had been born. He took in a deep breath as he sat there trying to comfort himself, alone in the small room. He wasn't sure if he could face seeing his child…their child. What if she looked too much like her? He couldn't handle that. He couldn't handle seeing a miniature her. It hurt too much. Oh Kami, he loved her, he needed her, he missed her so much already. New tears raced down his wet cheeks. So there he sat, crying once more…lost in his thoughts…lost in anguish.

Gohan sat down on the waiting room bench and leant back against the wall. He couldn't believe all of this. This just couldn't be true. His mother was so strong, his mother was everything…how could she be lost just like that? How? Why?

"Gohan?" little Goten asked, tugging on his school trousers.

"Yeah" he replied groggily.

"Something's happened to mamma. What is it?" Gohan swallowed.

"I'm not sure I can tell you right yet Goten" he whispered, sadness taking over his voice.

"But brother…she's my mommy too" Goten wined with a frown. Gohan thought about his little brother's words. No matter how much he hated to agree with him, Goten was right. Gohan looked up at Vegeta.

"He's going to have to be told sooner or later" Vegeta said in a gruff voice.

"I can't do it…could you Vegeta?" Vegeta sighed and looked down at Goten.

"Kid…your mother isn't sleeping…" Goten listened carefully, "She's…passed away…"

"What?" he questioned, tears already forming in his little eyes, "No…you're wrong Mr. Vegeta…your wrong!"

"He's not Goten" Gohan whispered, his eyes watering also. Goten stood, quiet, hurt and shocked. His mom, his only mommy…she was gone.

Goku stood up, pacing back and forth the room, trying to control his emotions. The tears had finally stopped, but the suffering continued to run through his Saiyan veins. After a few moments, he decided to go and see his daughter. Leaving the room he walked down the corridor to find a room full of babies. He looked through the large window, seeing so many little faces, smiling and gurgling.

"Can I help you?" asked a polite young nurse.

"Um…yes, I'm…looking for my daughter" the nurse smiled.

"Of course, what is your last name?

"Son" he said quietly. She nodded and walked in. Goku watched her as she went and picked up a baby. Goku couldn't quite see her from where he was standing, but he could already feel the baby's Ki.

"Here she is…Son Chichi"

"No…that's…that was…my wife" he stuttered. She became worried.

"Sir is everything alright?" she asked. He wasn't listening. His eyes were too busy studying the form of the child she held. His heart just stopped at the sight of her. It was like Chichi, all over again. Her small bit of black hair, curled around, showing off her silky pale skin. She had long eyelashes, with tiny little hands and feet. His breath was caught in his throat. He hadn't seen something so beautiful.

"Sir?" Goku knocked himself out of his daze.

"Sorry…I…"

"Here…I'll go and make you a cup of tea. You look very tired" she said showing him to a big comfy chair.

"Thank you" he muttered. She left as he sat in the chair, the tiny baby in his hands.

Seconds, minutes, maybe even hours flew past as he sat there, the baby cradled in his arms. She was so small and so beautiful. He couldn't keep his eyes off of her. Such perfection. Taking his trembling hand, he stroked her soft cheek ever so gently, disturbing her accidentally. She opened her large onyx eyes to look up at the stranger before her. Goku's heart melted at the sight of her. He wanted to cry. Not only cry because he was happy, but because he missed his wife even more. Her small hand circled around his index finger, her sparkling eyes still remaining on his. He smiled down at her.

"Hey there" he whispered gently, "I'm your daddy" he said, stroking her hand with his large thumb, "I'm gonna take good care of you okay? I'm gonna be the bestest daddy and take very good care of you" He said softly as she yawned.

"Ha…yeah, your mommy would always yawn at my comments too" he chuckled lightly. She cuddled up to him with her hand still on his.

"Don't you worry daddy won't let anything happen to you, and daddy will make sure you have the best" he soothed, stroking her delicate head with his other hand. At that moment he looked up at the stars. He thought about what Chichi had said to him about her name.

"When you do…name her…name her something pretty…like an angel…something…pretty…"

Goku sighed, still feeling heavy at heart at the remembrance of her last words.

"Gosha" he whispered looking down at her, "Your name will be Gosha" he finished standing up and walking away. The nurse came out of the room with a cup of tea in her hands.

"Mr. Son?" she questioned, wondering where he had gone.

The others still remained in the waiting area, not sure what they were really waiting for. They guessed they were waiting for Goku, knowing he wouldn't want to be leaving anytime soon. When Goku entered the room, Goten raised his little sleepy head from his brother's lap, tears still down his face.

"Daddy?" he questioned with a whimper. Goku swallowed. He knew…

"Is…that her?" Gohan whispered in question. Goku nodded. Goku sat himself down next to Gohan, little Gosha still cradled in his arms. Goten hung onto Goku's knee with one arm and wiped away his tears with the other.

"Is she a girl daddy?" he asked.

"Yep. She's a little baby girl"

"Gosh, she's so…so cute" Yamcha cooed looking down at her. Vegeta just mumbled something about there being another Kakarot around to annoy him.

"What are you gonna name her?" asked a quiet Krillin. Goku looked at Krillin then back down at his daughter.

"Her name…" he trailed off, almost making it seem as though he was finding it different to reply, "Her name is Gosha"

"Gosha?"

"Yeah…Gosha"

"That's a pwetty name daddy" Goten complemented. Goku beamed as warmly as he could down at his little boy. Taking one hand from Gosha he ruffled his hair as affectionately as he could.

"Thanks son. I'm glad you like it"

"What does her name mean? Where did you get it?" asked a curious Gohan. Goku stroked her cheek once more.

"Gosha…she was an Angel…an angel that ruled the stars many thousands of years ago. Grandpa told me so many stories about her before he died. A beautiful angel she was" he murmured gently.

"I think she's a buutiful angel too daddy"

"Yeah, me too Goten" his father replied with a smile, "She's perfect" He peered back down at her sleeping in his arms.