A/n: Jeez how long has it been? Sorry for taking so long guys… I hope you'll still be interested in my fanfic… I was in a major mental blockage! I wasn't really sure if I should still continue. Well it will be decided on to you guys… but I hope I'll have more readers to come…

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Seed (Regrettably…)

Chapter 9: Memoirs…

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Kira's eyes were wandering about on the ceiling while lying on his bed, his thoughts jumbling up, competing on which memory he would think next, a lot has happened for the past months. He never knew that that night at the party would actually change his liaison with Lacus.

He remembered that time when he thought he will never have Lacus, because of the deed he had done with Fllay, the worst of it all is that Lacus caught them. He also remembered that same night that he has told Lacus how he felt about her… but who could actually remember that night? Everyone was drunk, even Lacus. So obviously she couldn't have remembered.

A lot has changed… past friendships were broken, present friendships are born, relationships in the brink of brokenness, and other relationships beginning to develop.

Kira remembered his high school days and being the dork that he was, snotty and pimply. Yeah he was that, but that was a long time ago he was still in second year. So how did he become a rebel?

Flashback…

"Please stop it! You're hurting me!" Via screamed, covering her head and her face with bluish-purple hands, huddling on the corner, hoping that the man will stop beating her.

The door swung open, and a girl with hair that shined like that of the sun, crept slowly, her hands grasping a baseball bat, her hands shaking, with endless tears flowing down her cheeks, "Stop it!"

The tall dark man with a deranged face of a monster, who was about to hit Via once more, turned around and glared at the blonde haired girl, "Daughter, put that down..."

Cagalli was still crying, hoping that her father would stop and just disappear from her sight, "Dad, please… I don't want to hurt you… but if I have to I will."

Her father rubbed his forehead, and all of a sudden his face became normal again, He looked into Cagalli's eyes, and began to cry, "I-I'm so sorry, I don't know what's happening to me! Why I am like this…! Oh my daughter, what have I done? Did you remember? I used to hold you in my arms and cuddled you to sleep?"

Cagalli sobbed, "Of course I remember dad!"

"Come closer my daughter let me hug you… I'll take all the pain away…"

Via was still in shock, she couldn't warn Cagalli in time, to not believe her father's manipulative words…

Cagalli went closer to her father, all those happy memories flashed around her mind, hoping that her dad might become what he once was. And not a monster he is now. She thought that if she gives him a hug, he might remember… he will! Cagalli was deadly wrong…

Cagalli dropped the bat and ran toward her father and gave him a hug, He grinned, and grabbed Cagalli by the hair, he began to laugh an evil insane laugh, "Foolish child! You are very weak! And easily deceived! I do not have such feeble offspring like you!"

Cagalli hated herself, yes she was fooled entirely, completely.

The man flung Cagalli toward her mother, "I will not tolerate such disobedience from you Via! And of course, you should teach your daughter to become tough. Not to worry… I'll show you!"

He grabbed the bat from the floor and before he could hit them, the man caught something at the corner of his eye, a gleam instant flash of light reflected from the window, but where to? He turned, and saw his so called scrawny, fragile and pathetic second child with hazel hair and amethyst eyes, holding a mini automatic revolver.

He laughed. "You don't have the guts! You pathetic weakling! You're even afraid of cockroaches! Now, go away so that I won't include you…" the man continued criticizing his son, putting him down like a child begging alms.

Kira fell on his knees and bowed his head while tears started to fill his eyes, he just couldn't do it… not to his father.

Then his father shouted he wished he didn't, "You're not even my son!"

Kira looked up to the tall dark man with a stunned and puzzled face.

Cagalli was shock, and was trying to keep her mom conscious from constant weeping.

The man continued, "Did you know that your mother is a whore? She had sex with my best friend right after Cagalli was born!"

Cagalli was more shocked than ever, "Is this true mom?"

Via with all her might, spoke out, "You paid your friend to drunken me and have sex with me!"

"Shut up!" The man hollered.

"That's enough…" Kira pointed the revolver at his so called father and everything started to make sense, all his life he was looked down, mocked, criticized, and humiliated. Wondering why he was not loved by his father, like Cagalli was. It made perfect sense.

Kira pulled the trigger, then… darkness.

Kira found himself lying on the hospital bed, turned his head and glanced at the light-colored haired girl and her golden eyes sitting beside him, "Cagalli? What happened?"

Cagalli explained everything, their father wasn't dead, Kira only hit him by the waist, not hitting any vital organs, the maids had called the police just in time. Their mother explained everything on what happened and their father was sent to the Orb Mental Hospital and that their mother was starting to heal up her physical and emotional wounds… forcefully.

Everything their mother had said that that man wasn't Kira's real father was true, and that they were only half siblings, but they didn't care, all they cared about was that they're still family.

Kira cried in Cagalli's arms, and Cagalli began to sob as well, "Don't worry Kira everything is going to be fine!"

I promise you Cagalli… I won't let anyone hurt us again! I will protect you and mom! I won't be a coward anymore, Kira thought to himself.

"I won't be a coward anymore!"

The years went by, Via has acquired the Attha Corporation as the rightful successor, Cagalli and Kira changed high schools and the rest is history.

Kira hit his head, he wanted to forget those bitter memories so badly. Who could forget? When their scarred in your mind.

He then tried to remember the happiest night of his life.

Flashback…

"Thanks Kira… I had a wonderful time." Lacus smiled at Kira before she proceeded to the door of her house.

Kira looked up to her, and the way the glowing lamp's light hit her face made her even more beautiful than ever, it was like the only thing that was glowing is her face in the deep of darkness…

"Good night Lacus…" Kira said as he went inside his car.

Lacus blushed, the way Kira said good night to her sent tingles down her spine, "Good night… Kira." She gave him one last look, and then she went inside.

Kira grinned at the joyful memory, closed his eyes and tried to remember the rest of the night when someone pounded on his door. Kira stood up from his bed, the pounding still continuing, "Hey! Stop that! Who's there!"

"It's me Kira! Lacus!" Indeed it was like the sound of a girl's voice, but a bit strange…

Lacus! Kira thought and was surprised that Lacus came to his house! He quickly opened the door and was shock to find… Dearka.

Dearka leaned on the door with a grin on his face and winked at Kira, "Yo…! Sorry to disappoint you man" Dearka finally laughed, for he could not hold it in any longer.

Finally he stopped and went inside Kira's room; he settled himself on Kira's bed and looked at Kira who was now getting only one beer from his fridge.

Dearka was surprised, "You're not drinkin'?"

Kira sat at the table to where his laptop was and looked at Dearka, "I don't know, I'm not in the mood…"

Dearka got up with the beer on his hand and examined Kira's face, "You've changed man! There's somethin' about you that I juz can not explain and yet juz know."

"What are you talking about?"

"Love!"

"What?"

Dearka stood up on the bed with his arms spread wide open "Love my friend, love!"

"Dearka, have you gone nuts?"

Dearka went down the bed and hit Kira on the head, "You numbskull! Love changed you! You're sober! Not taking any weed, coke and drink! A lot has changed about you for the past months man… like how can I not notice!"

"Are you saying that I'm weak! Nothing's changed okay!" Kira was sounding very defensive.

"That's not what I meant! Okay let me explain it, there are three kinds of Love man, the first one is crush, that usually lasts for juz a couple of days or weeks, you see something you don't like about that person, bam! You don't like them anymore.

The second one is infatuation, it makes you go crazy blah blah blah, but it only lasts for a couple of months or years…

Now, love. Love changes you man, your personality, life, attitude, everything! You become a whole different person! That's love man!"

Kira stared at his tanned blonde friend, "I never knew you know stuff like that man…"

Dearka smiled with his eyes closed and his arms crossed, "My friend, there's a lot of things you still don't know about me!"

All of a sudden Dearka's phone rang, "Holy fuck! I'm late! Damn Millie's gonna kill me!"

"You've never been worried about being late before!" Kira said with a baffled face.

Dearka ran through the door and his voice echoed in the halls of Kira's home,

"That's Love maaaaannnnnn!"

Kira grinned and shook his head; he glanced at the calendar, "Saturday… Saturday… there's something significant about Saturday…"

Kira pondered long and hard, it took him five minutes before he remembered, "Holy fuck! The road trip! Damn Dearka! He didn't tell me!"

Kira grabbed anything he could find that was essential and ran out of his house, hopped on his ride and sped out the mansion.

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"Darn him! Where is he!" Cagalli cursed and grumbled, with her brother on her mind.

Athrun wrapped his arm around Cagalli and gave her a peck on the cheek, "Don't worry babe! He'll be here…"

Cagalli hit Athrun with her elbow, and Athrun bellowed from the pain, "How many times do I have to tell you! No PDAs!"

Cagalli sat beside Lacus who has a worried look on her face, "What's wrong Lacus?"

Lacus leaned on Cagalli's shoulder and covered her face with her palms, "I'm scared! I don't want to go to the beach!"

Cagalli was confused, "Why…? I know you've never been to the beach before but your really gonna like it there."

Lacus looked up at Cagalli's face with glass like eyes, "Dearka said that there are sand mites on the beach and that they'll get inside your feet!"

Cagalli and Millie, in unison, glared at Dearka, Millie was about to dictate at him with a scorned look on her face when there was a screech on the road… it was Kira's car.

Dearka was relieved, "Saved by the dude!"

Cagalli stomped her feet and went to where Kira was, "Where have you been! You are like so late Kira!"

Kira rubbed his ear from the deafening screams from Cagalli's mouth, "I forgot! Sorry sis…"

Kira saw Dearka and ran towards him, "Damn you Dearka! Why didn't you tell me!"

Dearka laughed, "Hey I forgot too man! Besides, I thought I could have two babes all to myself!" he said as he placed his arms around Millie and Lacus.

Millie kicked Dearka on the balls, and Dearka joined Athrun on the bellowing.

"OK! C'mon people were burning daylight! Let's go!" Cagalli said as she went inside Athrun's van, "Millie, Athrun can't drive yet… do you mind?"

"No probs, Dearka can't either!" Millie said laughing.

Cagalli turned to her dazed little brother, "Kira! Park your car next to Dearka's in Millie's garage. Hurry up!"

Finally everyone was in the van, and went on their way to the beach… two days and one night for some fun under the sun. ;p

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A/n: hehehe… yeah yeah, the last line was so cliché, so sue me! Stay tuned for the next chappie: (if there will ever be but it depends on you guys) Bianca del Sol