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Title: It Could Be You
Chapter Five: All Apologies
Rating: T
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Jude woke up the next morning and the first thing she noticed was the stinging of her left arm. She rolled up her sleeve and inspected the damage. Jude grabbed the pair of scissors beside her bed, and without thinking, dragged it across her flesh. The feeling was painful yet addicting. It distracted her from everything else.
She wiped the blood away with tissues. Jude looked at the two fresh slices on her arm. This time she was careful to cut shallow so that the blood would stop quicker.
Jude rolled down her sleeve and got out of bed.
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"Hey Kat." Jude walked up to her friend who was searching frantically through her locker.
"It's the first day of school and I already lost one of my text books." Kat closed her locker and looked at Jude. "Oh hi."
Oh hi? She hadn't seen me all summer and all I get is oh hi?
"I missed you Kat!" Jude attempted to hug Kat who became very resistant and avoided it.
"I'm late for class." Kat pushed past Jude and started down the hall.
Jude turned around, "What the…"
"Why don't you go see Tommy?" Kat turned her head a little but continued walking away. She rolled her eyes right before disappearing around the corner.
"Errr…." Jude walked down the hall frustrated. She walked into the library where she spotted Jamie sitting at a table.
Jude walked over to him, "Can I sit here?"
Jamie didn't respond; he didn't even look up from the book.
"Jamie?"
Still no response.
Jude took it upon herself and sat down. She put down her books on the table and looked at Jamie. He didn't move his eyes from the book. Jude felt like she was invisible.
"Jamie?"
Jude realized she was fighting an endless battle.
"Fine if you want to ignore me that's fine," Jude said softly. "But I want to say sorry. I didn't mean it how I said it. If you want to talk call me. Please Jamie."
Jude stood up. She picked up her things and walked out. Jamie looked up from his reading and watched her leave.
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Jude lay on her bed in her dark room. She turned on the light and noticed the picture of her, Jamie and Kat on her nightstand. She picked up the scissors that lay beside it.
I wish I could talk to someone but I can't.
Jude rolled up her sleeve.
Mom wouldn't get it.
She put the scissors to her arm.
Dad is gone, probably out with some other woman.
Jude sliced open her skin with the blade.
Sadie hates me.
She breathed heavy, staring at the dark red line.
Kat hates me.
The blood trickled down her arm.
Jamie hates me.
Jude put the scissor to her arm again.
Tommy… it only hurts to talk to him.
She dragged it across her innocent flesh.
Jude heard her bedroom door open. She sat there, frozen, as she watched Jamie walk in. He was holding one of Jude's books; she must have left it in the library. It all happened too quickly. She felt light-headed.
"Jude!"