Jackie leant back in the big sofa and closed her eyes. It felt nice to be in Marissa's apartment. It was exactly as she imagined it, big and airy with expensive furniture and located in the middle of Paris.

And Marissa was like she had always been, still beautiful with her long blond hair and sparkling eyes. And most important still very considerate.

Jackie hadn't realized how much she had missed Marissa until she stood with her face buried in Marissa's shoulder and snuffled on her brand-name sweater.

"Are you feeling better?" Marissa came into the room with a hot cup in her hands. "Here, drink this, it's honeywater. It's very relaxing."

"Thanks." Jackie's voice was still full of cry.

Marissa sat down next to her and started to put of her high-heeled sandals.

"Sweetie, what have happened to you?" She asked and started to massage her tired foot.

Jackie looked awkward down in her cup and blew on the content.

She had been half hysterical when she called Marissa from the airport, and when Marissa well understood that she was in Paris, had she come as soon as she could.

Jackie had thrown herself in the arms of her friend and cried.

And Marissa understood, because Marissa was as Jackie, she had made the cry still on her wonderful calm way and then she had brought Jackie to her own apartment.

And now, Jackie was sitting on her sofa with red eyes and exhausted body.

"I missed you when you moved." She said at last and Marissa understood. She understood that Jackie doesn't want to talk about the reason that brought her to Paris at the moment.

"I missed you too."

"You were the only real friend I ever had. Apart from Donna of course." She added when she became reminded of the reasonable red head.

Melissa smiled a melancholy smile and leant back in the sofa.

"Do you remember when we were kids and used to play that we were sisters?"

"And we dressed alike." Jackie filled in with a smile.

"Or, when we always liked the same guy."
"And then we fought about him."

"But he always chose you."

"And then I dumped him because of you."

They laughed at the memories and for the first time under the last 24 hours Jackie felt relaxed.

"I remember when you called me, the summer after I moved and told me that you was in love."

Jackie stopped smile, she remembered that phone call very good, she even remembered that summer. And the memories hurt.

She was so young back then, so naïve, and everything was so easy, so uncomplicated. She wished that everything could be that way again.

"I remember that phone call too." She almost whispered.

"You were so in love with Hyde." Marissa smiled at the memories. "Point Place own rebel. You told me that his kisses were unlike everything else. That they made you forgot anything."

Jackie just nodded, the memories made her sad, but at the same time happy.

"You were so afraid that he should dump you after the summer."
"I broke our only rule." Jackie whispered the word. "No feelings."

"Do you remember what I told you?"

Jackie nodded.

"You told me if he doesn't wanted me, he wasn't worth it."
"It was the last time you called me." She doesn't say it reproach, it was just an establish. "What happened?"
"We got together, we moved in together and then I left him." The tears started rolled along her cheeks. It still hurt to say it aloud.

"Poor baby." Marissa buried her in one of hers generous hugs.

"I just can't stop crying." Jackie sobbed.

"Jackie, you have always been such a drama queen." Marissa stroked her hear softly. "You always cry over everything."
Jackie smiles through the tears. Melissa is right, she always cries, over cheating boyfriends, when she self broke up with somebody, over a sad move or when her favorite par of jeans split.

"I'm so pathetic."

"No Jackie, you are just you."

It was nice to talk to Marissa, she didn't judge, not like Donna did.

Donna was and would always be Steven's friend in the first hand. She knew that Donna hated her because of what she had done, because she was one of the persons that hade the power to hurt Steven, and she had done it.

Everybody Steven ever had loved had abandoned him, and she had promise him to never leave. And despite that promise she had just left him and that was unforgivable.

Donna loved Steven as a friend and there was an unspoken band between them. And she knew that Donna never could really forgive her for her betrayal.

"I'm a horrible human." She sobbed in Marissa's shoulder.

"Jackie, it's just who you are." Marissa answered softly. "It's just who you are…"

He hated himself because he had lost the control and almost drunk himself unconscious. He should have more self-control than that. But when he had come home that day and seen the empty apartment, and realize that she was gone forever, something inside him broke.

He had trusted her, he would lay his life in her hands if that would be necessary. She was the only human being that he totally trusted and look where that had led him.

He knew that it was his own fault that she had left, but that didn't stop the hat to blow up inside him, because that feeling was so much easier to handle than the emptiness and the missing.

He missed her smile, the way she moved her hands when she talked, her life energy and to get that specially Jackie-smile when he had done something very unlike him. He missed to se her sleep and the way her perfume smelled, but most of all he missed her, so unbelievable much.

When she left she had took his Zen. He couldn't find the way back to his independent attitude when she wasn't there to see through it.

"Hyde you have to go home, at least to get some new clothes. The one you have smells spirits and you cant borrow from Eric, they are way to small." Donna interrupted his thoughts.

"I'm not going back there." Hyde answered and tried to hide the feelings that came up inside him. Not even the sunglass helped anymore.

"It's your home!"
"It was our home." Hyde snapped and rose up. "It was our home, my and Jackie's."

"Hyde." Donna gives him a worried glance.

"You don't have to treat me like I'm sick or anything. You pad around me all the time and you dare hardly speak her name around me. It's not like she dead or something, she just left because she couldn't stand me."

"That's not truth." Donna began, chocked of Hyde's fit of rage.

"Just leave me alone." Hyde snapped and started to go towards the door.

"You can't just escape from your problems."

The only answer she got was the door that closed with a crack.