A/N: I couldn't get any space while I was jumping in time in the chapiter. So I wrote a little heading every time I did I timejump.

"So Jackie, I've been thinking."

Jackie turned her head against Marissa, who was standing in the doorway dressed in a minimal dress.

"Are you going out?"

"We are going out!" Marissa took some quick steps to the sofa, and turned around in front of Jackie. "Is it pretty? Because I was thinking that the blue would bring out me eyes, but then I thought that maybe it's to much, I mean…"
"We are not going anywhere." Jackie interrupted. "I'm not going anywhere."

"Jackie…" Marisa whined, "You been staying here for two weeks without being outside that door." She pointed at the front door. "You have to do something."

"Like what?" Jackie sighed without taking her glance of the TV.

"Like I see it, you have only two choose, ether you go back to Hyde or you have to get over him."

"I'm not going back." Her voice was more convincing than she felt. She had made a chose and she can't return now, two weeks later and beg Steven to take her back.

"Than the only thing that remains is to get over him."

Jackie just sighed without answering.

"Jackie, you have to do something, you can't just sit here and feel sorry for yourself. You need to come out, see people, do things. Like before. Sweetie, you're in Paris, this city is made for a new beginning."

Jackie was still not answering; she just starred at the TV. That guy looked a little alike Steven, even if he not had Stevens smile, and he doesn't move on the same way, and she couldn't even compare their eyes. Steven's eyes was like…

"Jackie, I've been thinking of your problem." Marissa interrupted. "And because I have realized what the problem is, I can solve it."

That was so typical Marissa, she always wanted to simplify everything, never take anything for what it was.

"Marissa, I have a broken heart, you can't cure that."
"Do you remember Kelso."
Jackie gave her an irritated look.

"Of course I remember Michael."

"Well, I remember when you too got together." Marissa smiled at the memory. "Your first serious boyfriend. Do you remember how in love you was?"

Jackie just shrugged. She didn't want to grasp any of all the memories that came up inside her, they are just so full of pain.

"He was your first, and because of that you wanted him to be the one. Already on your second date had you made up a dream-life around him. Do you remember that?"

Jackie bit herself in the lip and starred urgent on the TV. She's Zen now, like Steven taught her.

"And every time he cheated on you, he crushed a little bit of that dream. And that hurt you."

Jackie refused to show that the word really hit her, but they both knew that it was the truth, that Melissa had found a weak point.

"But you held on to him. Not because you loved him, even if that was what you tried to tell yourself, but due to he loved you, and nothing is like to be loved. Maybe he was the worse boyfriend of the world. But there was times when he did things for you, times when he really made you feel loved, and that was worth everything."

Jackie quivered, her face was resolute. She would not cry, she had been crying for two weeks now and it have to have a stop.

"So, in the end you wanted to marry him, but he took of and crossed that dream totally. And you cried, didn't you. You cried over your dream, over that he wasn't the one, but did you ever cry over that he was gone?"

Marissa made a short break if Jackie wanted to answer something, but when nothing came she continued.

"But you wasn't alone very long. You find yourself a new boyfriend, Hyde, the guy you always had a crush on. The guy that never expressed any feelings, who never had had a serious relationship. But maybe he was better for you, he changed you, and maybe you even learnt to love him. But then you left him." Marissa gave her an asking glance and Jackie chose to ignore it.

"But what made you leave?" Marissa drummed thoughtful on the sofa's back support. "Maybe you tried to tell yourself that it was because you wasn't happy. And maybe you wasn't happy, but there was more, wasn't there? What had he done to you, that was so terrible that not even you could forgive it?"

Jackie turned her head against Marissa, she looked like a wild animal captured in a corner with no way to escape. Everything Marissa had said was truth, and she had known it, deeply inside, but she had never admitted it, not even to herself, and it hurt to hear the truth be spoken aloud.

Thousands of feelings moved inside her and she gasped for air, afraid to move, even afraid to blink, because she felt like she had been beaten fort the first time in her life. And if she moved, it would be definitive. Someone had read her like an open book and realized that she wasn't that perfect that she always wanted people to think.

"Jackie, you don't have to tell me why?" Marissa whispered. "But you have to realize the truth, because not until then you can do anything about it."

Jackie starred in Marissa's blue eyes and started to breathe normal again. Her tensed body relaxed and she nod.

"So, what should I do?" She can hardly speak the word. It's like all her strength had run out of her.

"Start over!"
"But, what if I can't?"
"You can!" Marissa smiled. "Jackie, your strong. You know what, I take you to my work tomorrow. I mean, your smart and sweet, my boss is going to love you. Do you remember when we dreamed of working as models together, now that dream is going to be real."

Jackie just nodded.

"Jackie, you are going to love my life, I mean the only things I do is work and party. No responsible, much money. You're going to be rich again."

Jackie couldn't hold back a smile. Suddenly her life felt so much easier.

"Your right, I have to move on."

"So, your in tonight?"

"I'm in."

And when she rose up and started to walked towards her bedroom, was her step more self-confident and easier, because even if the missing is like a big hole inside her, she realize that it's time to move on…

Later

"It's not to short?" Jackie looked asking in the whole figure-mirror. When had she partied last? Not since she went out school that was sure.

She touched her naked legs, if she was going to sit down, the dress was going to slide up and reveal her underwear.

"Jackie, you have a wonderful figure, why cover it?"

"Because people is going to think that I'm a slut."

"Jackie relax, just go there, drink a little, flirt, have fun."

Jackie closed her eyes for a moment, did she even remember how to flirt, and she had never been good with alcohol.

"This is not going to work." She mumbled and tried to walk without wobble in the high heels. "I'm already looking drunk." She said and imagines how it's going to look when she well was drunk. She used to have high heels, but this is not just high. It's so more…

"You look great." Marissa answered. "Just try to relax."

Jackie raised a eyebrow, more than anything she wanted to ran back to her room and hide, but she realized that she have to do this, for her own sake.

"Are you ready to go?"

She looked at herself in the mirror a last time, meeting her own glance, one green and one blue eyes, a smile spread over her face.

"I'm ready."

At the Party

The music pound through whole her, it feels like her body vibrate.

Marissa disappeared with some gay, the moment after they got here and Jackie self ended up pressed against the wall with a glass in her hand.

The drink is lukewarm and she sipped at it, trying to ignore the taste.

She had never been much for spirits, Steven had always drunk a lot, it was not often that she saw him without a beer can, but she had never seen him drunk.

She drank a lot when she still partied, or maybe not that much, but it get to her after just some glasses. For not talking about that time she and Fez took part in a roller disco-competition and she drunk a whole bottle of champagne all by herself.
But Steven had always been there, to watch over her, already before they got together. On parties had he always kept himself close to her, even dumped girls so he could make sure that nobody touched her.

One time before they got together, she had asked him why, and he had given her a glance through his sunglasses.

"Isn't that obvious?"

She had shrugged and sat down next to his chair in the sofa.

"There are many guys that want to make use of girls like you."
"Like me?" She had teased him, forced him to say it.

"You know, good-looking girls that don't can handle spirits and don't realize when guys try to make use of them until it's to late."

"So, you think I'm pretty."
"I didn't say that, I sad that some people does."

She should just say something when the basement door went up and Michael came in.

"Jackie, are you ready to leave?"

Her first thought was 'where'? And then she remembered that they had a date, and that she promised Michael to go and see some stupid move with him.

"Yes I'm ready." So she had rose up and smiled against Steven.

"Thanks for doing that for me." Then she had kissed him in the corner of his mouth, despite that Michael stood there. It was worth it.

Steven had just smiled, that special Steven smile.

"Anything for you doll." He's voice was free from emotion but she had known that he meant it.

Because that was Steven, teasing and mean when they were with the gang but he was always there, when she needed somebody, a shoulder to cry against, somebody to talk to, a friend that can take her to stuff, somebody who understood her.

Somebody that could teach her the secret of Zen and later the secret of love.

"Oh, my God." She shook on her head, trying to get away the memories. Here was so hot, she had to get out. NOW!

She put away the half empty glass and started to walk against the front door.

This would be her first night on her new life, a life that not included Steven at all. And it was first now that she realized that that was impossible. All her memories included him. He had always been there; he was a big part of her life from the day that she met him.

Even her memories from that time when she was together with Michael circle around him. It was always about him, and now she had to turn him off, like he never existed.

She really had to get out of here.

She increased her steps, it felt like she is going to faint. She didn't notice that someone had bump against her until she already was on the floor.

"Are you alright?" A guy talked to her in broken English while he helpful bent over her. He had half long brown hear, a sweet smile and dark eyes.

He's cute, not Steven, but cute.

"Yes."

He helped her up and she wobbled a little in her high heels before she found the balance.

"It's the idiotic heels." She tries to explain. "I was on my way out and then…" She shrugged helpless; it felt like she is going to break down any time.

"It's your first party in Paris, isn't it?" The guy smiled compassionate. "It takes time before you getting used to it, I mean at first I didn't believe that you could press in so many humans in one apartment."

She smiled against him.

"Here is just so freaking hot."

"Come, I following you out." He took her hand and they started to walk outside together.

Outside

"So, your from America?"
"How can you tell?"

"I saw you t

"Sogether with Marissa, so I guessed."

"Well, you had right." Jackie smiled against him; it felt nice to be outside. The air was so fresh.

"So, I'm Brian."
"I'm Jackie."
Jackie, it's a beautiful name."

"Do you think?"
He nodded.

"Yes I do, what brings you to Paris."
"Oh you know…" Jackie shrugged. "I think I just needed a break."
"How long time are you going to stay."
"Well, right now, I consider moving down here."

"If you want, I can show you the city some day."
Jackie's first thought was to tell him that she's not interesting, but then she remember Marissa's word about a new beginning.

"I would love to."
"What about tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow sounds perfect."

A/N: So this is chapter 4, hope you enjoyed it.

Thanks for all nice reviews. It means I lot to me. (It always fun to know that somebody like what I do)

My goal is to have next chapter up soon, the thing is that I have a pretty busy week and I'm not good at holding promises, so I just say, I'm working at it.

I'm not sure at the first part with Marissa's and Jackie's talk but I like the rest of it, so pelase tell me what you think!