Touring isn't all that its cracked up to be. Sure, you may get to play your music for people and you may get to see all the people that are supporting you, but it's also a lot more. It's the late nights and the early mornings, the interviews, the photo shoots, it's just everything else. Don't get me wrong, I'm totally grateful for this opportunity, but its way different that I would have ever imagined it to be.

Anyways, I just wanted to fill you in a little on my thoughts; sure, they're not the most encouraging I know, but it's better than lying to everyone. Definitely better than lying, like it never happened…

See you guys on the road… hope you enjoy any show you go to!

xoxo Jude

I clicked post and smiled as I got five responses almost immediately. I had just updated my "Myspace" tour journal, and it's still pretty amazing, even to me, how many people actually like me. I'm really loving it. I turned off my laptop and hopped onto the floor. Something you should know: tour bus bedspretty damn uncomfortable, with a capitol U. I walked out into the main part of the bus and saw EJ sitting on the couch, cell phone in hand, gabbing away as usual. She caught sight of me and quickly finished up her conversation.

"Jude! Wonderful, I needed to run a few things by you." She paused, waiting for the signal.

"Alright, shoot." I replied.

"Okay, well I just got off the phone with Leno and they have a spot open for tomorrow night's show. Also, I set up interviews for you with "Paste", "The Rolling Stone", and "Seventeen"." I gave her a questioning look. "Variety. Plus, you know how many girls like you, your music, and what you do. Trust me." She promised. Its amazing how so many people expect me to trust them… trust them with my career, my life… my heart.

"Fine, whatever. Not like I have a choice right?" I added with a chuckle. "No just kidding. That sounds awesome. Leno… better than Kilman right?" EJ nodded and laughed.

"That's the spirit. Oh, and you also have a photo shoot one week from today in Colorado. It's just so beautiful, and we'll be able to get pictures of you up in the mountains and with the leaves and stuff. It'll be great."

"Right, and just as long as I'm going to be sufficiently warm during all this, I'll be just peachy." I laughed. She gave me a look that made me doubt her a little. I continued. "So, we're on our way to New York then right?"

"Correct. Your concert tonight, Leno tomorrow night, it's going to be stupendous!" She immediately started dialing numbers and talking to more people. 'Yeah, stupendous… that wouldn't be the way I would be describing it, but who asked me right?' Suddenly, I heard my phone start to ring.

"I'M COMING!" I shouted, not letting it occur to me that I was yelling at an inanimate object. I picked it up without looking at the called ID. "Hello?

"Hey Jude." The voice answered back.

"Oh how terribly cliché of you to say so." I replied back sarcastically.

"Blame our parents, not me. I was aiming more for monkey butt or something of the sort, but I was quickly vetoed." Sadie laughed.

"Yeah, well I guess that's a good thing, cause I would have been obligated to hate you forever and ever if they had listened to you."

"Don't you already hate me thought?" She asked.

"God damn Sadie… you just HAVE to bring it up, didn't you?" I replied hotly.

"Sorry… It was just a question." She apologized.

"Yeah, well… what did you call for?" I asked quickly. "Tommy knock you up or something?"

"Shut up Jude. No, I actually just called to see how you were, considering the fact that you ARE my sister." She said dramatically. 'Good job Harrison'. I said to myself.

"Sorry Sexy Sadie." I got her back. She groaned.

"Our parents were so on drugs when they named us."

"Yeah, I would have to say so." I agreed. "But yeah… so I'm good, just hanging out a little. We're headed to New York right now. I have a concert tonight, then I'm going to be on Leno tomorrow night… How exciting is that?" I asked breathlessly.

"Sounds great Jude! When you get to New York though… I have a surprise waiting for you." She teased.

"What is it?" I paused. "Wait, no. Never mind. You're not going to tell me anyways, so I won't torture myself." She giggled.

"You're right about that sister." In the background, I heard someone talking.

"C'mon Sadie. This is out stop." It was Tommy. Just hearing his voice made my stomach clench.

"Sorry Jude, but I gotta go. This is our stop. I'll see you later. Love you." She hung up. I set my phone down and sank down to the floor. 'Damn Harrison, get over him already! He doesn't want you… he wants your sister, and that's just something you're going to have to accept. Besides, you're only 16 remember? Nothing ever has or ever will happen.' I felt a tear make its way down my cheek. I hastily wiped it away and stood up. He's not worth anymore of my tears… not a single one. I picked up my phone again and called the one person I knew I could depend on, through thick and thin, no matter what. Someone picked up on the other end.

"Hey Jamie." I greeted.