To Be With You

By Maddy

Summary: What if Angel gave Connor a letter during their chat in "Not Fade Away"? Who's it for, why did he do it and what's it all about?

Rating: From G to PG13. Implied stuff and probably and few swear words.

Spoilers: Just to be safe, everything ever, anything about B/A just to be safe.

Timeline: Explained, but after the series finale of Angel (which didn't make a B/A shipper like me fill with any hope).

Disclaimer: Own nothing of course Joss and co do.

Distribution: Tell me if you want it, if you have any of my other fic, just take it.

Feedback: Wanted, craved, needed and loved. As always.

Author's Notes: This idea came from "Not Fade Away". Minor or major TISSUE WARNING!!! (Character death) For those that want them.

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PART ONE: (This is all from Connor's POV, I've never written him before, but I'm just gonna make him pretty much the opposite of what he used to be before the big mind memory erase.)

I looked from the note in my hand to the building I was standing in front of. Well, it's the right place, but I didn't know he knew people this well off. Knew. Stupid past tense. I sighed, knowing this was going to have big consequences, not just for me, but for who I'm here to see. I really don't want to be doing this, but he made me promise, and I've always tried to keep my promises.

The building looked more like a castle than anything else, I didn't know why the address sent me here, I thought he said she lived in Rome, Italy, not in England, it's a different country for Christ's sake. But when I went to Rome looking for her with the address he had put on the envelope, she wasn't there, apparently she and her sister had moved a couple of months earlier.

I'd asked around, punched a few demons, asked a lot of questions and was sent to this dark-haired punk girl, who flirted with me a bit. I didn't tell her who I was or why I was looking for her, but she did ask who I was. I told her that I'm a friend of his, she seemed to drop the bad girl act after that and asked a lot of questions about how he and everyone else was doing, I answered as truthfully as I could without giving it all away. I didn't feel as though it was my place to tell her, I was a stranger and she obviously knew him and the other pretty well.

She gave me this address and I followed the directions and found myself here. I let out a long breath and knocked on the hard wood door.

FLASHBACK

"Can you do me a favour?" he asked reaching inside his coat.

"Sure, do you want me to give that Nina chick something?"

He smiled just a bit and shook his head. "No, I need you to give this to an old friend of mine." He took out an envelope, which was pretty thick and placed it on the table. Written on it was an address in Rome, Italy.

"Who?"

"Just a woman who lives there."

"Old girlfriend?"

"Something like that." He smiled again.

"Who is she?"

"No, I'm not telling, you'll find out eventually. Just give it to her if you don't hear from me in ten days, it means I'm dead, okay."

"You're awfully casual about all this."

"I've died a few times, Connor, came back a few times, you get used to talking casually about it." He suddenly became very serious. "Please, promise me you'll give this to her yourself, don't send it by mail or give it to someone else to give to her. She'll need you to be there, okay."

"You're starting to scare me, you're not going to die."

"No one can know that, not even the Senior Partners."

"I guess." I was a bit deflated, this was becoming a really depressing conversation. But I was still very interested in this mystery woman who lived in Italy. But felt this wasn't a topic I should press, I know of a girl they used to talk about before my memories were screwed up, and I knew then that I shouldn't talk to him about her.

Seemed like quite the sore spot, instead I looked at him. "Sure, no problem, how will I get there?"

"Just use the company jet, it's at the airport, threaten people's lives if you have to, but she has to get this letter and you have to be the one to give it to her."

Okay, he's finally lost it. This must be really important for him to let me threaten the safety of others just to deliver a letter to some girl.

"Thanks, Connor, this means the world to me."

And I believe you.

FLASHBACK ENDED

"Who is it?" came a female voice through the door.

"I need to talk to Buffy Summers."

"Again, I say, who are you?"

I smile at her caution, "I'm a friend of Angel's, he sent me."

There was silence then the door swung open, there stood a pretty girl about my age, maybe younger, she had long dark brown hair and green eyes.

"A friend of Angel's, why didn't he come himself?"

"He's unavailable at the moment, but he wanted me to give this to Buffy Summers." I pulled out the letter from my jacket pocket, and stuck my hand out for her to reach it.

She eyed the letter in my hand, then sighed and took the letter. "What's your name?"

"Connor."

"I'm Dawn, Buffy's sister." She smiled broadly and it made her eyes shine.

"Pleased to meet you, can you give this to her straight away, it's important."

"Sure, do you want to come in?"

"No, I'd better not."

"Okay, I'm not sure what to do now though."

"Just give her the letter. That's all."

"You're not trying to kill us through mail are you?"

"Why would I want to do that?"

"No reason."

"It's okay I know about demons, how else would I know Angel?"

"Right, so what happened? You get attacked?"

"No, my family, Angel saved 'em."

"He's good at that."

"Yeah, he is."

"So I'll just give Buffy this, bye."

"Bye." But I knew the farewell wouldn't last long. She smiled again and closed the door, I was fully aware that Dawn was very suspicious of me, I wouldn't blame her. Not after all the things she must have seen.

So, I went and walked to a large tree in the front yard and sat down with my back against it. And there I sat waiting. Angel had told me that Buffy would need to see me, I'm not sure how he knew that, maybe he said something in the letter, told her to talk to me, I don't know. I rubbed my temples and closed my eyes, this is going to be hard.

Angel and Buffy meant something to each other, maybe they still do, but now that's he dust, how's she going to react?

I put my hand inside my jacket and pulled out an envelope, Angel had written me one too and had told me not to read it until after I had delivered Buffy hers. He told me that it would explain everything, and that I would need Buffy as much as she would need me. I don't understand, but Angel can be very cryptic and vague, but I'll read my letter, then wait for her to come and find me.

TBC…

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