Chapter Nineteen: Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when
You're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

He looked different. His hair was longer and curled a little. And I guess he was a little taller. But he was still Sean.

"You're back?" I asked in disbelief. I stood up and hugged him.

"Yeah, I am," he said as we pulled apart.

"It's been awhile," I commented. I hadn't seen him for almost two years.

"I heard you had a baby."

"I did," I said, nodding. The conversation between us was quick and meaningless. I had missed him, but I was completely over him. It was just weird having him back. "You want to see her?" I asked him. He nodded and I led him back into the living room, looking around for Jay and Alex. I spotted them on the couch. Alex was holding Dani and laughing. It was good to see her happy after what she had been through. Well, I guess it was. I was never friends with her, but I'm sure something like that had to be hard.

"Cameron?" Jay asked, standing up. "Dude! You're back?" They did some manly back pat type of hug.

"I'm back," Sean said, smiling uncomfortably. "Thought I'd finish my last year at DCS," he informed us. "Hey Alex," he added. She smiled in his direction but went back to playing with my daughter.

"Well, this is Danica," I said, motioning towards the baby.

"She's beautiful," Sean said.

"Yeah she is," Jay added. I looked up at him and he just smiled. Alex handed Dani to Sean. He bounced her in his arms and tickled her under her chin. Danica laughed and threw her arms up. After a minute more, Sean handed her to me. Alex was staring at her in my arms.

"You want to hold her again?" I asked. She nodded, so I gave Dani back to her. "I'll just be around if you need any help," I told her. I was about to find my parents when Jay stopped me.

"I never got to meet Oliver," he said. I had forgotten all about him! He was probably still down in my room. I sighed and dragged Jay along with me. I signaled for him to wait at the top of the stairs. I slowly walked down.

"Hey," I said, smiling at him. He was sitting on the edge of my bed, deep in thought. I could tell he had been crying. I just wanted to jump in his arms and tell him everything would be okay. But I couldn't. "Jay wants to meet you. Are you up for it?" I asked.

"Sure," he said, not really taking his eyes off the floor.

"Why don't you just stay here with me tonight?" I asked him.

"Okay," he said, shrugging his shoulders.

"Well, I'll go get Jay then," I said, turning around. I walked back upstairs and brought Jay down with me. When we got down, Oliver had a fake smile plastered on his face. "Um, Jay this is Oliver…Oliver, this is Jay," I introduced them to each other.

"Can I talk with him alone?" Jay asked. I shot a questioning look at him, but he just raised an eyebrow at me.

"Yeah, I guess." I watched Jay grab my computer chair, and sit in it backwards before I went up the stairs once again, shutting my bedroom door behind me. What an interesting birthday party. Could anything else go wrong? Walking back into the living room, I noticed that everyone was waiting around for me.

"Emma, we're going to do cake now," my mom said as she walked up to me.

"Oliver and Jay are downstairs, I'll go get them," I said, about to return to my room.

"I'll do it honey," my dad said, coming up behind my mom.

"Okay." I shrugged.

"Oh and before I forget, I told Jay and Alex that they could spend the night. I didn't see the sense in them driving back to Montreal so late," she said.

"Okay, but I told Oliver he could stay. He got some bad news and he's upset," I told her. "He can stay with me in my room," I added. Then she gave me the look. "Mom! I already have a baby; I'm not going to make the same mistake again."

"Fine. I'll make up the pullout couch in here for Jay and Alex." Just as we finished our discussion, my dad, Jay, and Oliver appeared in the living room. Everyone sang 'Happy Birthday' to me and we had some cake. I kept stealing glances at Oliver. He looked terrible. He wouldn't smile or anything. Then I turned my attention to Alex. She looked so happy with Danica. I was getting a little worried. I didn't want her to get attached like Jay had. I felt bad that she lost her daughter, but she couldn't have mine.

"I have to put her to bed now," I told Alex as I approached her. She frowned but held Dani out to me.

"Hey Em, I'll help you," Jay said, coming up behind me. I looked over at Oliver and he shrugged his shoulders, then flopped down on the couch on the opposite end from Alex. My mom raised her eyebrow at him but then she shot me a questioning glance. I shook my head at her.

"Um sure Jay," I told him. He followed me down to my room. I let him change her diaper and put her in her pajamas. He kissed her goodnight and then so did I. After that, I laid her down in her crib and stroked her cheek until she slowly closed her eyes. I waited until I was sure she was asleep, and then backed away from the crib. I turned around and walked straight into Jay's lips.

I didn't actually walk into them of course. But he was waiting right behind me and he just attacked me really.

"Jay!" I yelled as I pulled away from him. I remembered Danica was asleep and I lowered my voice to a loud whisper. "Why would you do that?"

"Sorry," he said, looking down at the ground. "I just thought that maybe…" he trailed off.

"Maybe what? I'm with Oliver and you know that. And I thought you were with Alex!" I hissed.

"I'm not," he said, looking up at me and sighing.

"What happened?" I asked, suddenly concerned. He looked upset and I didn't like seeing him that way.

"I got to Montreal and found out that she moved on. I wasn't too upset about that because I'm not in love with her anymore. I thought I was doing the right thing, but she just got mad at me. She said that I abandoned her when she lost the baby and she found someone else to turn to. I guess I did abandon her, but I didn't mean to. I was caught up in loving you. And I guess I still am," he explained.

"Jay, we've been over this. You need to move on. I'm not the person for you," I told him.

"I know you don't think so, but I still do. I don't want to ruin things between you and Oliver, so I'll try to leave you alone. But I'm coming back here. I obviously can't stay in Montreal with Alex. I'm going to drive her back tomorrow morning and then bring all of my stuff back to my new apartment. My mom bought it for me because my dad is already renting out my room. He's short on cash."

"You mean your real mom?" I asked him. I knew that Jay lived with his dad and his step mother in a little house, but he had never let me see it.

"Yeah. I ran into her in Montreal. I didn't even know she lived there. All I ever got from her was the occasional phone call. I recognized her right away from pictures. I even got to meet her wonderful new husband who is rich. He's gonna pay for all the bills on the apartment, including the rent. It's pretty nice," he told me.

"Was it weird seeing her after so long?" I asked him. "I know what it's like. When I met my biological dad for the first time, I didn't know what to do."

"It was weird. I met their daughter and their son, Elizabeth and Michael. It's like they're a perfect little family, and she forgot all about me," he said, sighing. "But I don't need them. Well, except for the money."

"I'm sorry that you feel like she forgot about you," I told him. "I'm sure she really didn't."

"Don't worry about it Emma. We better get back to the party." He walked up the stairs without saying anything else.

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that we've been dreaming of?

After taking one last look at Danica, I followed him into the kitchen where my parents were waiting for me.

"Time for presents!" my dad said cheerily. I smiled at him and we all went into the living room. I got some nice gifts from everyone. When I was finished opening all of them, everyone started to leave. Oliver said he was tired and went down in my room. Alex, Jay, and Sean helped me and my parents clean up the living room.

"Sean, do you have somewhere to go tonight?" my mom asked him.

"Well…uh…while I was gone, Ellie moved back with her mom and our apartment was sold. So I guess not," he said, shoving his hands into his pockets.

"You're welcome to stay here. You'd have to sleep on the floor in here though," she told him.

"Thanks, that would be great," Sean replied.

"Don't bother; he can sleep on the bed with Alex. I'm not going to," Jay scoffed.

"I think that's our cue," Dad said. I said goodnight to my parents and my friends, then went downstairs and left them all to figure out their sleeping arrangements. I changed into my pajamas and climbed under the covers, cuddling up next to Oliver.

"Are you okay?" I asked him. Silence followed for a few minutes.

"He's not really my son," he whispered. From the way his body was moving, I could tell he was crying.

"But he is," I argued. "You've raised him so you're his father."

"I can't believe Brooklyn lied to me. She cheated on me with some stupid guy!" he said, raising his voice a little.

"He raped her Oliver. She didn't know what else to do." I wasn't sure why I was defending her. I guess I empathized because I knew what it felt like to be raped.

"She didn't tell me that," he said, lowering his voice to a whisper. "I didn't know…" he trailed off.

"She also still wants you to be in his life," I told him.

"She didn't get a chance to say all of that. I freaked out on her and started yelling. I need to call her first thing tomorrow and get it all sorted out. But on a different note, I talked to Jay tonight."

"What did he have to say?" I asked him. Oliver didn't answer me for a minute. I think he was trying to gain his composure or something.

"Emma, why didn't you tell me you were raped?" he whispered.

My bedroom fell silent as I tried not to cry.

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know
This can't be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know

A/N: The song is "Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane and they own it. The part where it's talking about 'the place we used to love,' I'm talking about the place in Oliver and Emma's relationship from L.A. Like the 'place' in the relationship when everything was perfect. The next chapter will jump a week…this one took place Sunday and the next one will be the Saturday after that. WishinWell43: Sorry about that...you are officially added to the loyal reviewers list! lol...dear lord I didn't even think about the Manny Manning thing...if they do get married (it's not decided yet) when saying the first and last name, I'll have to say Manuela Manning...it's not as bad lol. Thanks about what you said about the lyrics...I like them and I'm gonna keep them. And I'll tell ya, there probably won't be much shit flipping from Sean...I have other plans for him. Thanks for your awesome reviews! TemporaryxInsanity:Brooklyn was crying because of her discussion with Oliver...she was telling him that Maddox wasn't really his son...and as he says in this chapter...he freaked out on her and started yelling at her and stuff.That's why she was crying. Well guys, review! Qtpye: I understand about you taking long to review...don't worry about it! You're one of the few people who always reviews anyway.