The sky no longer cried for the reason inwhich it had in the first place. The bright sun now clearly lit up the country of Konoha illuminating each part of the beautiful country. From the flat, bare training fields to the many houses and apartments which were alive with the afternoon commotion of the people who lived there. Shinobi's and residents alike. All proceeding with the tasks of a regular day.
Kakashi let out a heavy sigh as he perched atop a nearby roof top, looking down at the fellow Konoha people below. He sank to his ass as his hands stretched back to support his weight. The sun's warmth always made wearing his mask almost unbareable but dispite the urge to maybe remove it, he kept it hiding his face like he always did. Maybe it was because it had become a routine to wake up and slip the material over his face, or maybe it was because he had become known for it. The usual Jounin uniform he wore covered his skin and also made his body hot in the sun, and just like the mask seemed to become routine. Maybe once he could live by the second, not having everything repeating itself day after day? Crossing his legs he hunched over, letting his head rest comfortably in his hand.
He shut his eyes against the light, not that it stung like it had a tendency of doing, particaulary the Shirangen. But because it actually felt good, amost as if calming his nerves somewhat.It had been a day and 5 mintues since he had last saw Sakura. He had counted. Since the truth of the relationship had been told to her father by none other than himself. And the sudden yet brief regrate feeling had hit him a couple of times.Maybe he shouldn't have told anyone just yet.Maybe he should have waited. But the thoughts were alwasy forgotten when he remembered the look on Sakura's face when he did. The tears of joy soaked her face, she was truly happy to no longer keep their love a secret as if what they had was wrong. It wasn't. But how could he make everyone see that? Everyone meaning ,well everyone.Her father had informed Tsunde as he said he would. And after a talk with her she had indeed provide him and Sakura a restraining order to keep apart from eachother from now on. And it was no surprise when the entire city was in a buzz about the latest news.No one could keep a secret could they?
But despite that, Kakashi had still wanted to see her, hold her. Just as they did when no one was around, when they were alone. He had spent the whole day searching for her in all the places where they used to meet, but no such luck. Everywhere he went he was given disappointed looks from everyone he past. Even Genma had turned his head when he saw him on the sidewalk, but Kakashi ignored them all. They didn't matter to him. He had always kept to himself with most people, so their conversations didn't seem such a lose now.
"Damn it."Kakashi whispered to himself.
Stuffing his hands deepin his pockets, Kakashi calmly strolled down the sidewalk of the city which he called home. Not because of how long he lived there for, which had to be most of his life. Or the fact the all of his friends were here. But the fact that she was here, that gave him something to return home to. He couldn't imagine being anywhere else, because anywhere else would allow Sakura's arms to be around him. Such a strange concept. To live for only one thing, one person. It was something that he had never exerienced before.
And he hated the fact that what they had could be wrong in people's eyes. Sakura was no longer his student, no longer a child. But a very capable 19 year old jounin, who could be trusted to make her own decisions in life. Still the thought of causing Sakura to have a hard life of being looked down on for loving her ex-teacher was something that he couldn't bare to let happen. Even if it would kill him, he wanted her happiness. He wanted her to have a happy life, even if he wasn't apart of it.
For some unknown reason he had suddenly found himself at the cemetary.When he started walking he didn't really intend on going any place in particular, yet alone a memorial site.But now that he was here his eyes fell upon a small body that sat infront of a large stone memorial.The pink hair was a definate give away. He had found her.
Without really knowing it, his feet started moving towards where she wasat a slow pace, but then again without his brain involved he couldn't really expect any speed. He didn't know if she knew he was there, but if she did she didn't show any reaction.
On closer inspection, he saw that her shoulder were hunched over as her arms wrapped around her slenderlegs that were brough tight to her chest. Her back seemed to shake slightly giving him the idea that she was crying. A pian ran through his chest at the though of her tears.He couldn't stand to watch her cry.
"Sakura.."His voice seemed shaky, unsure that he should disturb her. But when he saw her shoulders stop shaking, he couldn't help but be glad that she was no longer crying. He came to stand beside her, looking down at her as she hid her eyes behind her pink locks. When she failed to answer, he turned to glance at the memorial. Seeing the name Haruno written on a line. Her mother."Sakura?Are you ok?" He whispered.
"...No." She finally whispered, her voice was rasp from the crying and low as if not to disturb the quietness around them.Kakashi frowned and knelt down to her level but still failed to see her face. Her beaufitul face that should never be hidden.His hand came to rest on her pink hair, gently strocking the strands."Oh, Kakashi."She sighed as she fell over into his arms that immediatly wrapped around her body. Her face buried deep into his chest, as she gripped onto his vest." Everything is so screwed up!" She cried." Tsunde is angry, she won't allow us to be together. I just don't understand why something that feels so right could ever be so wrong. Is it wrong? Are we just ignoring the truth?" She whispered. Kakashi's embrace tightened.
"No. This is not wrong, what everyone else says doesn't matter. They just can't see past age difference. But please don't worry, we'll make them see together."He whispered. Sakura pulled from his embrace to stare directly into his one eye.
"Don't worry? How can you say that? What if I'll never see you again.?"She cried, but noticed that Kakashi was staring at her strangly."What is it?"She asked.
"How did that happen?"She felt his fingers caressing the black bruise on her left eye, gently not to cause pian but hard even to feel just how swollen it was. Sakura's eye glazed over and she turned her head away to hide the fresh tears.His hand left her face.
"It's nothing, Ino and I were training, I was distracted."She lied. That wasn't how she got the bruise. Father had struck her the other night, just after Kakashi told him about her and Kakashi.The thought of her father hitting her for the first time made her cry.
Kakashi was silent as he thought about her story. Something was definatly going on.But he was more pre-occured with getting the injury looked after at the moment.
"Come to my apartment I'll take a look at it."He replied. Sakura longed for him to say that, longed for them to be alone finally. To forget about their worries together. But if someone caught them together Kakashi would be in a great deal of trouble .Maybe even losing his jounin title. No she would allow him to be punished for something she could prevent.
"You know I can't." She whispered, keeping her gaze turned away from him. Kakashi cursed and hung his head.
"Sorry, I forgot."Her whispered pian very visable in his voice. His heart aching to touch her but knowing that if he did she could be in a great deal of trouble from her father and Tsunde. He wouldn't alolow her to be punished.
"So..." She whispered, finally turning to face him. Kakashi saw how sad her eyes were and it hurt.
"So..." He whispered.
"I'll see you around." She forced a very fake smile to her face throught her tears and stood up from the ground.Kakashi's eyes followed her.
Kakashi was silent, knowing of no words in his vocabulary to say to this women right now. No words to express what hurt was in his heart.She could atleast stay with him like this. This, talking wasn't bad. But then again he couldn't trust himself to keep this strictly talking. So he let her go. He watched as she slowly walked away from him, leaving him sitting infront of the memorial where he had found her.
Once out of sight, Sakura hid behind a tree and sank to the floor in her face with her hands as tears poured from her eyes.
Sakura walked very slowly down the busy street, almost as if the direction she was currently taking was the one that she didn't want to be on. This was the path back to reality. Back to the life she had before…before. Her hand furiously whipped away the fresh tears that formed in her green eyes.
'No. No more tears!' She ordered to herself.' A shinobi should never show emotions, not ever...But it just hurts so much.' She hated this feeling that swept over ever since the meeting with Tsunde that morning. Like everything that was happy in her life was ripped from her and there was so way to get it back. Kakashi had a way of just making everything bad in her life seem not so terrible. Like the death of her mother. Kakashi had taught her to be grateful for the moments that she spent with her mother. And she was. And her father, never once saying he loved her or even giving her a comforting hug through the bad times, no attempt to make it better. Kakashi had taught her that she is loved, dearly. Sakura wasn't even sure if Kakashi knew how much he made her sun shine even in the rain. And the soul reason that she gets up in the morning. But now that the people say what they share is wrong, how can she ever bare to be away from him? To not be able to touch him, or hear that he loves her? What reason is there to get up now?
"Sakura, there you are!" She heard a familiar voice call through the street of down town Konoha. Her tired and reddened eyes reluctantly shifted from her feet up in the eyes of Ino as she ran towards her. Her blonde hair had grown out again and now swayed behind her in a long ponytail. Sakura wasn't really in the mood to chit chat with the girl who by far the most talkative ninja in the whole world.
"Hi," Sakura whispered, her voice low and rasp from balling her eyes out before. No stopped in front of her so that Sakura had no choice but to pause her walking.
"Everyone's buzzing about you're new boy toy, even Neji's talking about it!"Ino whispered all hush hush like.
"I know. Look Ino I'm really not up to talking about it now, Okay?" Sakura sighed.
"Is it true that Kakashi was given a restraining order on you?" Ino asked eager to get all the goods on the current gossip. Sakura shut her eyes.
"….Yes." Sakura replied in a low tone, which Ino almost didn't recognize.
"Oh." Ino whispered." Look Sakura, I… I'm so…."Ino struggled to express her symphonies, but then again she never was any good at this type of thing.
"That's okay, Ino. " Sakura tried to spare her friend some trouble.
"You really love him huh?" Ino whispered. Sakura swallowed the lump that formed in her throat and tried to blink back some of the tears which blurred her vision but failed as they come pouring out like a faucet.
"Yes." Sakura cried as she hiccupped through the sobs. Ino sighed and reached out to pull the crying girl into a tight embrace. This was returned. The blonde's heart went out to this woman who was undoubtedly her best friend, even though they fought quite a lot. She always had hoped that Sakura would fall in love again, after the whole Sasuke train wreck. But never in a million years would she have guess that it would be with Kakashi her ex-teacher, a man of 34 years old. But then again love did work in mysterious ways, which not one could predict. And even though it was a strange concept to Ino, she was glad that her friend had some love in her life. She needed it, with her father and all.
"Come on Sakura, no more crying." Ino replied and pulled back from her hug as Sakura tried to dry her eyes." I didn't know that you would be the type to give up so easily on something so precious!" Ino cried.
"But there's nothing I can do about it. Tsunde has decided." Sakura whispered, she didn't like to give up or punk out but this was one thing that was completely out of her control. She couldn't very well fight the Hokage could she?
"Then we fight!" Ino replied matter-of-factly. Apparently Ino thinks they can.
"How, Tsunde the freakin Hokage for God sake! How do we go against her orders?" Sakura asked.
"Easy, by convincing everyone else that it's ok to love an older man." Ino shrugged as if it would be the simplest thing in the world to do.
"Not going to work." Sakura sighed. Ino frowned and stuck her hands to her hips.
"And why the hell not!" Ino snapped.
"Look around you, these people don't care about love. All they care about is the fact that Kakashi's 34 and I'm 19. They look down on us and if this is going to hurt Kakashi in the long run then I'm okay with hurting now. If it will save Kakashi from this fate." Sakura whispered. Ino sighed with impatience.
"Oh come on, don't give me that' I'm doing this for his own good' bullshit! Look I don't know Kakashi that well except he reads those perverted novels….." Sakura couldn't help but smile at the mention of Kakashi's little book collection." And that he loves you." Ino smiled as Sakura hung her head with a smile that was saddened." So I don't think that being saved is what he wants, I think that he wants you. So now that that's settled..." Sakura laughed as Ino's stubborn nature." Let's get started." Ino cried grabbing a hold of Sakuras hand and yanking her at a run down the street.
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