Chapter 3: It Gets Worse
\"Lily. seriously, you have to eat something!\" Em said, stressing the word have. \"You aren\'t fat! Already last year Madam Pappas declared you were underweight for your age!\"
\"That was last year.\" Lily whispered, hoping that was good enough proof. It wasn\'t.
\"Lily Catherine Evans. That does NOT convince me! God dammit, EAT SOMETHING!\" Em was getting really nervous, and her way of letting it out was by getting angry. Lily knew this, and was actually quite touched. But she still wasn\'t going to eat. She had realized Malfoy was right hours ago. She could grab about half an inch of fat on her thighs. That was too much. Her stomach also touched the elastic line of her underwear. It wasn\'t supposed to do that. The underwear were supposed to hang loose. She wasn\'t going to eat. She was going to get thinner.
Even though Em tried, she couldn\'t get Lily to eat. A week passed without anyone really noticing. Em didn\'t know how, but Lily always seemed to be able to escape from sight when eating hours came around. She tried desperately to find her, but ended up nearly missing her lunch hour instead.
Lily started to look into the mirrors she passed in corridors. She would stop, turn so that she was facing sideways, and look. There always seemed to be something wrong. Either her thighs were too big, or her stomach was too huge. Lily thought eating nothing was the perfect plan. She would get thinner; she would look better. She didn\'t understand why Em was so upset. It wasn\'t her business what Lily did and didn\'t do.
Finally, after two weeks of not showing up, someone noticed Lily\'s nearly permanent absence from the Great Hall. This someone was Remus.
\"Em?\" He asked Emilie, worriedly. They had become good friends since the Hogwarts Express, considering he was the only one of the Marauders not being embarrassed being seen with her.
\"Yeah?\"
\"Are, uhm...are you and Lily in a fight or something?\" He asked carefully, looking a bit uncomfortable.
\"No, not really. Why?\" Em asked
\"Oh. Well, it\'s just...Lily hasn\'t been sitting with you the past two weeks,\" he answered. He looked worried. Em was taken by surprised, and then consideration. Should she say what was really wrong? Or lie? She was unsure. She had known Remus for about a month now. She trusted him completely. But still, this was Lily's business. She couldn't tell anyone. She never thought about herself for one moment. It might have been easier for her if she had someone to share the burden with. But this did not enter her thoughts.
\"Remus, everything is ok. Lily has just been missing a whole lot of dinners and lunches. She's been feeling nauseas. I think it's because of a Multi-Flavoured bean she ate a while ago. The effect must not have worn off."
"Oh, ok," Remus said, obviously relieved. He didn't exactly feel like sorting out girl problems, even though they were his friends. And his monthly torture was coming up in two days. Only James, Sirius and Peter knew about it. Thank God. He didn't want the others to know what he was.
As Remus sat back down next to Sirius, Em sighed.
"Close one," she thought. But she was happy someone had finally noticed something. She finished up her mashed potatoes, and left for the common room, where she found Lily reading a muggle book. Lily hadn't noticed Em coming in, and Em took the opportunity to study her friend.
Lily had always been thin and frail, but this was bad. Her once-tight T- Shirt hung loosely around the stomach and the chest area. Her Hogwarts skirt needed a belt to be held up. If it wasn't for her face, Lily would have been downright ugly. And her body hair growth had increased. Drastically. Her arms were covered by a thin blanket of hair, and Em knew she had to shave her legs every 2 days.
"Lily, honestly, you look horrible! Take a look at yourself!" Em said. Lily looked up, finally noticing Em's presence.
"I think I look fine," she defended. She had just reached her goal of having her stomach not touch the elastic line of her underwear.
"Well, you don't look fine!" Em said, heating up. "You look sick. Really sick! How much do you weigh now?" Em knew Lily normally weighed around 45- 48 kg.
"The same." Lily responded, quite coldly. "45 kg."
"Yeah right!" Em had lost all her patience. She rushed over to Lily, pulled her from her chair, and pulled her to the bathroom.
"Take off your clothes," she demanded. Lily stood still.
"Take off your fucking clothes!" Em screamed. Lily flinched. Em had never been this angry with her. She reluctantly stripped down to her bra and underwear.
"Kilogracious." Em pointed her wand to the floor. A muggle weight appeared. She took one more look at Lily before pushing her on the weight. The needle went up, then down, then up, and finally stopped. 36 kg.
Em tried not to cry. With a quivering voice, she said "Look at yourself Lily. You're hurting yourself. Don't you see? People die from this disease. Anorexia isn't just a harmless thing, you know." It was the first time Lily had been orally diagnosed as anorexic. She disagreed. She wasn't anorexic! She was just making herself thinner by not eating. It was called determination. Control over her body. She wasn't sick! Her anger got hold of her.
"Em, you just stop meddling in my business, you hear! Leave me alone!" She pushed the shocked Em aside, and ran to her dormitory. An hour later, Ems silhouette got silently into her bed. Lily wasn't asleep, and she was shocked to, two minutes later, hear sobs.
Em was indeed crying. She couldn't handle the burden of this anymore. She had to get Lily to the hospital wing. She was killing herself. Lily didn't know it, but she was killing herself. Emilie cried herself to sleep that night.
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\"Lily. seriously, you have to eat something!\" Em said, stressing the word have. \"You aren\'t fat! Already last year Madam Pappas declared you were underweight for your age!\"
\"That was last year.\" Lily whispered, hoping that was good enough proof. It wasn\'t.
\"Lily Catherine Evans. That does NOT convince me! God dammit, EAT SOMETHING!\" Em was getting really nervous, and her way of letting it out was by getting angry. Lily knew this, and was actually quite touched. But she still wasn\'t going to eat. She had realized Malfoy was right hours ago. She could grab about half an inch of fat on her thighs. That was too much. Her stomach also touched the elastic line of her underwear. It wasn\'t supposed to do that. The underwear were supposed to hang loose. She wasn\'t going to eat. She was going to get thinner.
Even though Em tried, she couldn\'t get Lily to eat. A week passed without anyone really noticing. Em didn\'t know how, but Lily always seemed to be able to escape from sight when eating hours came around. She tried desperately to find her, but ended up nearly missing her lunch hour instead.
Lily started to look into the mirrors she passed in corridors. She would stop, turn so that she was facing sideways, and look. There always seemed to be something wrong. Either her thighs were too big, or her stomach was too huge. Lily thought eating nothing was the perfect plan. She would get thinner; she would look better. She didn\'t understand why Em was so upset. It wasn\'t her business what Lily did and didn\'t do.
Finally, after two weeks of not showing up, someone noticed Lily\'s nearly permanent absence from the Great Hall. This someone was Remus.
\"Em?\" He asked Emilie, worriedly. They had become good friends since the Hogwarts Express, considering he was the only one of the Marauders not being embarrassed being seen with her.
\"Yeah?\"
\"Are, uhm...are you and Lily in a fight or something?\" He asked carefully, looking a bit uncomfortable.
\"No, not really. Why?\" Em asked
\"Oh. Well, it\'s just...Lily hasn\'t been sitting with you the past two weeks,\" he answered. He looked worried. Em was taken by surprised, and then consideration. Should she say what was really wrong? Or lie? She was unsure. She had known Remus for about a month now. She trusted him completely. But still, this was Lily's business. She couldn't tell anyone. She never thought about herself for one moment. It might have been easier for her if she had someone to share the burden with. But this did not enter her thoughts.
\"Remus, everything is ok. Lily has just been missing a whole lot of dinners and lunches. She's been feeling nauseas. I think it's because of a Multi-Flavoured bean she ate a while ago. The effect must not have worn off."
"Oh, ok," Remus said, obviously relieved. He didn't exactly feel like sorting out girl problems, even though they were his friends. And his monthly torture was coming up in two days. Only James, Sirius and Peter knew about it. Thank God. He didn't want the others to know what he was.
As Remus sat back down next to Sirius, Em sighed.
"Close one," she thought. But she was happy someone had finally noticed something. She finished up her mashed potatoes, and left for the common room, where she found Lily reading a muggle book. Lily hadn't noticed Em coming in, and Em took the opportunity to study her friend.
Lily had always been thin and frail, but this was bad. Her once-tight T- Shirt hung loosely around the stomach and the chest area. Her Hogwarts skirt needed a belt to be held up. If it wasn't for her face, Lily would have been downright ugly. And her body hair growth had increased. Drastically. Her arms were covered by a thin blanket of hair, and Em knew she had to shave her legs every 2 days.
"Lily, honestly, you look horrible! Take a look at yourself!" Em said. Lily looked up, finally noticing Em's presence.
"I think I look fine," she defended. She had just reached her goal of having her stomach not touch the elastic line of her underwear.
"Well, you don't look fine!" Em said, heating up. "You look sick. Really sick! How much do you weigh now?" Em knew Lily normally weighed around 45- 48 kg.
"The same." Lily responded, quite coldly. "45 kg."
"Yeah right!" Em had lost all her patience. She rushed over to Lily, pulled her from her chair, and pulled her to the bathroom.
"Take off your clothes," she demanded. Lily stood still.
"Take off your fucking clothes!" Em screamed. Lily flinched. Em had never been this angry with her. She reluctantly stripped down to her bra and underwear.
"Kilogracious." Em pointed her wand to the floor. A muggle weight appeared. She took one more look at Lily before pushing her on the weight. The needle went up, then down, then up, and finally stopped. 36 kg.
Em tried not to cry. With a quivering voice, she said "Look at yourself Lily. You're hurting yourself. Don't you see? People die from this disease. Anorexia isn't just a harmless thing, you know." It was the first time Lily had been orally diagnosed as anorexic. She disagreed. She wasn't anorexic! She was just making herself thinner by not eating. It was called determination. Control over her body. She wasn't sick! Her anger got hold of her.
"Em, you just stop meddling in my business, you hear! Leave me alone!" She pushed the shocked Em aside, and ran to her dormitory. An hour later, Ems silhouette got silently into her bed. Lily wasn't asleep, and she was shocked to, two minutes later, hear sobs.
Em was indeed crying. She couldn't handle the burden of this anymore. She had to get Lily to the hospital wing. She was killing herself. Lily didn't know it, but she was killing herself. Emilie cried herself to sleep that night.
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