Ok, here it goes...I hope you like it. It\'s like 10:10 pm here, which is
late for me (dont laugh). But I need to get up at 6 o\'clock
tomorrow...thats pretty early...REVIEWS ARE WELCOME! Flames too! I just
wanna noe someone actually read this! And this is also a kinda short
chapter
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Finally, Em persuaded Lily to join her in the Great Hall. For every meal. Lily only agreed because of Em. She hadn't known she was so important to her. That Em would cry because of something she was doing to herself. Of course, Lily didn't see it like that. She didn't think of it as "doing something to herself". She was merely making herself look thinner. Look better. She couldn't see why Em was so upset about something so simple and unimportant.
But, of course, it wasn't like Lily was going to start eating. Just because she was present at meal times, didn't imply having to eat. Lily wasn't stupid, though. She knew Em would notice if she didn't eat something. She was going to put food on her plate, of course. But she would just move it around. Only touch it with her fork. It always looked like you had eaten something when you just.rearranged things a bit.Em would never notice.
When Lily had finally agreed to attend meal times, Ems\' heart had leaped in joy. Was Lily going to start eating again? Probably not, but it was a start. Em was, of course, going to try to force some food down Lilys\' now untrained throat. She hoped Lily would get to understand the seriousness of her disease. Didn\'t she know 1 out of every 3 anorexics died? Em had also read a lot of books about the illness. Fiction, of course. With research behind. In each and everyone of them, the girl had pushed her food around her plate, hoping that no one would notice. She remembered one of the books specifically...what was it called again? Oh yeah,
\"The Best Little Girl in the World\". (IMPORTANT!!! This book exists, and is therefore COPYRIGHTED!!!!) The girl in that book had created a whole new person inside her. A character that was better than the previous one in her body. Maybe Lily was like that. Em hoped not. That girl had been hard to get back to reality.
\"Ok Lily. Time to eat!\" Em said, anticipation in her voice. She was sincerely hoping Lily would make progress. Take steps in going back to normal. She already had. Even if it was only attending meal times.
Lily took deep breaths. She was going to go through this as if everything was back to normal. Well, not normal, but that she was getting better.
Getting better? \"What the fuck are you talking about, Lils?\" She shouted inside herself. \"Getting better? How can you get better when there is nothing wrong with you in the first place?\" Lily was furious with herself. Why had Em influenced her to think that? It was all Ems\' fault. Suddenly remembering Em was actually in the room with Lily, she grinned nervously and pushed herself off her chair. Was it her imagination, or was it suddenly harder to get up than it usually was?
\"Naah, you prat. You\'re just imagining,\" she told herself. She took Ems arm to support herself for a second, then said, happier than she intended, \"Shall we?\" Em grinned. They walked down to the Great Hall. As they entered, joy, chatter, and laughter met them. Lily felt herself smile. It had been quite some time since she had been there...she realized she really loved it...NO! What was she thinking? She hated this place! It contained...well, food! Disgusting!\"
Em had noticed the sudden change in Lilys\' expression. It was very unpleasant. One moment she was about to laugh in joy; the next, she was making a grimace, as if everything in the world was absolutely repulsing.
\"Lets\' sit here, dearie.\" Em said, pulling Lily down beside her. Em remembered to drawl the dearie, as they usually did to each other. It was a kind of joke. Em had started it. They either called each other honey, sweetie, or dearie. Honey was when one of them was trying to make the other see her point of view. As in \"Honey, that really doesn\'t make sense!\" Sweetie was for when one off them was a bit...uhmmm...well, off. \"Uhmm...sweetie?\" And dearie; dearie was when being sarcastic. \"Yeah, sure dearie.\" Of course, Em hadn\'t meant what she had just said sarcastically. She was just trying to bring up old habits.
They both settled in, and Em piled loads of food on her plate. She wanted to show Lily how good food was. She tasted her chicken leg.
\"Yum! Lily, really! Try this!\" she said, as she nearly choked on a bone, and tried not to show it.
\"Uh...ok,\" Lily said uncertainly. She had planned that she would be sure of herself, to show Em that she could. That she wanted to eat. But that didn\'t really work out. All this food was making her fell queezy. Especially the smell. A roasted, fat smell from the chicken legs, a fresh, but cooked smell from the peas; a strong, thick smell from the sauce. Lily doubled up. She was afraid she would let it all out.
\"Em...\" She tried to hold it all back. Em looked down, and jumped as she saw her friend nearly projectile vomiting.
\"I\'m here Lils! I\'ll get you to the bathroom,\" she shouted in panic, as she pushed herself off the bench, and pulled Lily off, too.
\"Come on!\" she hollered. She dragged Lily with her, as they both sprinted to the closest bathroom. Many faces turned as they passed.
\"Didn\'t know it took so long to get over a Bean...\" Remus muttered to himself.
\"We\'re here Lils!\" Em half shouted, half gasped. \"Don\'t worry!\" Lily ran to the closet stall, and yanked up the toilet seat. Just in time. Em ran over and pulled Lilys long hair away from her face.
\"There, there. It\'s gonna be fine,\" she soothed. She was wondering what Lily was actually getting up. She definately did not have food in her stomach. Well, what was left of her stomache, anyway. Em knew that Lily was basically barfing up her spit, stomach acid, and some of her intestine lining. That was enough for Em to decide she was definitely not going back to the Great Hall that day.
After 5 minutes of tears and an unpleasantly lurching stomach, Lily shakily sat up agains the toilet. Em flushed.
\"You ok Lils?\" She asked, a look of the deepest concern in her eyes. Lily nodded. She closed her eyes, and breathed in deeply, trying to make herself feel normal again. They both just stayed there; Em standing, and Lily leaning agianst the toilet, her head bedning backwards on the toilet seat. Suddenly, silent tears fell from Ems eyes. She bent down, and wrapped the unsuspecing Lily in a tight hug.
\"Oh, Lily! I love you! I was so worried! Are you sure you\'re ok?\" Em was sniffling and sobbing as she said this. Lily started crying, too. She didn\'t know why.
\"Yes, Em. I\'m fine.\" They both sat there, hugging each other for a long time, rocking back and forth. Suddenly Lily started giggling. It became laughter. Em started giggling, too. Soon, both were rolling on the floor, laughing, still with tears of sorrow trickling down their cheeks. They couldn\'t stop. They went on for another hour. They were too emotionally exhausted to bear anything more that day, and therefore, they both fell softly asleep on the hard, cold marble floor of the girls bathroom. There they slept soundly the whole night.
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Finally, Em persuaded Lily to join her in the Great Hall. For every meal. Lily only agreed because of Em. She hadn't known she was so important to her. That Em would cry because of something she was doing to herself. Of course, Lily didn't see it like that. She didn't think of it as "doing something to herself". She was merely making herself look thinner. Look better. She couldn't see why Em was so upset about something so simple and unimportant.
But, of course, it wasn't like Lily was going to start eating. Just because she was present at meal times, didn't imply having to eat. Lily wasn't stupid, though. She knew Em would notice if she didn't eat something. She was going to put food on her plate, of course. But she would just move it around. Only touch it with her fork. It always looked like you had eaten something when you just.rearranged things a bit.Em would never notice.
When Lily had finally agreed to attend meal times, Ems\' heart had leaped in joy. Was Lily going to start eating again? Probably not, but it was a start. Em was, of course, going to try to force some food down Lilys\' now untrained throat. She hoped Lily would get to understand the seriousness of her disease. Didn\'t she know 1 out of every 3 anorexics died? Em had also read a lot of books about the illness. Fiction, of course. With research behind. In each and everyone of them, the girl had pushed her food around her plate, hoping that no one would notice. She remembered one of the books specifically...what was it called again? Oh yeah,
\"The Best Little Girl in the World\". (IMPORTANT!!! This book exists, and is therefore COPYRIGHTED!!!!) The girl in that book had created a whole new person inside her. A character that was better than the previous one in her body. Maybe Lily was like that. Em hoped not. That girl had been hard to get back to reality.
\"Ok Lily. Time to eat!\" Em said, anticipation in her voice. She was sincerely hoping Lily would make progress. Take steps in going back to normal. She already had. Even if it was only attending meal times.
Lily took deep breaths. She was going to go through this as if everything was back to normal. Well, not normal, but that she was getting better.
Getting better? \"What the fuck are you talking about, Lils?\" She shouted inside herself. \"Getting better? How can you get better when there is nothing wrong with you in the first place?\" Lily was furious with herself. Why had Em influenced her to think that? It was all Ems\' fault. Suddenly remembering Em was actually in the room with Lily, she grinned nervously and pushed herself off her chair. Was it her imagination, or was it suddenly harder to get up than it usually was?
\"Naah, you prat. You\'re just imagining,\" she told herself. She took Ems arm to support herself for a second, then said, happier than she intended, \"Shall we?\" Em grinned. They walked down to the Great Hall. As they entered, joy, chatter, and laughter met them. Lily felt herself smile. It had been quite some time since she had been there...she realized she really loved it...NO! What was she thinking? She hated this place! It contained...well, food! Disgusting!\"
Em had noticed the sudden change in Lilys\' expression. It was very unpleasant. One moment she was about to laugh in joy; the next, she was making a grimace, as if everything in the world was absolutely repulsing.
\"Lets\' sit here, dearie.\" Em said, pulling Lily down beside her. Em remembered to drawl the dearie, as they usually did to each other. It was a kind of joke. Em had started it. They either called each other honey, sweetie, or dearie. Honey was when one of them was trying to make the other see her point of view. As in \"Honey, that really doesn\'t make sense!\" Sweetie was for when one off them was a bit...uhmmm...well, off. \"Uhmm...sweetie?\" And dearie; dearie was when being sarcastic. \"Yeah, sure dearie.\" Of course, Em hadn\'t meant what she had just said sarcastically. She was just trying to bring up old habits.
They both settled in, and Em piled loads of food on her plate. She wanted to show Lily how good food was. She tasted her chicken leg.
\"Yum! Lily, really! Try this!\" she said, as she nearly choked on a bone, and tried not to show it.
\"Uh...ok,\" Lily said uncertainly. She had planned that she would be sure of herself, to show Em that she could. That she wanted to eat. But that didn\'t really work out. All this food was making her fell queezy. Especially the smell. A roasted, fat smell from the chicken legs, a fresh, but cooked smell from the peas; a strong, thick smell from the sauce. Lily doubled up. She was afraid she would let it all out.
\"Em...\" She tried to hold it all back. Em looked down, and jumped as she saw her friend nearly projectile vomiting.
\"I\'m here Lils! I\'ll get you to the bathroom,\" she shouted in panic, as she pushed herself off the bench, and pulled Lily off, too.
\"Come on!\" she hollered. She dragged Lily with her, as they both sprinted to the closest bathroom. Many faces turned as they passed.
\"Didn\'t know it took so long to get over a Bean...\" Remus muttered to himself.
\"We\'re here Lils!\" Em half shouted, half gasped. \"Don\'t worry!\" Lily ran to the closet stall, and yanked up the toilet seat. Just in time. Em ran over and pulled Lilys long hair away from her face.
\"There, there. It\'s gonna be fine,\" she soothed. She was wondering what Lily was actually getting up. She definately did not have food in her stomach. Well, what was left of her stomache, anyway. Em knew that Lily was basically barfing up her spit, stomach acid, and some of her intestine lining. That was enough for Em to decide she was definitely not going back to the Great Hall that day.
After 5 minutes of tears and an unpleasantly lurching stomach, Lily shakily sat up agains the toilet. Em flushed.
\"You ok Lils?\" She asked, a look of the deepest concern in her eyes. Lily nodded. She closed her eyes, and breathed in deeply, trying to make herself feel normal again. They both just stayed there; Em standing, and Lily leaning agianst the toilet, her head bedning backwards on the toilet seat. Suddenly, silent tears fell from Ems eyes. She bent down, and wrapped the unsuspecing Lily in a tight hug.
\"Oh, Lily! I love you! I was so worried! Are you sure you\'re ok?\" Em was sniffling and sobbing as she said this. Lily started crying, too. She didn\'t know why.
\"Yes, Em. I\'m fine.\" They both sat there, hugging each other for a long time, rocking back and forth. Suddenly Lily started giggling. It became laughter. Em started giggling, too. Soon, both were rolling on the floor, laughing, still with tears of sorrow trickling down their cheeks. They couldn\'t stop. They went on for another hour. They were too emotionally exhausted to bear anything more that day, and therefore, they both fell softly asleep on the hard, cold marble floor of the girls bathroom. There they slept soundly the whole night.