Sorry to say, but this story is nearing the end! I know so sad! But still read and review! Thanx
Why did the world seem so... bland today? It felt like this world was nothing but a sad time between birth and death, to someone who truly felt dead inside already. Sakura felt funny. It felt like happiness and the possibility of joy were so far away that they seemed to disappear completly. But yet she didn't feel, instead she thought. Her body was numb and couldn't feel half as much pain as she wished she could feel. God she wanted so desperately to feel something. Anything, to let her believe that there is more to life then this aching inside and bleeding heart that still managed to pump inside her. But she couldn't.
Numbly, she could hear mummers in the hallway just outside her room. It wasn't as if she was sleeping, but she wasn't awake either. Somehow she had come to be stuck in-between the two. She couldn't make out just what they were saying, but then again she had no desire to. Curiosity was always strong in her, but now it was gone. Along with her happiness and very soul. He had taken it all from her. Yet she still managed to love him, and still found the way to repeat. ' He loves me, I know he does.' Inside her own darkness. Why she didn't know. Even one as broken as she was, could see how much he had done to her. Sakura could see what he had put her through with his own hands. But she still couldn't hate him. She loved him, because she knew no one else would.
How could she let him do these things to her? What was it that kept her from stopping him, which was so powerful? Why did she allow him to freely and repeatedly beat her to the this point, even if she knew she was strong enough to stop him? Wait, was she?
Maybe she really didn't have the strength she thought she did for all these years? He had been right. All along, he was right. She was useless. she only got in everyone's way, while trying to act as if she had the power to contribute on missions. Tsunde was only taking pity on her when she accepted her as her pupil. Taking her in as if she was a bird with no wings. Teaching her how to fly even though she knew that this bird would never get off the ground. It was pity that brang Tsunde to her, not potential.
Why didn't she see this before, if she had maybe she would have spared herself some embarrassment. The whole town probably knows about this by now, and she knew that things would never be the same. She had been exposed, live in front of an audience.
She wished that she wasn't so weak, if she was strong as he wanted her to be. Maybe, things could've been different, maybe he would have hugged her once and a while? Why could've he see that everything she did was to make him proud of her. To make her worthy of a hug or a simple 'I love you', as she apparently wasn't deserving of now.
'Kakashi.' She thought.' Why does everything have to be so difficult? Why does everything I do turn out to be wrong? Why can't things just be as they are without all the masks and deception? Why can't I just love you?'
Kakashi's pace was quick, but failed to have the normal energy that he used to posses. The mission last night was draining, but he had managed to make out alive and still complete the task at hand. What a thing to come home to. An empty apartment with rumors that Sakura had been admitted into the hospital merely three hours before he had returned to Konoha. As soon as he had heard, he ran for the hospital, even if his Chakra was running low, he had managed to get there in relatively good time.
After checking what room she was in, Kakashi had began his brisk walk through the halls towards room 2056, Sakuras room. His heart beat rapidly in his chest. from the energy shortage and from the worry that Sakura might not be ok. Why was she here? She was perfectly fine before he left for his mission yesterday, so what had happened in the time that he was gone?
Tsunde's form appeared after he had rounded the corner. He paused upon seeing just how many people were waiting just outside the room 2056. Naruto, Sasuke, Hinita, Genma, Gai...
Then he saw him. That man in which everything had started from. Kakashi felt grow inside of him to an extent which he had never felt before. Sakura wouldn't have gone home... would she? That's it. That bastard that stood before him had defiantly did something to Sakura, there was no doubt in his mind at all.
"I heard Sakura scream from down the street, but by the time I got there, the ninja's of Sand had already made their escape." He heard her father say to Tsunde.
That was it. Kakashi couldn't hold it back any longer. His feet briskly walked towards the man voluntarily, darkness in his eyes that seemed to put only his enemy in focus with everything around him blurry. Before the old mans gaze could even raise from the Hokage's, Kakashi had put a death drip to his collar, and had roughly slammed the old man into the wall behind where he once stood, the old man's hands reached up to try to pry the iron grip at his throat.
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" Kakashi screamed, gripping Tokiya's collar so hard that his knuckles turned white, his Kimono that the man always wore ridding up dangerously into the old mans throat.
"Let me go you piece of shit!" The man hissed. By this time, everyone in the waiting room was now turned completelyinto the action.
"Kakashi, let him go."Tsunde tried to order softly, but noticed how much Kakashi's grip tightened.
"What did you do to her, YOU FUCK!" Kakashi lifted him off the wall and slammed him into it again. This time so hard that the wall behind Tokiya's back cracked all the way up to the ceiling.
"I don't know what you're talking about!"Tokiya yelled.
"You cocksucking motherfucker."Kakashi hissed."Your not a father, your just a child with a temper! How could you do this to your own daughter!" Kakashi screamed, as he felt several hands grab his shoulder and at his arms. He felt his hands loosening around Tokiya's throat as the hands pulled him back. Kakashi struggled against them, never once taking his glaring gaze off the enemy."I swear to God if you lay one more finger on her, I'LL CUT YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF! YOU HEAR ME TOKIYA!" Kakashi screamed.
Once Genma and Gai had restrained their struggling friend, they had pinned him to the far wall and out of Tokiya's reached.
"Kakashi you better tell me what the hell's going on!" Tsunde ordered, after stepping in-between the fighting men.
"Sakura's hurt because of him. He did something to her, I was so blind not to see it before."Kakashi hung his head in tiredness.
"What before?"Tsunde demanded.
"Sakura had a black eye before. She said it was from training with Ino but-"
"I was never training with Sakura! I haven't spared with her for at least two months!"Ino spoke up from the watching crowd. Upon hearing this everyone turned to look at Tokiya, who had begun the process of recovering from the initial attack to to his throat, as he re-adjusted his collar to fit perfectly back into place. Slowing his breathing, his sharp eyes lifted to search the crowd of eyes that intently stared back at him.
"What are you all looking at? Huh?"Tokiya snapped."... You think that I would hurt my own daughter?" He hissed. Everyone remained silent, neither really knowing just what to say. "Sakura's my only child, and I love her more then anything in this world!"
"You don't love her, Tokiya!" Kakashi snapped."You're just afraid that when Sakura finally figures out the women are worth more then what you say they are, she's going to leave you, alone. Then who will wait on you hand and foot, no one will be around to for you to make yourself feeling like you have some control! You're sick Tokiya. Mentally sick. You crave to have power over another because you know that without it you're just a scared little boy who wants to be strong. That's it, isn't it?" Kakashi's voice had dulled down from a yell to a normal yet dark voice that practically spat anger.He knew that Tokiya knew what he was speaking was all true. Kakashi was trained with Anbu to get inside peoples heads, to find out just what they were thinking. And inside he saw a small boy huddled in a ball in front of a large picture of his own father, and that of his passed wife.
"Shut up, asshole! You don't know anything about me!" Tokiya screamed.
"That is enough both of you!" Tsunde's voice boomed with power over the loud shouting around her, and immediatelyy everyone shut up."I have the best anbu on this matter, they will discover just what has happened to Sakura. Until then, there is nothing that anyone can do for her right now. So, Tokiya. I think you should leave."Tsunde turned to look at the old man.
"I'm not going anywhere, Sakura need-"He began but was interrupted.
"What Sakura needs is rest and she will not get it if everyone is huddled around her at once. Now you are free to come back and see her if that is what she wishes. But until that time go home and get some rest. Both of you." She replied to both Kakashi and Tokiya. Kakashi ran a hand through his hair in frustration. She was right, even though it was killing him not being able to see her if she didn't want to see him then-
"Mr.. Hatake?"Kakashi was jarred from his voice inside his head when someone had called his name.Looking up from where his gaze had once studied the floor, he was drawn to the female nurse standing in Sakura's doorway.
"Yes, that's me. What is it?" He moved towards her in urgency."Did something-"
"She speaks your name to herself. Maybe you should see her, she has not asked for anyone else." The nurse replied in a soft voice. Kakashi swallowed, as his heart beat faster inside his chest.' She's saying my name?'He thought. Slowly ,and without knowing any other thing to do, he nodded. The nurse stepped aside to let him enter the room through the small opening. He stepped inside without a moment of hesitation.
The nurse shut the door quietly after both stood inside the large room. Kakashi's gaze focused on the far bed by the window from the second he entered. There he saw the figure of a small body who lay still on the bed. Pink hair contrasted the white of the pillow beneath her head and the sheets that were placed over top of her neatly. From a distance she looked perfectly fine, but knew that something was wrong when she never acknowledged his entrance.
The nurse stepped around the frozen man, and at which time he followed, with the signal that it was okay to approach her. The room was silent, and it had that smell of all hospital rooms, the smell that he preferred never to be around.
Then his widened eye fell over the face that openly expressed her real true condition. He felt his heart snap and shatter inside of his chest upon seeing her for the first time. Her face was bruised very badly, mainly around her eyes and lips. Her cheeks were cut as if he could really see just how hard she had been hit. But what killed him most off all was that her eyes were so cold and dead. As if she had lost all spark in them and was truly broken. They just stared out the window beside the bed.
"Sakura?"His voice was shaky, and scared. She didn't answer him. Kakashi squeezed his eyes shut as he ripped off the headband that covered his sharigen. He fell to the chair beside her bed and furiously reached out to hold her limp hand. He brang her hand to his lip to place a chaste kiss on her silky skin.
"She had major damage to her face, as well to her rib cage and stomach."Kakashi didn't speak as he pressed her hand, still him his, to his forehead." But she'll be okay." She forced a smile, even though the man didn't notice."I also called you in to run something by you, Mr.. Hatake."
"What?" He whispered.
"The doctors here are able to effectively heal her, but as you know we need signed approval to do so. But Ms. Haruno-"
"Mrs.. Hatake." Kakashi spoke up."She's my fiancé." He whispered. The nurse's eyes narrowed in sadness. To have a fiancé, or even a girlfriend at that matter, in such a condition before your eyes. She felt had great symphathies for this man.
"Mrs..Hatake, will not sign the papers."The nurse replied.
"Is she able?"Kakashi asked.
"Yes, but she will not let any doctor near her. In fact you are the only one top touch her since she was admitted last night."The nurse sighed." That's why I thought that you could convince her."Kakashi lifted his head from her hand.
"Can't I just sign the papers?"He inquired. The nurse shook her head.
"Only her husband can, or an immediate family member." Kakashi's mix matched eyes rested once more upon her bruised features that hurt his heart. Why won't she just sign the papers and heal herself sooner rather then waiting it out? He wondered."I'll leave you two alone now. Call if anything happens."The nurse placed a comforting hand on his tense shoulder before walking towards the door.
"Thank you." He whispered, as she left the room.
After hearing the door close, Kakashi reached out to softly brush the pink hair from her eyes, noticing how she didn't even budge at his touch. Her pale unfocused eyes didn't even blink or shift to look at him. This scared him.
"Sakura, please talk to me." He whispered. Still she didn't speak, so he continued."You have to sign the papers so that you can get out of here sooner."Silence. Kakashi felt frustration building inside of him."Damnit Sakura, stop being so stubborn."He sighed.Quietness. Kakashi hung his head as his free hand rubbed the ache on the bridge of his nose."If you don't sign them then I'll force-"
"No."Came a curt response from the mouth which was silent up until this point. Kakashi's head lifted in surprise, at least she was talking now. Which was a start.
"Why?"He asked carefully, just incase she decided not to answer him again.
"...Because."She whispered almost to herself.Kakashi waited patiantly for her continuation."... I need to do this on my own." She replied.
"No you don't, suffering won't make your father change." He tried to speak softly but he was angry at the same time. First for her willingness to to do this to herself, and secondly for letting that bastard to the same. He could have sworn he saw her eyes flash very briefly before turning back into the dull once that he had seen when he had first arrived.
"... I know. "She whispered very quietly that Kakashi had a hard time hearing.
"Then why? If you know what a terrible person he is why is it that you do nothing but try to impress him! It's a hopeless mission you're on Sakura, can't you see that?"He asked gripping her hand as his eyes gazed upon her features with painful pity for her.
"He's not a bad person."She replied. kakashi had had enough at this point with this self-pity bullshit. Reached forward he grasped her chin and forced her head to the side so that her gaze had no choice but to fall on him.
"Do you heard yourself ? He's not a bad person after what he's done to you ?" Kakashi whispered. Sakura tried to look away, she tried to pull her hand from his. But both attempts to free herself from him were pointless as it was apparent that he would hold on to her until he heard what he wanted to hear. She felt like crying, but the numbness remained. She felt like screaming but her voice died in her throat.
"Please let me go." She could only whimper. Kakashi swallowed in sadness.
"... Do you even know who I am anymore?" He whispered."Say my name, Sakura." She shut her eyes against his piercing gaze as she felt the numbness wearing off. No, she wanted the numbness. If she couldn't feel then nothing could hurt her.
"I can't." She whimpered almost pathetically.
"Sakura after spending so much time hiding from other people, please, don't make us hide from each other." He whispered. Sakura felt tears running down her face, against her will she had was crying. All the numbness was gone, and the aching body she pocessed began to hurt terribly. Soon she was trembling in sobs.
"Kakashi."She cried. His arms immediately wrapped gently around her body.
"Oh, Sakura."He whispered and got up from the chair to move closer to her. Planting kisses all over the top of her head, he shifted onto the bed corner and held the sobbing girl. Being grateful that she was crying on the outside rather then the inside. Tears of the heart are always easier to mend then tears of the soul.
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