A/N: I'm sorry that it took so long to update but I have not been able to get on the Internet for a long time. There is once more something wrong with my Internet service and I don't know what it is. Please Read and Review. I'll try to post soon.
Second Best Part XI
Luna made her way through Lovegood manor and sneaked down into the basement where she knew her mother was perhaps working on an experiment. Her mother had her back toward her and she was taking out her wand. She raised her wand and said a curse that Luna had never heard uttered before. Avada Kadavra. She saw a brilliant flash of green light and she watched as her mother fell to the floor. Luna stood there, watching the body on the floor and when she noticed her mother wasn't moving she slowly made her way over to her. She kneeled down and shook her mother. "Mum," she said softly as she moved the blonde hair out of her mother's face. Her little hands shook her and shook her. She could feel tears begin to well in her eyes as she looked at her. "Mummy," she said as she lay down on the floor next to her mom. She grabbed her mom's arm and wrapped around her little body. She lay there on the floor as tears slid down her face.
"No!" Luna screamed as she sat up in bed. There were tears rolling down her face. She brought up her knees to her chest and she hugged them as she rocked back and forth. She wildly looked around the room, momentarily forgetting that she was in Snape's manor. The door suddenly burst open and Snape came in with his wand up. She looked up at him through tear filled eyes and stared at him. He had immediately turned on the light as he entered the room. His expression became confused and he walked over to Luna's bedside.
"Luna are you all right?" he asked as he stared down at her. She looked at him through tear filled eyes and she could feel the lump in her throat causing her pain. She held back the sobs, she had always been a silent crier and it hurt. Luna looked at Snape and knew that he had not been asleep because he was fully clothed in that days clothes and it was only midnight. She knew for a fact that he usually slept late. She took in deep breaths and wiped the tears from her eyes.
"I'm fine," she said, her voice cracked slightly and she stared up at him. He was looking down at her with a raised eyebrow and the expression on his face was something that she had never seen before. There was actually a look of concern on his face. "I'm sorry for disturbing you Professor," she said as she looked at him. He merely stared at her for a moment before nodding. He than turned and walked out of the room as gracefully as ever and he turned the light off shortly before closing the door behind him. Luna lay back down and closed her eyes, trying to fall asleep.
When Luna woke up the next morning she did not want to get up. There where still days that Luna felt raw and sad about her mothers passing. When her father found them both lying on the floor together he broke down into tears, thinking that she was dead as well, but Luna had heard him and got up from where she lay asleep. She had been down there with her mother so long that she had cried herself to sleep. She had walked over to her father and hugged him tightly, both of them crying. When the people got there to take her away they said that it was an accident. Luna had believed them, until the beginning of her fifth year when they learned about the unforgivable curses. That was the reason that she had changed.
Luna crawled out of bed at lunchtime and didn't bother to change. She felt too emotionally exhausted and she didn't care too much about her appearance. She slowly made her way down the hall in her baggy, white cotton pajama bottoms and baggy white t-shirt. She than slowly went down the flight of stairs and walked into the kitchen. She walked through the door and let herself drop into her seat. As she sat down she made a loud PLOP! Noise, which caused Snape and look at her. She merely turned her eyes in his direction and found them staring at her in an extremely calculating way.
"How are you feeling?" he asked as he stared at her. She looked into his eyes and sighed. She was very tired and she didn't much feel like talking to anyone. She picked at her food for a couple of moments.
"Tired," she responded as she looked at him. She pushed the plate of food in front of her away. She stood up and excused herself and she slowly walked out of the room. She didn't even know why she had bothered to walk down to the dining room. She hadn't expected to have much of an appetite to eat something. She slowly made her way out of the house and as she did she noticed that it was cloudy out. It looked like it would rain. There was a cool breeze in the air. She very slowly made her way around the manor. She felt as if perhaps the fresh air would do her some good.
She wrapped her arms around herself as she could feel the wind hit her hard. She slowly made her way towards the forest and made her way into it. She tried to clear her head of everything, but she simply couldn't. Her mother and the horrible green flash kept replaying in her head. The way her mother body hit the floor, the dull thud the concrete made when her mother's body came into contact with it still wrung in her ears. She placed her hands over her ears and shook her head, not wanting to hear any of it. Tears welled in her eyes as she walked.
She could hear all the times her mother sang to her in her head. She pictured her mothers decaying body as it lay in the cold grown behind her house. She soon fell to her knees on the floor. The tears began to roll down her face. It was than that the heavens opened up and very large drops of rain began to pour down on the earth. She had always felt that the rain was like it was washing away all the evils of the world, but now she didn't find any consolation in the rain. She heard loud claps of thunder that seemed to start to drowning out the sobs that she could no longer hold back. She rocked herself back and forth and placed her hand over her ears. She sobbed aloud and tried to force the sound of her mother's voice out of her ears. She opened her eyes and tried to see through the glaze in them.
Luna sat on the cold ground and began to shiver. The wind was beginning to blow harder and the rain that had soaked through her clothes where chilling her bones, but she didn't care. She wanted to be alone and she really didn't care if she got sick. She could not understand what had been so bad that had caused her mother to kill herself. She had thought that it was perhaps herself that had done something wrong. Was she such a horrible daughter that her mother couldn't bare to live with her? She didn't understand why her mother killed herself. She had always seemed so happy. Her mother and her father had never even fought when she was around.
Large tears rolled down her face and mixed with the rain. Loud claps of thunder where heard over her head and it got darker. She could feel the temperature drop and she began to shiver. She lay down on the grass and stared at the top of the trees. She could feel the darkness begin to creep about the forest and around her. The day was cold and dark, very much how she felt inside. The wind blew hard and her wet locks of hair where draped on her face. Large drops of water dropped on her face and the rest of her body, but she merely lay there. She was becoming numb, both metaphorically and literally. Her eyes soon began to make her feel dizzy and things began to get dark. Her visions began to come in and out of focus, before she knew it she knocked out in the cold.
When Luna came to it wasn't raining quite so hard, but claps of thunder could still be heard overhead and it looked darker than before. Lighting bolts seemed to light up the sky. Luna sat up and she could feel the pains of a headache. She stood up and looked around. She wondered for how long she had been laying down and she shivered as she was freezing. She sighed and slowly made her way in the direction that she had thought that she had come from. She was soon sneezing and despite the fact that her forehead felt very warm she was freezing. Her body ached as she took the steps back toward the manor. She walked around the forest in the rain for at least half an hour more before she found her way out the forest.
Her eyes soon fell on Snape Manor and she felt relieved. She shivered and started walking faster. She slowed her pace as she neared the front door because she was feeling exhausted. Her head was spinning and she felt very nauseous. She figured that she most likely had become very sick, but than again who wouldn't. Anyone lying in the rain in the cold would get sick. She felt too tired and sick to continue thinking of her mother. She began to cough as she reached he door and she felt as if she was about to cough up a lung. When her coughing fit was partly though her throat felt like it was burning and her lungs hurt. She slowly turned the doorknob and walked into the entrance hall.
As she stepped into the dimly lit hall she could vaguely see Snape pacing back and forth and her head once more began to feel as if it where spinning. He immediately turned his gaze in her direction, but she could not get her eyes to steady enough to focus on the expression on his face. "LUNA LOVEGOOD WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN THE PAST COUPLE OF HOURS! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW LATE IT IS! YOU FOOLISH GIRL!" he said as he rushed forward but as he did so she began to sway. Pretty soon her knees could no longer hold her up and they buckled beneath her causing her to fall to the floor in a dead faint.
A couple of minutes later she very slowly opened her eyes. Her vision was blurred and the room looked like a blur of colors. She knew that she was in her room and that she was lying dry under the covers. She also knew that she was tightly tucked in and despite that she was still quaking from the cold that she felt. She closed her eyes and tilted her head to the right and opened them. She could vaguely make out the figure of Snape sitting on the edge of the bed applying something wet to her forehead. She could vaguely hear his voice telling her that she had a blazing fever. Her body temperature was dangerously high. She could vaguely hear the concern in his voice and he seemed to be telling her to hold on. But once more she felt the room go black and she heard no more.
The next time Luna opened her eyes her vision was slightly better. She looked around the room and found that Snape had fallen asleep in a chair beside her bed. She looked towards the window and the sun was shining brightly through the windows. She still felt like she was burning up slightly, but she felt as though she was slightly better than the night before. She soon turned her gaze to the sleeping form of Snape and she wondered if he had stayed the whole night there. She turned away from him and closed her eyes, she had no idea why but she still felt very tired.
Luna fell asleep once more and woke a couple of hours later. Her eyes slowly fluttered opened and she could see large pools of green staring straight into her face. As her eyes focused she realized that it was Turtle standing at the side of her bed and looking into her eyes. As soon as Turtle saw that she was awake he began to hop up and down with happiness and a large smile on his face. Luna smiled very weakly at him. "Hello Turtle, do you know what time it is?" she asked as she stared as best she could into the face of the elated little elf.
"It is high noon Miss Lovegood, but you are finally awake! You gave everyone a right good scare there, expecially master Snape," Turtle said as he stared at her. Luna nodded and turned away. She was feeling slightly cold and she could feel her face burning. "You are still ill, but you are better than you where yesterday," Turtle said to her. Luna merely nodded in response; she could feel the beginning of a headache coming on. "Miss Lovegood it is time that you take your potion," Turtle said. Luna slowly opened her eyes and turned her attention to Turtle, who was bringing a vial near her lips. She opened her mouth and drunk the potion and soon felt her headache go away.
"Where is Professor Snape?" she asked as she stared at Turtle.
"Ebony asked Master Snape to at least get a couple of hours of sleep," Turtle responded. Luna nodded and turned away and stared at the wall. She hoped that she hadn't been much trouble to Snape. She also hoped that he was not angry with her, she wasn't scared if he was, but she just didn't want to put up with his bad temper at that point. She wondered what where Snape's motives for staying at her bedside all night long She found that it was strange that he would, after all he could have just allowed one of the elves to watch over her. "Miss Lovegood, why did you do this to yourself?" she heard Turtle suddenly ask. Luna slowly turned her attention to the elf standing by her bed. It's large green eyes where shining and there was a melancholy look on his face.
"You wouldn't understand Turtle," she said as she looked away. She could find no words that would be able to explain it and she knew that Turtle wouldn't understand. She felt as though no one would understand. No one she knew had ever gone through what she did. The only person that she knew had lost his parents was Harry and they didn't leave him on purpose. They where murdered, but had they had the chance to chose to live the rest of their lives, being able to see him grow up she knew they would have chose to. But her mother, her mother was in good health and lived a healthy life and yet her mother chose to not live. Her mother decided that watching Luna grow up was not enough for her to continue living.
Luna felt tortured by the fact that she felt as though her mother did not love her. She also felt tortured with the fact that she did not know why her mother committed suicide. She felt as though she would never find out why. Luna turned her attention to Turtle who was looking at her sympathetically. "Miss Lovegood, perhaps if you unloaded the troubles in your heart it would not be so heavy with pain," Turtle said as it looked at her. Luna stared at him for a moment, as it seemed to make sense what he said. Turtle turned away and walked out of the room. Luna sat back to think.
TBC……