Category: Angst
Pairings: Jack/Sam
Summary: people change for better and for worse
Disclaimer: not mine blablabla never will be blablablabla ill give em back I sware
AN: w00t another enstalment of my 3amdeep n meaningful. R&R please.
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Change
She used to be happy. She was the most beautiful woman ever, in his eyes. She had a smile that dazzled even the most seasoned officers, especially him, she had a special one for him. Anything that stood in her way, any problem she came to she conquered with ease, except the regs, she was smart that way. But she wasn't just smart she had a league all to her own & hated to admit it. She saved our lives …… no not just our lives but the whole world, too many times to count. We lived the best life, the four of us, together forever, well that's what we thought.
Then it happened. How it happened no one knows but she still blames herself, she said that it was her fault, that if she had done something different it wouldn't have happened. But eventually she came to reality. She realised that hindsight could not change the past.
She changed then in those days that followed. We all watched her slip, day by day we didn't stop her, she just seemed to die with him. It was as if she had lost her soul, her will to live. Hammond saw this and we were put on leave, she didn't come back.
When we went to look for her we found a horror that no friend should find. It was like the things that movies are made of. The things that cause sleepless nights in fear of the dreamings to follow, forcing us to face our past. We cursed our selves for not coming sooner but we were afraid of what we would find, only to realise for reward to our fear when we found her she was a mere image of her former self.
We helped her pass it through and all the way we thanked the gods we conquered our fear and got there when we did, if not we would have lost her.
She made it through, to the light on the other side, and left it behind her, in that dark place where it belonged, we all did. We closed that door and through away the key.
So now she's happy, she wakes up every morning and puts on her beautiful face, paints on her smile and readies for work. she now laughs and jokes with the best of them, but its not the same. Some would say that she is back to her old self again but we can see that she is missing that same sparkle from her eye, she doesn't smile THAT smile and ……
Now she hides her scars
The scars of the past
That demand to be hidden
Kept in the dark
They may no longer weep their crimson regret
But remain as an unsightly reminder
For all those who knew