Hi! I finally wrote something to continue 'Self Inflicted…' Though it really doesn't make sense it really has a problem flowing…. It is readable… I think. I spent good part of the night not sleeping because little ideas kept popping up. The thing is I couldn't put it together… quite right.

Note: BL and some others. Like if you don't like ConradxYuuri, please avoid.

-The Talk About the Cuts-

He stared at his old scars. Now all he had left was regret and hopeless love. Should he thank those scars or should he loathe them? In a way, he adored those scats which Yuuri had placed upon his lips. But those same scars brought up rather painful memories from past.

He felt like he was the only one holding onto past. He knew he was happy, but a part of him was always discontent. He desired something more. What he yearned for was always right within his reach, but he knew his light belonged to someone else. He knew he didn't deserve the innocent boy.

But today, he was too busy to just sit around and reflect upon it over and over again.

Later, that day, Yuuri arrived.

When Yuuri arrived at Jin Makoku, everybody greeted him with the same kind of love and kindness that he had grown fond of. And a towel, to dry himself. But most of all, he was eager to see Conrad.

"I'm back!" Yuuri greeted his mentor with a grin.

"Welcome back, Your Majesty," Conrad answered back with his trade mark smile.

"Hey! There's that Your Majesty again. Don't call me that!" Yuuri smiled as he told Conrad.

However, before Yuuri got to say anything else, Gunter explained to him that he had LOTS AND LOTS of other work that he had to finish.

When the day turned to night, and stars were shining outside Yuuri's office's window, he was finally done with all his work. He was eager to get out of his office and go straight to Conrad's room. Maybe it was a bit late, but he could care less. Besides, he had to do this when Wolfram wasn't awake. If Wolfram had seen this, he would make so much fuss out of it.

Conrad was surprised to hear a knock on his bedroom door at such a late time, but he guessed it was Yuuri and opened the door. No surprise. Yuuri was smiling lightly with serious eyes as he stood waiting outside Conrad's door.

"Conrad, if you don't mind, can we discuss some things?" Yuuri asked Conrad as calmly as he could. He was nervous. How could he word his question just right to ask him why he did such thing?

"I certainly don't mind," Conrad said as he smiled. "What do you want to disucuss about?"

"I was wondering if you can tell me why you cut yourself." Yuuri knew that it was such blunt way to state it, but it seemed like the most sensible and straight forward way.

For some strange reason, he knew it was coming. And maybe that was the reason he couldn't sleep today. Maybe he was expecting a long talk with his king.

"Well," Conrad smiled bitterly as he spoke. "There were several reasons. But maybe the reason I did it was… because of a heart break."

"But why? You know you can speak to someone about it. Conrad… You know you can always count me on to speak something if you're in pain… You can't do that again. And I know…You won't do that again. Right?" Yuuri spoke clearly, but there were some doubts to his voice. He was afraid of what might have happened if Yuuri didn't catch Conrad in the first place.

"Yuuri, I will speak to you about it in the future. And I promised you that I will never cut again. I never will," Conrad said in a calm tone.

"I'm so afraid… Conrad… That someday, you'll leave me alone. And that you'll never come back. Don't leave me alone." Yuuri confessed up his fears.

"I'll serve you forever. And that I'll promise you, without any doubts," Conrad pledged.

He kneeled down on the floor with one knee and kissed the young king's hand. The pale moonlight coming from outside the window illuminated Yuuri's face showed that it was slightly red.

"My heart will never cease to burn for you. If you told me that you needed me, I'll be there for you until the end. If you were in danger or got hurt, I'll protect you and get revenge for you. If you died, I'll follow." Conrad swore to his king. His only king.

"I will always need you even without words, please be with me until the end. If you get injured, I will always heal you. If you died, I'll be broken hearted and will mourn for you until the day I die." Yuuri whispered to his knight. His only knight.

It sounded like an empty promise, but they knew that they would try their best to keep it.

They fell asleep together that night, and for now it didn't matter to them. For now, they didn't care that when they woke up the next morning, Gunter will be screaming hysterically, Wolfram will throw a fit, and rumors will fly around the castle about the scandal that happened between the two.

For now, they felt the security of each other's warmth as they were asleep holding each other's hands.

-End-

And it ended! Yay! Although it sucked! For the people actually read it until here! Wow! You guys have so much patience! Thanks for reading! For the people who wanted a continuation, I'm sorry that I didn't write it good…

As always, constructive criticisms and reviews will be really appreciated.

Thank you!