Title: Shattered Dreams

Summary: Rei Hino falls in love with Heero Yui before she realizes he is a race car driver. Can she forget the tragic accident of her former love, the death of her fiancé and let herself fall in love with Heero? Will the nightmares of Derek ever end and let her move on?

Dedication: This one is dedicated to my little "brother," who also lost his life to a tragic accident. May he have found a more peaceful place to live on in.

Prologue

She lay in bed in his arms. How she loved him. She couldn't imagine life getting any better than this. She glanced over at him, in all his sleeping glory. She couldn't even place a number on the countless times that she had lovingly teased him about the pose he now lay in. His white-blond hair was rumpled from rolling around in the night, probably imagining the newest, most exciting racetrack. His gorgeous blond lashes kissed his cheeks hiding the dark brown eyes which any girl would get lost in. He looked so young and innocent. She could hardly wait to see what their child would look like.

As if he could feel the heat of her violet gaze, his eyelids fluttered and soon revealed his crimson eyes. The eyes were hard to describe, even in her thoughts. A dark brown that was red. Amazing. A grin spread across his face.

"Good Morning, Love." His deep voice projected his words as if they were an essence of the very air they breathed. She resisted the urge to sigh dreamily. Geez, the things men could do to girls!

"Are you excited, Derek?" she asked contemplating their plans for the day.

His eyes lit up as if he'd just remembered what the day held. "I can't wait! Oh, the things that I can barely wait for!" he exclaimed grabbing her left hand and smothering her ring finger in kisses. This sweet gesture was followed by kisses all over her barely-there swollen abdomen.

It was so hard to believe Derek, this wonderful man, would be a father to her baby. Even harder to believe was that she was only two months along and her belly had started to swell, but only ever so slightly. She curled her body into his accepting his generous gift of kisses. How she loved this man. She could hardly wait for their child as well.

Their lips separated as he drew back from her. Her diamond solitaire engagement ring sparkled in the sunlight which appeared to adore the fancy expensive jewelry. He slowly dropped his arms releasing her. "Be careful." she whispered hugging him.

He knew she expected him to be more careful than he had been before. His beautiful bride-to-be anticipated their child only second to the day they would commit their lives to each other. He would do anything and everything to be there for both.

He smiled reassuringly. "I will, my Love. You be careful too, I couldn't imagine life without the two of you." he mumbled, gesturing toward her baby.

She laughed. "Derek, I'm sitting in the stands. What could happen to us? There's nothing I wouldn't do to protect my two leading men!"

"Oh, well. That goes the same for my girls." He put emphasis on 'girls'.

She let him kiss her once more, tangling her long, slender fingers through his blond hair. His brown eyes twinkled as they separated once again, and he headed for his car. She waved and felt her heart thump. If only their baby could see Daddy at work. He was wonderful at what he did. She was so proud of him. She headed for the stands where the crowds were gathering, all the while rubbing her belly and smiling.

The race was advancing slowly as all NASCAR races seemed to go. Drivers were fighting for the lead and then using techniques to try and hold the lead. Derek, in his skillful driving, was now holding third place, preparing to take second.

Her heart pounded. Seeing how fast the cars were going always made her worry. She rubbed her belly unconsciously, watching Derek with clenched hands. What was that? She thought she saw the small glow of something in the car ahead of Derek. She leaned forward squinting as the car ahead of Derek suddenly jerked to the side, headed for the wall and Derek.

She watched in stunned horror as Derek tried to scoot ahead, trapped between the car swerving for him and the wall coming closer.

Tires screeched, the smell of burning rubber reached her nose. She watched in silence, unable to even mutter a groan, as his car was sandwiched between the wall and the car that had just gone 'psycho'. Suddenly as if she had been given her voice back she heard her voice scream 'NO!' in agony. Her body wouldn't move. She was frozen in place.

She heard the whole stadium gasp and suddenly fill with the roar of shrieks, sobs, and yelling all at once. The car burst into flames in slow motion. She tried to get to her feet, but stumbled. She had to get to him. A pain erupted in her stomach and she fell back to her seat, holding her belly, tears streaming down her grief-stricken face.

Through teary eyes and groans of pain, she watched paramedics racing onto the scene. Flames seemed to grow higher. Pain not only settled in her stomach now. An ache in her chest began to develop. It hurt almost worse than her stomach. She closed her eyes in agony, feeling hands grab her.

She heard a horribly loud sound and her eyes flew open. First she was confronted with the image of a stranger. His hands were on her shoulders and he was looking into her face. He was trying to say something but with the crowd being so loud and her ears ringing, she heard nothing. As she looked past him she noticed chunks flying. What in the world? A sob caught in her throat as her brain identified the questionable substance.

Pieces of steel flew all over the track. She found herself praying and crying out to whomever might listen to have let that be someone else's car. Not Derek. Her heart shattered. Her Derek. She felt her arm being pulled.

Focusing on the man before her, she saw him lift her into his arms. She couldn't feel his hands on her. Everything was numb now. Dead. As he rushed her down the steps, she looked to the track, moaning as she surveyed the scene before her. People were in a panic. Firemen foaming the flaming cars down. At the very least there was a ten car pile-up. She wanted to close her eyes, wishing she could block out the scene before her but found herself morbidly drawn to it.

A siren wailed as another ambulance raced onto the field. The crowd was so loud. Her world became quiet, dark. She gave into the numbness. She felt her body embrace the pain-less world of darkness.

She opened her eyes as a voice brought her back from her flashback. "Rei?" asked the voice.

Another tear slid down her cheek.

A/N: Alright. I hope it wasn't too bad. I'm trying to aim for something new and unique. I'll be editing and revising every last one of my stories. Hopefully this time, I'll do more than a prologue. Thanks for reading and r/r please. I welcome any form of criticism!