Hi people. This is the revised version of Love's True Thought, now renamed Thought of Love. I think it's better and it will probably be longer and make more sense.

Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans, plain and simple.

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

One Year, Six Months by YellowCard

On with the show...

Thought of Love

Prologue

Starfire, Beast Boy, and Cyborg danced around the living room in celebration. They had done it. They had finally defeated Slade. It had taken days of consistent research and hours of brutal fighting, but they had managed to take their worst villain down. For good. Now the whole tower was filled with a rocking beat, and the three Titans danced about carefree. There was nothing that could bring them down. Until Robin walked into the room.

His expression was morbid and cold. He carried a rather large box under one arm and a small leather bound book was gripped tightly in his fingers. He turned off the music, but the others kept going, not caring that there might have been something larger outside of their bubbles of happiness. With a large boom Robin dropped the box, getting their attention. "We have to talk," his voice was stern, misery masked within his words.

With only a small grumble under their breaths, the three followed Robin's orders. "Where's Raven?" Cyborg commented, noticing for the first time her absence.

"This is about her?" Robin held up a small piece of folded paper and tossed it to him.

"What's this?" Cyborg asked.

Robin closed his eyes wishing this night wasn't happening, "A note, from Raven. Read it. Out loud," he added

"Whatever," the mechanical wonder said, as he unfolded the paper. The print was unmistakably Raven's. Some of the word's were smudged from small drops that covered the page. "Dear Titans. I'm not sure how to begin something like this because in all honesty I never even considered writing one. I guess I should start with, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to tell you this in person. I'm sorry I had to ruin your celebration and I'm sorry I'm not able to tell you all the reasons for my actions. I'm sorry I have to leave," Cyborg paused, looking to Robin for some kind of explanation, "Robin where's Raven?" Cyborg asked again.

"She left an hour after we returned from the mission. Keep reading," Robin demanded. His eyes were closed and a tear slid from under his mask.

"I hope you guys understand that I had to do this in order to continue with life. I have to sort out the things in my heart, and, now that Slade is dead, I know you guys can make it without me," Cyborg continued in a choked voice

"How does she expect us to make it without her?" Beast Boy's exasperated voice interrupted. He gripped his head trying to make the pain go away. He choked back the tears that threatened to spill as everyone looked at him, "She was an important part of this team. How does she expect us to make it without her around? We needed her not only to fight, but to live. How does she-"

"Cyborg, keep reading!" Robin yelled. Everyone knew the reasons for the desperate plea in his voice.

"I will miss you guys always. Beast Boy, I've always believed you were funny even if I never laughed. I'm glad you never let me stop you from telling your jokes. In the box are keys to a moped. It's customized to suit you and it has a computer chip with AI capabilities. I built it with Cyborg, it was supposed to be for your birthday, but I think now is as good a time as any. I hope you don't mind, but I programed it to have my voice when it speaks to you. Just to keep you in check even though I'm not actually there. I think you'll get a kick out of it."

"Cyborg, you have always been like my older brother. You were always protecting me even when I didn't need it. I really did love working in the garage with you. You always said a looked miserable in there, but I was happy. Your gift is in the case," Cyborg pulled a small CD case. In it was a golden DVD titled Titan Home Movies, "It's a DVD containing a lot of Titan moments. I told you I used that video camera you got me. I hope you like it. I hope it makes you laugh when times get hard."

"Starfire. You were a great friend. I know I always said it got on my nerves, but I've always like explaining things to you, and I found ours talks on our different cultures enlightening. I even liked going to the mall with you. There's a scrapbook in the box, filled with memories of so many wonderful memories. I remember when you made me take those stupid photography classes. Thanks."

Robin no longer heard Cyborg powerful, booming voice reading. Instead he heard Raven's. Not her normal monotone, but the voice she only used alone with him, one filled with emotion. "Now for the last Titan. Robin, our great fearless leader. You are, by far, the hardest one to say good bye to. You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You were always there for me, from the beginning of the Titans until this morning when you dragged me out of bed to make me face the day. Thank you for not giving up on me, for finding the real me, and breaking down my walls. I owe you so much. It's strange, this feeling. Even after all this time, and after the many moments and the constant kisses, this feeling of complete love still remains fresh inside my heart. I never expected to feel this way about anyone, least of all you, so understand that I was scared, insecure for the first time in my life when we began this relationship, but even still these last few months with you have been more than I ever imagined. Maybe that's why this hurts so much.

"I must have told you a thousand and one times in these several weeks we've been together, but even still it feels inadequate to show the way I love you. I know you were always unsure about the way I felt about you, even if I told you that I could never love anyone more. The only thing I can hope will convince you that I have thought of only you for these last years, is my diary. Please read it, and know how much this hurts, saying good bye. Know that you were the only one. Know that I love you, and that I will be back within a year.

"I want to thank you all for everything you've ever done for me, both small and amazing. Thank you for every word, every moment, every memory. I wish I could let you in on all my secrets, but I can't. I wish I could describe how much this hurts, leaving you all now. I promise I'll return as soon as possible. I really meant it when I said that you were the only family I ever had.
-Raven.

The room was quiet for what seemed like an eternity. The silence seemed to make Robin's fury grow in intensity, and he said the line usually left for the former Titan, "I need to be alone."

Starfire quickly followed after him, despite his words. She had watched them, Raven and Robin as they slowly progressed from a budding new friendship into this unmatchable relationship of love, and she knew what must be ringing in Robin's mind. As they approached his room she made her presents known, "Robin, will you be okay?"

"No, Starfire," Robin said coldly, "I'm not okay. I thought that she trusted me with her feelings. I thought I knew her well enough for her to at least tell me her insecurities. I thought she understood exactly what I meant when I told her that I was there, that I cared, that I loved her."

"Robin," she was cut off my the whooshing of Robin's door.

"I just wish I had gotten through to her more," he whispered to himself, seeming to forget Starfire presence. The door to his room opened and Robin stepped inside, ignoring Starfire's remaining word. The leather book was still is his hand, and he looked down upon it with an intense hatred. "AHHHHH!" Robin yelled as he threw the book across the room. It slammed against the wall and fell open, but he didn't care. It seemed so impossible for him to care without her there. Why care if she didn't care? Why care if she wasn't there to know that he cared? Why care if he could no longer hold her in his arms at night?

The tears overwhelming his eyes forced him to take his mask, revealing two crystal blue eyes. He hadn't felt more alone since his parent's death. He could hear his heart's broken thuds each time he breathed. He wished, more than ever, that he could hug Raven just one last time, that he could have just one more moment with her, feel her lips pressed to his once more. Robin sat up and furiously wiped his tears from his eyes. Tears were weakness, and he wasn't weak.

It stuck out like a sore thumb, calling to him to look at just once more. Slowly, as if it would run away, he crossed the room. It's leathered cover was stained white, a simple everyday white...like the white of her cloak. Raven's insignia was embedded in the top right corner, the profile of a raven. Robin's finger traced around the emblem before he peaked inside the front cover. The pages were filled with Raven's neat curved handwriting. Suddenly, as if dawning on him for the first time, he realized that this was Raven's pure thought's straight from the source. And in that instant of realization, Robin became immersed in Raven's diary.

Author's notes: I hope you liked my new and improved prologue. Please review. It's what I live for.

Next Chapter: Entry #1

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