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Thoughts of Love

The Real Beginning

January 16, 2003

I can't believe it. She asked him out. They're going on a date, like a real date. I guess I never really thought is would happen, like they would never actually rise above themselves to ask the other. Damn my foolishness. I've been so stupid. I should've just told him, instead of just blindly going about this like a lost puppy. I should have gotten over my damn pride. Now I'm doomed to spend the rest of my miserable life watching their blissful relationship from the sidelines. I hate this. I hate this feeling of not being able to stop them. Of not being able to control this emotion. I thought my stupid crush on Robin would have just evaporated by now, but all it's done is grown. Over the last two months I've had to constantly avert my thoughts from him, and all his stupid, endearing quarks; like the way his hair drops in front of his eyes when he doesn't use gel, or how his smile makes my heart melt. Oh God, I'm doing it again. I just can't help it. But the thing is, I have to help it because he and Star are dating, and he's happy. That's good. Right? I guess I just wish I had asked him first.

That very night played through Robin's head as he read the first entry. He and Starfire had gone to the movies and dinner, for their first official date as an actual couple. They had a great time, and before they returned to the tower they shared their first kiss. But as Robin thought about now, he hadn't felt then what he felt each time he merely glimpsed at Raven.

January 16, 2003 Post Date

When Star and Robin walked hand in hand into the living room, my heart broke. No, it ripped into shreds. It's strange. I spent all afternoon in a state of meditation, but with one look from Robin and his happiness in that moment I felt my power start to slip again, along with the few tears that had remained unshed. Even though it took all my will not to yell at her, I managed to last through Starfire's hour explanation about how wonderful Robin was. Like I don't already know that. Robin was what every girl in the entire world looked for in a guy. Honest, brave, caring, funny, handsome, charming, perfect. He was a knight in shining armor. The only problem is, I'm the ugly witch with the wart the size of Cleveland on her nose, and Starfire was his damsel in distress. Now, as I sit in the dark loneliness of my room, all I feel is sadness and depression gripping at my broken heart as I contemplate the bland loveless future I'm destined to have.

Robin could feel the sorrow that Raven put into each and every word as he read through that entry again. There was a sharp pain in his heart. He had been so blind back in those days. To both her heart and his own.

FLASHBACK

Robin walked into the tower feeling like he was on top of the world. He held Starfire's warm hand in his, and a smirk of happiness escorted her smile of joy. A moment ago, before the doors of the tower were opened, before they stepped back into the warmth and protection of their home, the two Titans had shared something everyone had been anticipating for the last three month. He and Starfire had shared their first kiss, and they were now a couple.

The Titan's leader was floating on a proverbial cloud, and wasn't aware he was walking until Cyborg's voice interrupted his bliss. "Well, if it isn't the love birds. Enjoy your nice little kiss?"

Robin felt the heat rise in his face, from both embarrassment and anger. "You were watching?"

"Of course we were watching, dude," Beast Boy chimed in, "did you except to get privacy in this tower?"

Ignoring Beast Boy's question, Robin look past him to Raven who sat on the couch, immersed in her latest novel. "And what about you Raven? Did you spy on us too?" Robin asked, even knowing that wasn't, in any way, the kind of person Raven was.

Raven looked up from the page of her book, a frown set in her face. Her eyes locked with his, despite the mask. Something flashed through across her face for a moment, something that Robin assumed to be annoyance. "What you and your girlfriend do is none of my concern." Raven had tried just a bit too hard to conceal the emotion in her voice, and her words seemed to come out a little more cold than she had intended.

Robin opened his mouth to question her attitude, but Starfire rushed to the couch, not noticing or comprehending Raven's words. "Oh, but Raven you must know about my date. I have never been on something more fantastic. Tell me Raven, have you ever had the joy of having a boy insert his tongue into your mouth?"

Robin's eyes widened in horror as the other two male Titans began their fresh wave of laughter as they fell to the ground. Raven seemed surprisingly calm about the alien's change of topic, but Robin could have sworn he saw the slightest bit of pink tinting her pale cheeks. "No," Raven answered, her monotone still holding strong.

"Than I must describe it to you. Robin is very talented in this," Starfire said, excitedly clasping her hands around one of Raven's.

"I'm sure he is," Raven said, giving Robin a sad sort of look before Starfire dragged her through the door.

"Raven," Robin mumbled under his breath, before turning back to the Titans on the floor. "Get up," Robin demanded as he nudged the two chuckling teens.

Author's notes- That's a new part, and the only reason it is because the chapter would have way too short. It's still short, but not as bad. In an attempt to make this fanfiction last longer, I'm extended the content of Star's and Rob's relationship, even if it pains me.

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