This entire chapter is completely new. I hope you like it. As you can see most of my chapters are short.

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Thoughts of Love
Stressing the Obvious

January 30th, 2003

Well, they are officially a blissful couple. They are always together, constantly kissing and finishing each others sentences, even if Starfire is wrong half the time. They seem so in love, and the demented part about it is that I am actually happy for them, to a certain point at least. Robin deserves happiness, and Starfire has been pining over the Boy Wonder since the beginning. My crush on Robin and his new relationship with the Tameran princess do often clash. But I figured out that if I pretend that Robin is as worthy as Beast Boy, then it doesn't hurt as much. The only thing is that in my charade, I can sometimes seem like I'm ignoring Robin to the point of freezing him out, and despite the distraction of a girlfriend he still notices my extra coldness. He got mad at me today, when I ignored his question. It's just too much to bare, when I'm pulled out of my fictional world, only to realize the Robin is exactly who he's always been, and that once again I have affection for the man he is. My heart breaks all over again each time he talks to me, each time he acts as more than the boyfriend of Starfire.

FLASHBACK

The coldest breeze of the night swept through Raven's hair, and goose bumps formed on her uncovered arms and legs. A shiver ran through her body, and tears gathered in her eyes. She fiercely wiped them as the door behind her opened. She could feel Robin presence even before he began to speak. "I don't want any company, if you don't mind."

"I do mind," Robin said aggressively as he stepped next to her. "What's up with you Raven? Why have you been so standoffish towards me lately?"

"I don't know you're talking about," Raven lied, turning out of Robin's gaze.

"Don't give that bullshit. You know exactly what I'm talking about. You haven't said so much as two word to me in he last two weeks." Robin said through gritted teeth.

"I don't know why you find this surprising, Boy Wonder. I don't say much at all. Why should I talk to you now, when I hardly did before?" Raven asked, turning back towards him with a glare.

"I know something's wrong, Raven. Every time you see me walk into a room, you walk out. When I say something to you, you look at me as if I'm no more to you than Beast Boy."

"Why should you be more to me than Beast Boy. Just another annoyance taking up my time," Raven spat coldly. Immediately she regretted what she said, but she with all her pride she would never take it back. She just studied his expression, as it changed from surprise to hurt and finally to retained anger.

"If that's what you feel, Raven, then I won't even try. I wouldn't want to bother you," Robin said before turning on his heel to retreat into the tower, leaving Raven to shiver in the wind alone.

END FLASHBACK

February 3rd, 2003

I am the worst person in the world. Period. I'm a complete and total bitch. Robin just tried to reach out to me, to become closer to me, and I basically told him to go fuck himself. He has spoken to me outside of mission instructions and even then his voice is distant and uncaring. I deserve it. I never imagined what my life would be like when Robin finally claimed his hatred for me, and although he never actually said the words, his silence is enough for to get the message. It hurts even more than watching him make out with Starfire on movie nights. I don't know if he'll ever talk to me again, if he'll ever see me as more than a teammate again.

'The walls had been just a little bit more cold those days,' Robin thought to himself as he contemplated Raven's written words. He had been crushed by Raven's words that day up on the roof. He didn't know exactly why then, but those words had burned deeply into his heart. It took him nearly a year to figure out that he had fallen in love with the Gothic beauty. In reality it had been his feeling that had ended his relationship with Starfire, he had just blamed it on other things, having not actual identified his feelings at the time.

February 12th, 2003

I've decided that this burning jealousy is better than not have Robin in my life at all. That's right. I swallowed my own pride for what friendship Robin claimed we have. It was like with dry swallowing a pill the size of my big toe because I knew that in the end, I would be back where I was when Robin began dating Starfire. So nothing has gotten better. I'm just kind of stuck with my growing jealousy.

FLASHBACK

Raven sighed one more time as she stepped up to Robin's door. Resignedly, Raven rapped on the metal and waited for a response. "I just hope Robin is alone in there," she mumbled.

The door opened with a swish, and Robin stood there looking morbid and tired. "What do you want Raven, after all I wouldn't want to waste your time," Robin bit harshly, his face hardening even more when he realized Raven's presence.

"I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for treating you the way I did on the roof. I didn't mean it. I've just been stressed lately," Raven explained, hoping that Robin would except it as truth.

To her relief, Robin's face soften, and his mouth curled with worry instead of anger. "Are your emotions acting up?"

"Don't worry about it, Robin. It really doesn't matter. Just a small issue," Raven said turning away from him to head back to her room.

"You have a crush don't you," Robin said before she took a step in the other directions. Raven stopped waiting worriedly for him to continue, "It's Beast Boy right? You have a crush on him."

In spite of the small bubble of anger forming in her stomach, Raven smiled, "You couldn't be more wrong, Boy Blunder," Raven answered before walking away.

"You know, Raven," Robin called after her, "you can always talk to me." She raised a hand in the air to let him know she had heard, but she kept walking. A small feeling of accomplishment stirring in her.

Author's Note: I know it's short but I had to add it.

Later