Some inside stuff - some of the stuff that's said is kind of based on some of the talks I've had with my boyfriend before. So yeah. That's where I'm getting most of this.
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"So let me get this straight. You're here... why?"
After Jeri had gotten off of me, I stood in a small circle of Henry, Rika, and the two girls who I had fallen in love with at one point - Jeri, and Crystal.
"Well, Crystal just came over here out of the blue," Rika explained before her cousin could talk. "She called me and said, 'Hey cuz, can I get a ride from the airport?' and we picked her up."
"Mom and dad thought that I had liked the trip to Japan so much that I should go again, for leisure," Crystal explained. Her head was turned away from me, and she refused to look me in the eye.
Although I felt kind of hurt that Crystal wouldn't talk to me, after ages of fantasizing about her return, I couldn't help but feel a little bugged. I hadn't done anything to her, I had just gotten hugged by Jeri. What was I supposed to do about it?
"And you?" I asked, addressing Jeri. I turned towards her, and she smiled.
"Well, you should know, Takato-kun. I sent you that letter after all!" Jeri said, grinning at me.
'Actually, no I don't know what--' I stopped in midthought. Actually, that wasn't true. I remember seeing a postcard addressed to me, but I had always thought it was from Kai. I had been too busy with finals then to read a postcard anyway. And if I had, it must of skipped my mind with the extreme cram-age, and then the after school party, and then...
"Oh... right," I blushed a bit, embarrassed that I hadn't really remembered. I heard a small "hmph!" escape from Crystal's mouth. I looked at the ground and kept quiet.
"I told you I had changed," Jeri grinned, referring to the letter (I think). "But I bet you didn't believe me!"
"Yeah..." I blinked, "I didn't."
Henry looked at me suspiciously, but shrugged it off. "So, how long are you two staying over here?"
"Well," Jeri said, grinning, "a relative of mine kinda lives close by, so I'm staying at their house for most of the summer."
"Two months, about. Kinda wish I was leaving earlier now." Crystal replied, still not looking me in the eye. She crossed her arms, and another "hmph" escaped.
I looked at her, with mixed emotions. One half of me wanted to run over and hug her, tell her how much I missed her and how much I had been thinking about her. The other part of me wanted to yell, "WHAT THE HELL DID I DO!" I mean, why was she mad at ME when I had done nothing but get hugged?
I decided to do something entirely different. I grabbed Crystal's hand and muttered an "I-need-to-talk-to-you-in-private", and dragged her off.
I don't remember how far we walked until finally she ripped her hand away from me. I turned to her, looking into her eyes.
There was a strange silence that stood there between us, kind of like whenever we ended up bickering about something. I always felt guilty, because everytime it happened I felt like she had pulled our friendship away and ripped it up into shreds, even though after a bit of talking it would always return to the way it was before, where we were laughing as if we had known each other all our life, even though we had only known each other for a few months.
"So, you wanna tell me about your new girlfriend?" She asked me, narrowing her eyes.
"She isn't my girlfriend." I said in a low voice.
"Really? 'Oh, Takato-kun! I've missed you so much!' That SURE doesn't sound like you're goody-goody friends to me."
"You want it honestly?"
"Well, duh."
"She's my friend. That's all."
"And you want it honestly?"
"Sure."
"I can't really believe you on that." Crystal said, sitting down on the grass. I sat down next to her, trying to make her understand.
"Look, I'm serious. I mean... we might've..." I paused. How was I supposed to phrase the fact that Jeri and I had gone out, without sounding weird?
"Might've what?"
"Had a few feelings for each other, I guess, but that was WAY back!" I exclaimed at her. "We broke up after she moved. I didn't think I'd see her much so I didn't see much of a point."
There was an odd silence, and then I heard Crystal speak. "What about me?"
"What about you?" I said. "You're awesome. You taught me how to dance. You gave me advice when I needed it. You've been there when I need you. What about you?"
"I don't see you much, and yet, we're..." she drifted off.
"Together?"
Crystal looked at me. "Well, I guess you could say that, depending. I thought about you a lot, and even though you said that you loved me... I guess that most of me thought that you'd just forget about me when I left Japan."
"Well, if that's what you were expecting, I didn't." I replied. "I thought of you all the time. That's why I felt so... confused when Jeri came. I mean, I liked her before, but you're my current love life."
"Really?" Crystal said in a low whisper, looking at me with grateful eyes.
"Yeah," I grinned at Crystal, and received a glomp in response. She wrapped her arms around me and I wrapped my arms back around her, as we held each other a bit underneath the clouds.
All felt content for a bit as we sat there together. But was bound to return, so I decided to get it out of the way already.
"So is there anything else you wanted to ask me, before I end up feeling guilty that we're cuddling like this?"
"Well..." Crystal looked at me thoughtfully. "What are we going to do about her? I have this feeling she's gonna be around you a lot."
"I kind of think she still has feelings for me," I said, holding Crystal close. "It kinda makes me feel..."
"Uncomfortable?" Crys suggested, and I nodded as she answered my statement.
"I don't know what to do about it... I honestly don't have any feelings for her."
As Crystal and I continued to talk about it and embrace each other in the warm, summer air, I questioned my statement in my head. -Did- I have any feelings left for Jeri? I couldn't tell. She had left town abruptly, and I only had time to mutter my goodbyes. Funny, it kind of seemed like my relationship with Crystal. The two relationships weren't too different, now that I thought about it, except Crystal lived in America, and Jeri had moved to North Korea (AN: This is where I decided to put her, don't complain to me). The more I thought about it, the more curious I got about how I did feel about Jeri anymore...
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So how do you like it? A little bit longer than usual, if you hadn't noticed. But I had a lot on my hands while my account was banned from submitting oo; So yeah. Anyway, R&R, I guess.