The Way We Were

AN- I've been going through a bit of writer's block. Please forgive if this blows. Thanks guys.

Disclaimer- Don't own a thing (except season 1 and 2 on DVD and the soundtrack).

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Brooke woke up the next morning, feeling like shit. She had barely slept, the whole night her head was filled with nightmares of Lucas hating her. She went into the bathroom and saw what she looked like; it almost brought her to tears. Her usually silky reddish brown hair was frizzy and oily. Her skin was blotchy and irritated from all of the crying and her eyes were bloodshot and empty. She knew that it wasn't healthy for a guy to put her through this, but this wasn't just "some guy". It was Lucas, her Lucas, the first boy she ever wanted to kiss, the first boy she ever kissed, the first boy she ever loved, the boy she lost her virginity to, and the only boy that could break her heart. She knew that it was her own fault. She didn't have to tell him, but she had a conscious and she knew that carrying that secret around would kill her.

She heard her phone ringing in her room and ran to get it, silently praying that it was him. She answered and discovered it was Peyton. "Hey P. Sawyer." Brooke tried to muster up some cheeriness, but failed miserably.

"Hey, B. Davis. So, look, Jake told me what happened. Do you need me to come over or anything?"

Brooke laughed. She liked knowing that she had a best friend that would drop everything to be with her in her time of need. "Well, if you don't have anything else to do, I could probably handle some retail therapy. Plus, I still need a couple more Christmas presents."

"Sounds good. I'll meet you in an hour or so?" Peyton asked.

"Yeah, sounds good. Thanks Goldilocks. Love you."

Peyton laughed at the nickname that Brooke has picked out for her years ago. "Bye Brookie. Love you too."

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Lucas woke up feeling about the same as Brooke. He looked and saw Jake sitting beside him. His heart was not exactly warmed to see his best friend.

"What the hell do you want?" Lucas asked in a bitter tone.

"Lucas, she's a mess."

"You know what Jake? For once, I don't give a shit. She slept with another guy, while I was sitting here in this hellhole. I knew it was only a matter of time before this whole situation got to her." He said, not looking Jake in the eye.

"Lucas, listen…" Jake began.

"No, Jake, you listen. I don't care what she has to say. I don't care what you have to say. You knew about this. You knew how happy I was that we were together and you let me believe that she was completely in love with me. I hate you both for doing this to me."

"Luke, you don't mean that. I know that you are angry, but I also know that no matter what, you will always love her."

"No, I don't. I loved her, before she was this sluttish little bitch. Now, I don't care if I ever see her again, and the things that she said to me, Jesus Christ." He sighed. "I just hate her so much…" He whispered as a tear fell from his eye.

"Luke, look, we've been best friends since we were like 3, and I was one of the biggest skeptics about you and Brooke, but then I saw you two together. It was pretty damn perfect. I know that Brooke screwed up, trust me; she's killing herself over this. You have no idea how much she loves you, and I know that somewhere inside of you, you still love her too. Right now, emotionally and physically, you're a lesser version of you; can't you try to accept a lesser Brooke, since she is accepting a lesser Lucas?" Jake stared at Lucas, trying to see what was going on with Lucas. His face was going through a ton of emotions all at once.

"I just need to be alone right now. I guess, I'll talk to you later." He turned his face away from Jake.

"Alright, man. I'll see you later." Lucas nodded in response, but did not turn to look.

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Brooke got home from shopping with Peyton. She felt a little better, but she couldn't get Lucas off of her mind. While they were shopping, all of the things she saw reminded her of him. She had even bought him the platinum Rolex that he had been wanting for a long time. She decided to take a chance and call him. She reached for the phone and slowly dialed the number to his hospital room.

"Hello?" A sleepy Lucas answered the phone. Brooke smiled, as she imagined him sitting in his hospital bed with a drowsy look on his face. She sniffled and he said, "Hello? Who is this?"

"Hi, Lucas." Brooke replied in a small voice.

"Brooke." Lucas said in a harsh voice. "What do you want?"

"I needed to hear you voice." She began as tears fell down her face. "I need you, Lucas. Please let me come by so that we can talk."

Lucas paused and sighed for a moment. Finally he replied with an answer. "Brooke…" He began in a softer voice. Then, an image of Brooke and some random guy making love popped into his head. "No. You can't do this to me. I don't give a shit about you. I hate you Brooke. I hope you die, because I never want to see you again, and if you come near my hospital room, I will have you thrown out. Got it? Good. Goodbye Brooke, I hope to never see you again." With that, Lucas slammed the phone down and left a heartbroken Brooke shocked.

She dropped the phone and walked like a zombie into the bathroom. She felt like her life was no longer worth living. She looked in her medicine cabinet and took out all the pills that she could find and emptied them all out on her bathroom counter. She put half of them in her mouth and swallowed them dry, and then took the other half and swallowed them as well. She then found a pad and paper in her room and wrote, "I'm sorry. I loved you all." Then she lay down in her bed for what she thought would be the last time. 'Looks like Lucas is gonna get his wish.' She thought to herself before she fell asleep.

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Peyton walked into Brooke's room and opened the blinds, hoping the sunlight would help her wake up. "BROOKIE! GET UP!" she said as she jumped onto Brooke's bed. Brooke didn't move. Peyton tried to shake her away. "BROOKE" Peyton yelled once again. She looked down and found a piece of paper sitting by Brooke. "I'm sorry. I love you all." She read out loud. "Oh my God." Peyton screamed as she realized what had happened. "JAKE! JAKE! CALL 911!" She yelled as she tried to see if Brooke was still alive.

Jake ran into Brooke's room to find Peyton freaking out. "Peyton, what's wrong?" He asked.

"It's Brooke, just call 911 now." She screamed.

"What do I tell them?" He asked, clueless to what was going on.

"That Brooke tried to kill herself." Peyton cried.

Jake couldn't believe his ears, but he ran to go call 911, and then returned to Brooke's room. He ran into her bathroom and found the pill bottles on her bathroom counter. Tears of confusion and hurt ran down his face. "Oh my God." He screamed and ran back into Brooke's room.

Peyton was checking Brooke out. She felt a faint pulse and a very slow heartbeat. "She still breathing a little Jake, but she's unconscious." He nodded, and ran downstairs as he heard the paramedics ring the doorbell. They ran upstairs and carried Brooke out of the house and put her in the back of the ambulance. They allowed Jake and Peyton to accompany her to the hospital. Jake called his parents and tried to explain to them what happened and told them to meet him at the hospital.

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Jake and Peyton ran into the hospital after the paramedics took Brooke into the Emergency Room. The receptionist told them to wait in the waiting room and that the doctor would be with them as soon as they knew what was going on.

Jake heard his name being called from behind them, "Jake!" He turned around and saw Karen. He waved and she came over. "What are you two doing over here? You know that you can go straight upstairs if you want to see Lucas."

Peyton sniffled, trying to hold back tears and Jake squeezed her hand. "Uhh… Actually we're here for Brooke." He said as he tried to hold back the tears that had gathered in his eyes.

"Oh," Karen started, very confused about whatever was going on, "Well, where is she? I haven't seen her in a while."

"Actually," Jake began, as tears started to flow down his face, "She's in the ER. Karen, Brooke, she, she… tried to kill herself." He whispered the last part.

Karen's face contorted in pain because of the words that had just come out of Jake's mouth. "Oh my God." She cried as she sat down next to Peyton. "How, Why, When?" Karen asked all at once.

"She overdosed on all kinds of pills. I found the bottles on her counter this morning. I don't really know why, but I suspect that it has something to do with Lucas, and we just found her about half an hour ago."

Karen tried to regain her composure and be the adult. "Did you call you parents?"

Jake nodded, "They're on their way."

The three of them sat there all looking lifeless. After about half an hour a young doctor walked over to them. "Are you three here for Brooke Davis?" They all nodded. "Are you immediate family?"

Jake nodded, "I'm her brother." The doctor nodded and signaled for Jake to follow him.

"I'm sorry, but…."

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Sorry to leave yall hanging, but I had to. I hope that you guys liked this chapter. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW! THANKS SO MUCH!

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