Oh the bliss of everlasting stillness. The total darkness, the warmth and the silence that death brought. But… no… it wasn't silent. There was a very faint noise, it was almost impossible to hear…. A quiet "bleeping" every two seconds.

He wanted to find the source of this noise, if he did, perhaps he could stop it. Silence it, and it would allow him to float in this calmness for eternity. Silence was all he wanted. A silence so deep even his mind would be quiet. But it would never be quiet as long as that bleeping continued. His mind was telling him to shut it off, and until it was shut off, he would never rest. He knew nothing other than this simple motive… not his past, not his name.. .nothing. He drifted closer, and steadily it grew louder, he felt like he was being pulled from thick mud. It was a slow process, he felt heavy and tired, but all the time the noise grew louder. He must be almost there.

But as he got closer he heard a distant voice.

"Oh Kai… please don't die…"

Kai… was that his name? That voice was beautiful, even though it sounded so sad…. He was sorry, for he knew it would become sadder still. He wanted to die, all he was doing was trying to stop the "bleeping" and then he would drift back down into the thick oozing stillness of death.

He suddenly seemed to reach a barrier and could get no closer to the sound….. he felt a deep disappointment at this, he did not want to remain in this bliss only to be driven mad by that noise! He began to sink back down into oblivion, perhaps if he got so far away from the noise that he could no longer hear it, then his rest would be untroubled. But no… something warm closed over his hand, it was smooth and it felt good. Another drifting soul perhaps? He drew towards it, and gradually the darkness around him seemed to fade…. And that warmth became a hand….

Hael slowly stroked Kai's hand in hers, her eyes were tear filled, staring at a crease in the white sheet that covered him. His face was covered in an oxygen mask, forcing him to breath… without it he would die in mere moments. His whole upper body was swathed in bandages, the bullet had struck him in his chest, and miraculously had not killed him straight away. His heart had stopped beating a total of four times, over an agonising twelve hours of waiting in the hospital, eventually a surgeon had declared his condition still critical.. but somewhat stabilised.

Since then he had drifted in and out of a deadly coma. There had been points when she had thought he would really die. His heart beating irregularly, his skin cold and pale. He could not breath without aid, a punctured lung had almost ended his life, and would have had they not conveniently been situated in the most highly advanced medical centre on the earth.

Kai's own personnel had opened him up, and removed the bullet, trying to patch up his right lung with internal stitches. But he would never be able to over exert himself again…. Hael had been told that if he lived… if…. Then he would get out of breath exceedingly quickly and that he would be on medication for the rest of his life. But she didn't care, all she wanted was for him to wake up, and be alright. 3 weeks had passed and she had spent everyday next to him, stroking his hand, and talking quietly to him. She didn't know if any of it got through, but she felt that somehow …. Somehow if she could help him by doing it…. Then she would!

She sighed. She could not cope with a second death. Kai was all she was clinging to now. There had been nothing the surgeons could do for her mother. She had died within seconds, drowning in the blood which had flooded her chest. She had cried almost continuously from that moment, and was exhausted. With great difficulty she raised her gaze to Kai's handsome face. Love bloomed strongly in her heart…. That bullet had been meant for her… if he died, she would never forgive herself. A sob choked her, and she fell forward onto the bed, her body shaking.

"Don't leave me Kai… not now." She wept.

Her hand clutched his, holding it for dear life, as if this small amount of contact could prevent his death. She almost didn't notice it when his hand twitched in hers, and tightened marginally.

She gasped, sitting bolt up right, and staring wildly at his face, her breath held in her chest, which was fluttering nervously. His eyes flickered open. They swiftly darted around the room, and landed on her. His eyes held fear, confusion and pain. He lay dead still in the bed, his wide eyes on her, his breathing steady.

She leaned forward, smiling gently at him.

"Kai… can you hear me?" She asked softly.

He moved suddenly. His hands flying up to his face, trying to pry the mask from his face.

"Kai! No! You'll die!" she screamed jumping up and trying to wrestle his arms down, pressing desperately on the help button. He fought against her, but his wasted muscles were unable to respond well, he moaned in desperation, his eyes roving in his head.

"Kai!" She yelled, managing to force his hands back on to the bed. At that moment three doctors burst in, and she was quickly pushed aside. A needle was brandished, and she looked away just before they sank it into his neck.

Soon his arms lay still at his side again and he lay, his eyes half open, staring calmly at the ceiling. The only female doctor turned and placed an arm around Hael's shoulders.

"You should go. We need to do some tests, now that he is awake, we will be able to see what sort of lasting damage we are looking at. He may have some slight concussion, but we wont know till we have worked on him." She said guiding her gently from the room. "You have plenty of sleep that you need to catch up on."

Hael cast an uncertain glance over the woman's shoulder, Kai lay there, calm, alive, surrounded by the best trained medical people in the world…. Perhaps she should get some sleep.

She nodded, turning and headed back to her quarters. Ten minutes later she fell gratefully onto her bed, just having time to offer up a quick prayer, asking that Kai should live, before sleep claimed her.

Hael was woken by a timid knocking on her door. She moaned, and sat up, rubbing slumber from her eyes.

"Ugh… come in!" she yelled.

She looked up as Dane stuck his head round the door. Her heart seemed to stop… his expression was grave and sad. Kai had died! She knew it, instantly her eyes started to brim with tears…

"Silver… the doctors want to talk to you…."

She nodded dumbly. Dane's head retreated and she swiftly got dressed into simple jeans and a T-shirt. She raced to join her brother in Kai's office, where his staff awaited them.

As she sat at the desk, she felt like her heart was in her mouth. Her brother had grabbed her hand and squeezed it reassuringly.

"Hael…. Kai. Well, he…" The female doctor started.

"He… he's dead?" Hael breathed, barely above a whisper.

"No, he's alive and well. But… you see. He has suffered major concussion, he has massive memory loss. He can still read, write, tell you what the capital of Russia is… but… he had no idea who he is. He does not know anything about what has happened in his life, he doesn't know his name, your name, how he grew up…." Her voice tailed off at the look on Hael's face.

As she heard this, Hael had felt a terrible ache in her heart. He had no memory of her. Her eyes closed and tears fell. She slowly managed to form a few words around her grief.

"And… and how long will it take him to ….. to remember?" She asked shakily.

The woman winced.

"We think… after having reviewed the data … it is highly unlikely he will ever recover what he has lost…All we can do is send him to someone who can teach him about his life and who he is. There is an asylum on the other side of Moscow which will have him…."

"He's not a mad man!" Shouted Hael, standing up. "He is not going to be sent to a mental hospital, just because Tala tried to kill him!" Fury blazed within her.

"Well, what else would you suggest Miss. Kinyonova?" One of the other doctors said, folding their arms.

For a moment Hael was silent, and the doctor smiled smugly, opening his mouth to say more, but the Russian girl cut him off.

"I'll take him." She said.

"I -what?" Said the doctor, shocked.

"I'll take him. I was closer to him than most, I can teach him about who he is." She said, her eyes lighting up in determination.

"Ridiculous!" The third and last doctor said. "You have no experience in caring for a brain damaged patient, you wouldn't know where to begin!"

"Then you can help me. I'll stay here with him, familiar surroundings might help to jog his memory, and if you think I'm doing a shoddy job then you wise doctors can give me a hand." She said.

"I-well… its.. its not that simple…" The woman stuttered.

"Of course it is, what could be simpler?" Dane said from, his seat. His eyes bored into the three doctors.

"Well fine!" The doctor said, defeated.

Hael smiled.

"Now then… I'm off to see my new patient." With that she turned and walked form the office.

Her heart was heavy, but set in solid determination. Kai needed her now more than ever. She promised herself that she would teach him everything about his past, about them. She would research his family tree and tell him about them. She would walk him around the grounds of the Abbey. She loved him, and a fierce fire lit within her, and she would make damned sure he would remember that he loved her too.

WR: yup that was the last chapter of seeing you… you may remember that a while ago I considered writing a true colours trilogy, well I am. Look out for the final instalment: True Colours: Loving You. And thanks to all you peeps who reviewed, im just glad u have enjoyed my work :)