A couple of days later…I had finally came to a decision about going back on the tour…I knew better then to let myself fall for it…but against my own better judgment…I called Vince McMahon and told him he had himself one tour doctor…Good lord…what the hell was I thinking? Don't ask me; because I'm always going to blame the insanity in my family forced me to make that decision.
Jamie was excited about me going back on the road…and so was Glenn…Mark kept his opinion to himself about me coming back on the road…but we started off being friends again…which was so worth it…I did love being friends with him, it's just that half the times my feelings got stronger about him, then they should have…and I let myself get swept away…
I think I'll always have those feelings for him…I'll always love him…though he may never know how much…the fact that he knows I love him, is enough for me…after being on the road with the tour for a couple of months…I had started seeing Jeff Hardy…since we were both the same age…it was pretty nice to be dating someone…since I hadn't dated anyone in a few years. I hadn't noticed but Jamie and Glenn regaled me with stories of how Mark was becoming a bear to be around…Glenn said, it probably had a lot to do with me being with Jeff…
Mark would see the way we interacted together and Glenn would tease him and said, "See…that's how normal people act in a real relationship…" Of course Mark with his stubborn attitude would tell Glenn he was going to whip his ass if he made another smart comment like that. Glenn couldn't help but laugh, even though he knew Mark was actually probably pretty serious about it.
I laughed and said, "Well…Glenn what am I supposed to do huh? Just become a nun until Mark decides something he knew the answer to a long time ago…he can tell me he loves me…loving someone and being in love with someone are two different things. Mark needs to figure all that out…and then come at me with something that he's never approached me with."
Glenn knew I was right…Glenn also knew I loved Mark and that I was still in love with him…He knew Mark loved me…but as far as being in love with me…he couldn't tell…and Mark never gave any indication to it either…but Glenn could always tell with Mark…no matter how he tried to hide it…he knew when he'd fallen in love with Sara…and he knew when he'd fallen in love with me…but also knew not to push the issue…Mark would make his move when he was good and ready…
A couple of months later…Me and Jeff called it quits, just cause we knew we were attracted to each other….and laughed about it…we both agreed it was like dating a member of the family…but we did continue to be friends…being friends was actually our best trait…especially when he started dating Trish Stratus…they were too perfect for each other…even though they had different personalities on TV…when they were off camera, they were one in the same…They were extremely happy together…
It seemed as though love was in the air for practically everyone…Jamie and Glenn were going pretty strong as Jamie got bigger and bigger…Glenn had finally put his foot down on making her stay home until the baby was born…he knew traveling was going to be hard on her…so she stayed home and we talked online a lot…
Then there was Trish and Jeff, Amy and Matt, Paul (Triple H) and Stephanie McMahon…yup dating the bosses daughter…Adam Copeland (Edge) had recently married the ex-wrestlers Gan Grel's sister Alannah, Jason Reso (Christian) had Denise she was the WWE's website designer, they had been married for a couple of years…Then there was me and Mark…and he'd been being a bear…since I had dated Jeff…and as of late had been going grizzly bear on every one.