Lunerluna – I was going to put how much weight Rachel had lost in this chapter but it didn't seem like the right chapter, so ive added it to the next chapter. Hope this helps!
Heres the next chapter. I might not have chapter 11 up for about a week. Im going away this weekend and ive had lots of schoolwork lately! So please don't kill me! lol.
Chapter 10 – A new feeling…DepressionRachel sat in silence; everyone was still looking at her. "Well?" Sirius pleaded after a while.
"Well, I can't say James because he's my brother, or Bret because Ashley would kill me, Remus because I've already been out with him, and I can't say Sirius because well, I dunno, so I guess Peter!" Rachel answered. She could bet her flute, that wasn't the answer James was looking for.
Riley, Lily and Ashley we're beaming at Rachel's brilliance. James and the marauders looked confused. "Oh haha." James laughed sarcastically.
"Right, lets keep this rolling!" Rachel said cheerfully, eager to get away from her truth. "Um, truth or dare Lils?"
"Truth."
"Oh have you ever even thought for just one second –" Rachel was cut off.
"NO!" Lily yelled. "I have not even though for just one second about liking Potter!" Lily said finishing Rachel's question.
Rachel raised her eyebrows. "If your sure!"
"Never been more sure in my life!"
"Our outta luck Prongs!" Remus laughed.
"Hmmm." Was all James said.
"Lupin truth or dare?"
"Dare offcourse!"
"I dare you to change into the clothes of any female here, and they have to change into yours for the rest of the game." Lily cackled with an evil grin.
"You gotta be kidding!" Remus yelled.
"No, I'm deadly serious."
Oh no. Rachel thought panicking please don't pick me. How would it look if Remus put on my clothes and it hung off him like a circus tent? And I wore his and it looked too small! Oh no!
"So who you swapping with?" Bret asked putting his arm around Ashley as if to say 'you pick my girl and your dead.' Remus noticed this and decided to stay away from Ashley.
"Uhh." Remus looked around. He didn't fancy wearing Suzy's skirt and halter-top, not even thinking what was underneath. He didn't want to look like an oversized potato in Riley's dress so he finally decided on Lily. "Well Lils, it's pay back time."
Lily who almost sensed this coming sighed heavily and headed up the staircase behind Remus.
"Wait just one minute!" James boomed. 'Moony you can't take my girl!"
"Sorry –"
"Im not your girl!" Lily screamed over Remus. "Come on Lupin, make this quick!"
Remus closed the door behind him to block the continuos whistles of Sirius and yells from James of "don't you do anything moony!"
Lily moved into the bathroom took off her clothes and biffed them out the door landing by Remus's feet Remus did the same.
Five minutes later Lily emerged from behind the bathroom door wearing Remus's jeans and old button up top. Remus only looked odder in filthy track pants and a faded girly yellow top.
"Great." Lily mumbled
Remus and Lily emerged from behind the door. Everyone bar them thought it was hilarious. Sirius had tears in his eyes, but maybe that was because James had hit him whenever he made a comment about Remus and Lily.
They resumed the game.
The game was still running smoothly after a few hours.
Bret and Ashley had been dared by James to go into a nearby closet and do whatever for 10 minutes. Suzy was sitting half naked and was making no attempt to cover anything up. Riley had admitted that the best guy she had been out with was a boy called Thomas in 4th year, Sirius swore to congratulate Thomas next time he saw him. Rachel who was trying to avoid any sticky truth questions had stuck to dares and so far had to do a fake pose with Sirius, which she thoroughly enjoyed, and also was made to write a fake love letter to Mcgonagall and send it through her door. Sirius had dared Peter to parade around naked outside in the cold. Peter came back with purple toes.
"Truth or dare Rach?" Ashley asked with a yawn.
"Dare I suppose."
Ashley's face lit up with excitement she was just about to speak when she stopped, considering if the dare was appropriate. She smiled. "Rach I dare you tickle Sirius until he cries."
Rachel's eyebrows shot up quickly. James laughed. Riley snorted.
"With pleasure!" Rachel said happily not thinking of it as a dare at all. Sirius gave Rachel the puppy dog look as if to say please don't do it. Rachel just smirked and walked closer.
"Thanks a lot Ashley! You know how ticklish I am!" Sirius said angrily.
Ashley laughed. "This could be fun!"
"Too right!" Riley and Lily smirked at each other.
Rachel got closer. Sirius curled up like a ball. "Here let me help you!" James said grabbing Sirius by the arms so Rachel had free access to Sirius.
"Thanks Prongs!" Sirius whined closing his eyes as Rachel bent down grinning from ear to ear. She moved her arm out.
"Ahhhhhh!" Sirius yelled.
"What? I didn't even touch you!" Rachel said laughing.
Sirius blushed. Rachel then attacked and caught him off guard. James was still holding his arms up so she began to tickle him.
"Ahhhhhh haaaaaaa!" he yelled as loud as he could, causing nearly everyone in the room to cover their ears and yell, "shut up!"
Rachel merrily laughed more and tickled him harder. She loved teasing Sirius.
'Ahhhhhh haaaaa haaaaa! Stop! Please! Mercy!" Sirius tried to say but all that came out was laughter.
"What was that Sirius?" Rachel teased and stopped tickling him for a second. Sirius stopped screaming and just smiled.
"Pay back time!" he yelled taking control as he grabbed Rachel strapping her to the ground, which caused her to scream, and began to tickle her back.
If anyone thought Sirius's screams were bad Rachel's were 10 times worse. She screamed and laughed with pleads of "stop!" Sirius ignored them all, and continued to tickle her harder.
He had been going for 2 whole minutes, in which time Rachel had tears in her eyes. Everyone in the room had blocked their ears from her screams.
"OK!" Ashley yelled above Rachel's screaming. "Black you can stop now! I think she's had enough!" Ashley said firmly.
Sirius stopped. Rachel barely had any energy to stand up. She hit Sirius playfully on the arm and smiled. "You laugh like a girl Black!"
"Your laugh is more like a screech!" He shot back.
"Oh haha!" Rachel laughed without a trace of a screech.
Everyone released their hands from their ears, certain that neither Rachel nor Sirius was going to start laughing or screaming again.
"God scream a little louder and China would have heard you two!" James said pointing at Rachel and Sirius who just laughed.
"Well Black acted like a baby!" Riley screamed pointing at Sirius who frowned. "You should have seen yourself, it was as if Rachel was murdering you, not tickling you!"
"Poor Padfoot is a bit sensitive." Remus teased in a girly voice as he tickled Sirius under the chin.
"Cut it out!" Sirius said hastily shoving Remus's hand away from him not wonting to be considered soft. "Lets continue with the game. Prongs, Truth or Dare?" Sirius asked.
"Dare." James said simply pushing out his chest as if he had just accepted a great challenge.
Sirius smirked. "Make out with Lily, Right here, right now!"
Lily froze. "You have a sick mind Black!" she hissed at him.
James smirked. "Goody!" The smirk was now a broad smile.
Rachel covered her head in her hands hoping James wasn't going to make Lily hate him even more. Everyone else seemed to be smiling.
"Come on Lils. Give the man what he's been wanting since first year!" Riley said.
"Thanks for the support!" Lily spat back. "But I'm sorry, I refuse!" Lily said stubbornly crossing her hands in front of her.
'A dares a dare!" Peter smirked
Lily shot him a look and opened her mouth to speak but was blocked by James who had literally placed himself on top of her and began to kiss her. Lily would never admit it but he was a good kisser, she wasn't going to tell him that though, she didn't want his ego to explode. Lily who had enough shoved James off her with a disgusted look on her face. James just smiled, ignoring Lily's sour face.
"That was utterly disgusting!" Lily spat half lying. "And get those looks off your face!" she screamed at everyone who all had wide smirks on their faces. Everyone stopped immediately, even Sirius.
"Oh come on, you know you loved it!" James said with a cheeky smile that would make his fan girls sigh and giggle at him.
Lily shot him a look of repugnance. "This doesn't leave the room!" she yelled steering at James, Sirius and Suzy who were most likely going to gossip.
"Lets carry on with the game!" Bret said calmly who was still huddled up with Ashley. Rachel had caught Remus shooting Bret evil glances all night. She didn't blame him. She did practically the same to Suzy.
"Truth or dare Sirius?" Peter asked his friend.
Sirius puffed out his chest exactly like James. "Dare offcourse."
Peter looked around the room thinking hard. His eyes stopped at Suzy, half naked. He smiled. "Padfoot I dare you to cover Suzy in whipped cream and lick it ALL off her!" Peter said proudly.
"Sick!" Riley and Rachel screamed at once.
"Your just jealous!" Suzy shot back. Both girls raised their eyebrows and smirked as if it say "as if!"
Sirius smirked "Sure thing! So when you said cover her, does that mean everywhere?" He asked irreverently.
Peter nodded defiantly "No fun otherwise!"
Sirius looked over at Suzy who was in her skimpy Bra and underwear. He smiled ignoring the looks of disgust Lily, Ashley, Riley and Rachel were sending him.
"Its so typical!" Riley whispered to Rachel who nodded.
"Yeah, just don't expect me to watch!" Rachel whispered back.
"Fair enough!" Lily whispered who had joined in the conversation.
Sirius began to spray the cream on Suzy's body. She was lying on the ground looking incredibly stupid half naked. Sirius was spraying her perfectly tanned legs with white whipped cream.
Tanned legs! Rachel thought. Its winter!
Sirius was slowly moving up. He had done Suzy's lower section and was on her stomach. He drew patterns on her stomach and kissed it, causing her to laugh and Rachel to fake vomit.
Sirius was finally done. He put a cherry in Suzy's mouth and stood up, observing his girlfriend covered in cream, ready for him to lick.
"Well get going!" James said half wishing he had a girl like that.
Sirius smirked and got down on the ground next to Suzy's feet. He began licking them looking incredibly cute.
Rachel's look of disgust turned into a sad frown as Suzy giggled a girly giggle saying Sirius was tickling her and all this other crap about how she loves him. Riley's disapproving glare only seemed to grow bigger. Lily and Ashley were much the same. The marauders plus Bret all looked as if they wanted to be in Sirius's position.
Sirius was now on top of Suzy and was licking her neck. Long before now Rachel had began to look away only glancing up occasionally if she heard a sick moan from Suzy.
Suzy let out a huge giggling moan. Rachel looked up. Sirius had finished licking the cream and was sucking the cherry out of her mouth and kissing her at the same time. It looked like he was thoroughly enjoying himself. All the anger Rachel might have been showing was now completely gone. A sad look grew on her face. Riley noticed and sighed at her friend quietly.
"Don't worry about it!" she whispered as the marauders began to cheer loudly as Sirius perched himself on top of Suzy and began to kiss her wildly, Suzy seemed to be enjoying it. "Sirius hasn't realised yet what a horrible bitch she really is!" Riley yelled accidentally, her anger getting the better of her.
"Too right!" Rachel yelled back, the anger returning back to her face. The cheering stopped all of a sudden. Everyone, even Sirius and Suzy who had stopped making out payed attention to Riley who gave everyone a look meaning "what?"
"What did you just say?" Sirius asked Riley in disbelief.
Riley without the slightest bit of fear answered him. "Rachel and me were just chatting about how your girlfriend is a skanky bitch." Riley said coolly a smile playing on her face.
Lily and Ashley smirked. The marauders plus Bret had looks of disbelief. Sirius and Suzy just looked disgusted.
Suzy got up from the ground. "You, call me a skank? Look at yourself!" Suzy shot back. "Jumping from guy to guy as if their animals." She said to Riley. "As for you." She continued, looking at Rachel. "You've got the looks of a sour cow so you must be jealous of moi!" Suzy said happily.
Rachel was on the verge of tears as James stood up so fast he made Lily jump. "Leave it." Remus whispered pulling him down.
"Ha, your just as bad as him!" Riley yelled angrily pointing to Sirius. "You know what im talking about Black!" She yelled remembering back to what Rachel told her about him calling her fat.
"No I don't. Would you mind filling me in about that?"
Riley opened her mouth to start screaming again but Lily stopped her and pointed to Rachel who was trying her hardest not to cry.
"How dare you go calling my girlfriend a skank." Sirius said angrily.
"Well it's only true!" Rachel sobbed. "And don't forget all the things she says to me!"
"That's not my problem!" Sirius yelled angrily. "Suzy is my girlfriend and I love her, you are nothing more than James's little sister who I have to put up with!"
Rachel froze. The tension in the room was so heavy not even James dared to speak. Rachel who was determined not to cry in front of so many people managed to keep the tears inside at the moment. She stood up. Riley was quicker and started screaming at Sirius again.
"Im not going to spell it out for you what you said Black! But what I am going to spell out is your girlfriend or shag lady as I like to call it is nothing but a shagging partner and a horrible cow!" Riley screamed.
Sirius ignored her and looked at Rachel. He knew he'd upset her but at the moment he didn't care. He turned to leave. "I think we're done here." He said simply as he turned to leave by himself.
Rachel gave Riley a serious look of disbelief before running after Sirius to catch him. Riley decided to follow.
Rachel ran out the portrait and spotted Sirius walking the opposite direction of the Gryffindor common room. "Sirius!" She called after him with a sad sob.
He turned around without any feeling on his face. He saw Rachel and her hurt looking face, he stopped. Rachel ran up to him, Riley waited behind.
"What's going on?" she asked confused.
Sirius didn't answer; he just looked at her in her oversized clothes and teary-eyed face. He did nothing, but walked off leaving Rachel alone.
Riley came rushing up to Rachel once she was sure Sirius was gone. She found her best friend beside herself in tears.
"What did he say?" Riley asked quietly putting her arm around Rachel.
Rachel began to cry harder. "Nothing." She sobbed. "He just ignored me and walked away." She said crying into Riley's shoulder.
"Oh Rach! Don't cry, you never cry!" Riley said sympathetically. "Black is an evil, horrible, girl user, son of a bit-" Riley was cut off by Lily and Ashley running out of the portrait. They spotted Rachel and Riley and ran over.
"What did he do?" Lily asked Rachel while giving her a hug.
"Absolutely nothing… that's the problem he just waked away!" Rachel sobbed louder than ever into Lily's shoulder. "I was so stupid to think that for a second he actually cared!" she wept
"Hay, your not stupid." Ashley said comforting her friend.
The girls stood in silence for a moment. Only Rachel's sobs could be heard. The girls were locked in a tight embrace when suddenly they heard footsteps. If it could have been anyone else Rachel would have been happy, instead Sirius came walking around the corner, his hands in his pockets as he walked with his head down. He stopped and slowly looked up. His face still showed no emotion, which was almost as unusual as Rachel crying. He saw Riley, Lily and Ashley looking at him with disgusting looks on their faces he just turned away again.
"Oh no you don't Black!" Riley screamed walking up to him. Sirius slowly turned around. This time there was an emotion of annoyance and anger on his face. "Why are you being such a… such a…"
"DICK!" Lily screamed finishing Riley's sentence for her.
'You could ask your friend the same question." Sirius said simply looking at Rachel who was still crying uncontrollably.
"Look what you've done to my best friend!" Riley screamed hitting Sirius in the shoulder. "You started all this! You're going to finish it!" she screamed.
Sirius glanced at Rachel again with the same angry expression he then turned to Riley. "I didn't start this. She did when she called my Girlfriend a bitch."
"Black we all called Suzy a bitch and considering what she says to Rachel, fair enough!" Ashley screamed. "Why are you taking it all out on Rach?"
"Why does she care so much that im angry with her?" Sirius asked all of a sudden ignoring Ashley's question.
"I THOUGHT THAT BIT WOULD BE OBVIOUS!" Rachel screamed at Sirius just for the sake of it, which made everyone jump. "I was so stupid to think that for one second you actually cared." Rachel didn't wait for a reply because she knew Sirius would either start swearing at her or ask questions, which she wasn't willing to answer. Instead Rachel walked off into the Gryffindor common room, she needed time to be alone.
Riley punched Sirius in the arm several more times before Lily finally stopped her. "Look what you've done Black. If you don't see now, then your DUMB!" Riley screamed as Lily and Ashley pulled her away.
"Come on." Lily said quietly. "Lets go into my dorm and leave Rachel alone for tonight, she will talk to us when she's ready."
Riley, Lily and Ashley walked into Lily and James's common room. It was deserted apart James who was sitting on the couch in a rather calm way. Everyone else must have slipped out. James noticed the presence of the girls and bombed them with questions immediately.
"Where is she? Is she all right? James said at once. "Umm what happened?" he asked more serious and confused.
"James," Ashley said coolly. "Rach is um not ok," James shot her a look at this. "She just needs time to be alone." Ashley said simply trying to keep James under control.
"And we can't exactly tell you what happened for several reasons… but you will find out soon I suppose!" Riley reassured him.
This didn't reassure James at all. Lily noticed this.
"Look its just personal, it's noting serious." She said.
James relaxed a bit. He was still wondering what on earth could be wrong with his sister to make her breakdown all of a sudden. She had always been such a happy person, why was she so upset about Suzy and Sirius?
"We can't tell him." Ashley whispered to her friends. "Rachel will tell him everything when she's ready."
Lily and Riley nodded slowly thinking how Rachel was right now.
Rachel sat in her dorm alone. She had never felt so alone, so confused, so sad and so depressed. It felt like a huge chunk of her had gone. Sirius and her had been getting on so well, they always did. Things were going just how Rachel wanted: Sirius and herself were both friends and spent time together. Now she wondered if she would ever get another chance, if Sirius would look twice at her even after her diet was finished. She felt as if her life was a total waste, like no one understood her. Not her parents, her friends or Sirius. Rachel didn't know where to go from here, if she tried talking Sirius around or if she ignored him or left it forever and forgot her stupid plan. But she couldn't just leave it. She cared about Sirius like no other guy; she was so determined to make this diet plan work, for herself
For the first time in Rachel's life she felt fully depressed. A kind of depressed that you don't forget overnight and it's with you for a long time. She was so confused. She didn't know where Sirius currently was or what he was thinking. She didn't want to even think about James and how confused, worried and torn he must feel. And she didn't know what she was going to do next.
Her life was a mess, all thanks to Sirius and his stupid girlfriend. Rachel had basically told Sirius how she felt about him, which presumably will make matters worse. She tried to get some sleep but she couldn't clear her mind. Everything was racing through her head so fast. Her life was far from great.
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