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Chapter 15 – Letters in the dark
Surprisingly Sirius and Suzy's break-up had been kept quiet. The pair had told no one, so everyone assumed they were still together, which suited Sirius fine. He didn't want Rachel finding out before he had a chance to tell her. It was the weekend after their break-up; there was a hogsmade weekend.
"You guys want to escape the castle and go to Hogsmade?" Riley asked Ashley, Rachel and Lily over breakfast.
"Uh is it ok if I go with Remus?" Ashley muttered.
Lily smiled. "Can't keep away from him can you?"
Ashley blushed. "You and James seem to be getting on ok." Ashley was right. Lily and James had begun to get on well. They enjoyed each other's company. Lily liked it that way. James was charming, brave, funny and sweet. His arrogance had seemed to disappear.
"We are friends." Lily replied simply. Not bothering to look up from her scrambled eggs.
"So Lils, Rach you want to come to hogsmade?" Riley asked.
"Sounds good," Rachel muttered between spoonfuls of cereal. "Oh I forgot to tell you, I've written Sirius a letter."
"What?" Lily asked.
"Yeah, I basically apologized and just said I wanted to be friends and -"
"But it wasn't your fault!" Riley screamed causing several people to look up.
"I know," Rachel said quickly. "But he obviously doesn't see it like that!"
"Can we read it?" Lily asked.
"Sure, I'll show you later." Rachel said.
Ashley looked over. The marauders had just come into the great hall. "Well im off!" She said grabbing her bag and running up to Remus. She kissed him quickly then linked hands. Together they walked off out of the great hall.
James, Sirius and Peter continued walking. Sirius looked over at Rachel. Ever since their argument she wore a sad face. She was depressed. James had told him he caught her crying several times during the holidays. More guilt flooded Sirius. He had never felt so bad before. It looked as if James was heading right in Rachel's direction. Sirius couldn't face that straight away. He hastily turned around and headed back out of the great hall again. He knew what he had to do; he just needed to think how he was going to do it.
"Where are you going?" James yelled realizing Sirius was no longer at his side.
Sirius waved up his hand behind him and turned the corner. He was out of sight.
"Maybe he's going to see Suzy." Peter suggested.
"I doubt it," James muttered. "Morning Lily, Riley, Sis." He said happily taking a seat next to Lily.
"What was his problem?" Rachel asked referring to Sirius.
"I dunno," James said honestly. "He's been acting weird for about a week now."
"Are you going to hogsmade?" Lily asked James, completely changing the subject.
James nodded. "Would you like to come for a drink with me?"
Lily smiled. "That would be nice," she said happily. "You guys don't mind do you?"
"Na," Riley said. "I'll read the letter by myself."
"No problem," Rachel said. "Come on Riley, let's go."
Riley scanned her watch. "Yeah, Filch will be waiting by now."
"See you guys later." Rachel said.
"Have fun love birds." Riley muttered.
Riley and Rachel ordered 2 drinks at the three broomsticks. Lily and James were seated at a table across the bar. Remus, Ashley, Peter and Sirius were nowhere to be seen.
"So pass it here!" Riley said as soon as they sat down at a table.
Rachel reached into her pocket and pulled out a piece of parchment. She handed it to Riley, who began to read.
Unlike everyone else im not here to rub in lectures, scream and provoke or even argue. However, I want to apologize.
Sirius, im so sorry about dissing your GF, I shouldn't have. And no matter what I think of her, or what she thinks of me, I had no right. I know what it's like to hear terrible things about your friends so I can understand where your coming from when you say you hate me. But whenever you were with Suzy I thought you were a different person, I felt like I didn't fit in.
When im around you, if I don't make it obvious enough I care about you. I cant stand it when one of your fan girls come up and provoke me or when Suzy calls me names, and the worst feeling is you ignoring me. I thought I could live with harassment from everyone else, but I cant live with harassment from you.
So Sirius, I honestly am sorry for acting like such a bitch. I can't put it any simpler than that. Hopefully, you've seen what this has done to me. I've been depressed, sad and worried about you. I hope you can forgive me, and I understand that if your happy with Suzy then I have no right to complain, no matter how I may feel.
Riley finished reading and look up. "That's so sweet. But you don't have to do this, it's not your fault."
"Sirius sees it as my fault." Rachel said sadly.
"The last bit, do you think he will pick up what your really saying?" Riley asked sipping her Butterbeer.
"Doubt it, he thinks I only care about him as a friend."
"It's so sweet, when are you going to give it to him?" Riley asked.
Rachel pushed her blonde hair out of her face, thinking. "Tonight maybe."
"Speaking about love lives, what do you think they're talking about?" Riley said looking over at Lily and James who were talking over Butterbeer.
Rachel looked over. "Knowing James, probably quidditch."
"So what have you been up to lately?" Lily asked James.
James put his Butterbeer down and smirked. "You should have seen what we did to the Slytherins yesterday!" He said still smirking. "Although Sirius wasn't much help."
Ever since becoming friends, Lily had found the tormenting Slytherins thing much more funnier. "Wish I was there," Lily said laughing. "What was Sirius doing?" She asked curiously.
James sighed. "Nothing, that's the problem, it feels like I'm losing my best friend."
Lily rolled her eyes. "He's been acting weird for a while. And when he gets into moods like these, there normally a girl involved, and who does he go to with these problems?" Lily asked already knowing the answer.
"Rach," James muttered. "He told me she's the only one who can sort him out."
"I know," Lily muttered. "Promise me we wont have a huge argument like Rach and Sirius."
James smiled. "Promise."
"Where are we heading?" Ashley asked as Remus led her down the little streets of hogsmade, hand in hand.
Remus blushed. "It's nothing to fancy but I like it."
Ashley smiled and squeezed Remus's hand. "I bet I will love it."
Remus smiled. "Here we are."
Ashley looked around. Remus had led her to a little park at the end of Hogsmade. Trees covered lightly with snow were surrounding this little park. In the middle was a thick, warm rug with a picnic basket on the middle. Obviously Remus had prepared that. The snow had been tidily swept away leaving a grassy patch where the rug lay. Everywhere else was covered with snow.
Ashley turned around to Remus. "Thank you," Remus smiled and wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her close and kissing her. Ashley put her arms around Remus's neck, making the kiss last longer.
"Shall we sit down?" Remus asked.
Ashley smiled and lay down on the rug. Remus crept in next to her, wrapping his arm around her, keeping her warm. He opened the basket and pulled out another blanket along with a few bottles of Butterbeer. He wrapped the other blanket over himself and Ashley and unscrewed the Butterbeer.
They talked about numerous amounts of things. Remus felt like he could tell Ashley everything. Well almost everything. He dreaded telling her about him being a werewolf. He hoped the day he would tell her, she would understand. Not today, he told himself. Don't ruin the moment.
"Your so right!" Riley screamed. "We haven't been there for ages!"
Rachel smiled. Her and Riley were walking down the streets of Hogsmade, unsure of what shop they wanted to go into. When Rachel had an idea. She hadn't visited the old jewellery store for ages. Infact that last time she was there was when she was with Sirius.
"Well come on then!" Rachel said happy to get out of the cold streets. The girls rushed into the Jewellery shop anxious to gaze at all the jewellery, they so desperately wanted to own.
Sure enough, as they entered, Mrs. Jones (Mrs. Blueberry) was behind the counter with her typical glare. Rachel tried not to laugh, remembering back to when her and Sirius had basically tormented her.
Rachel scanned the shelves closer. She was looking for the silver bracelet with the heart; the one she had seen when she was with Sirius. She searched the bracelet shelves several time before deciding it was gone, someone had brought it.
Feeling sad about her dream bracelet gone, Rachel joined Riley who was looking at the necklaces.
"See anyone you like?" Rachel asked having a quick scan.
"A few," Riley muttered. "What about you?"
Rachel sighed. "The bracelet I wanted isn't here anymore."
"Guttered," Riley said still gazing at the bracelets. "You want to head back to the castle?"
Rachel nodded; there was nothing else she wanted to do here.
Sirius watched from the Astronomy tower as students headed back from Hogsmade. He hadn't been in the mood for a trip to the village. He had spent most of his day up in the astronomy tower, thinking. He knew what he was going to do tonight; he had gone over it what seemed like one million times in his head. He just wanted everything to go back to normal, to see her smile, her happy smile again.
It was getting dark. Sirius decided to see if the marauders were back from Hogsmade yet. He could do with some company. They would most likely be in the great hall, thought Sirius.
As Sirius got closer to the great hall, the more people he saw. He entered the great hall and smiled when he saw his fellow marauders sitting at the table laughing. Sirius walked over.
"Padfoot!" James yelled seeing Sirius come over. "What you been up to all day?"
"Nothing," Sirius replied sitting down. "What did you guys do in Hogsmade?"
Remus took this as his que to go into full detail about His date with Ashley.
"Ok Moony, we get the picture!" Sirius yelled on top of Remus who was still ranting away.
"I spent the day with Lily." James said happily.
Sirius smirked. "And you have no romantic feelings for her?"
James shook his head. "I've accepted that she won't go out with me."
"But do you still like her?" Sirius asked.
James kept silent. Finally after about 30 seconds he slowly shook his head.
"Denial!" Sirius yelled.
"Shove off Padfoot." James said.
Sirius smirked and helped himself to the nearest plate of pork chops.
Rachel, Lily, Ashley and Riley spend most of their night in Lily's dorm hanging out. It was the first time in days that the girls had spent some time together. With Lily having to balance around head duties and Ashley being with Remus all the time, it made things hard.
"I swear im going to kill Barret for giving us this essay!" Rachel said frustrated. Lily had suggested they all do their homework. Riley and Rachel had made serious obligations. They were both stuck on their defence against the dark arts essay.
"You know what, I give up!" Riley said throwing her paper on the ground. Lily picked it up and began scribbling down a few things.
"Right," Lily said handing Riley her paper back. "I'm tired, so if you don't mind I'm going to bed."
"Same here," Ashley agreed. "There's nothing worse than waking up tired on a Monday morning!"
Riley and Rachel were left with no choice; they headed back to their own dorm as Lily took the stairs up to hers.
"Hay guys," Rachel said as they arrived at their dorm. "I'm going to stay up for a while."
"Suit yourself." Ashley muttered who had already changed and was jumping into bed.
"Night." Riley muttered.
Rachel sat on her bed. She hadn't given Sirius her letter yet. It was a bit late now, she thought as she scanned her watch. It was 9:30. She didn't even know if it was a good idea, or how Sirius was going to react to it. She felt so stink. Her self-confidence was low as it was, all this had made it even lower. If Sirius rejected her letter, she didn't know what she would do, maybe she could move on. A tap at the window interrupted her thoughts. Rachel quickly looked over at the window. Outside was a tawny brown owl. Rachel rushed over to see who was sending the girls messages at now 9:45 at night. It was probably Remus, Rachel thought.
She pulled the owl inside and instantly recognized the messy scrawl as Sirius's writing. Her whole insides began to squirm. Her legs nearly gave way as she realized it was addressed to her. Rachel couldn't help but smile. She ripped the letter from the owl, sat down on her bed and began to read Sirius's note that he had decided to send to her at 9:45.
Rach,
I'm sorry.
Im sorry for the way I've treated you these past 9 weeks. I valued our friendship so much. I feel I took it and you for granted. I'm sorry but I thought you didn't want much to do with me. I thought you were only friends with me because I was your brother's best friend. At times I wanted more than friendship, but I knew that was completely out of the question, you wouldn't be interested in me. You wouldn't be interested in a guy like me who doesn't know how to treat a woman. I thought by getting mad at you I could ignore my feelings towards you. So I forced myself to hate you. As each day processed I found it harder and harder. Hating you was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
I used to dream of us running away together and living happily ever after. But I knew I was dreaming. But now, I've come to realize that our friendship, our bond, our connection is too important to me to throw away on a relationship that has one-sided feelings.
So that explains my horrible attitude. I've come to find that I can't live hating you. Your one of my closest friends, I don't want to ruin that friendship over my now ex girlfriend, Suzy.
Rachel if you don't forgive me, fine. I will leave you alone and not talk to you again. But I think there is something between us; a special connection and I want us to be friends.
Sirius.
Rachel read the letter over 3 times. She was panicking; she didn't know what to do. She even pinched herself to make sure she wasn't dreaming. She didn't know what to say to Sirius. She wanted to tell him everything, her true feelings, but she knew she couldn't, it would only rock the boat more. A thought came into her mind that this was Sirius's idea of a joke. Not wanting to look like a complete idiot Rachel dared to ask.
She rushed to her desk and pulled out a piece of parchment and ink.
Sirius,
I'm sorry to ask you this, but are you serious?"
Rach.
Rachel knew that sounded horrible. But she didn't know what else to say. Deciding not to change her mind, Rachel attached the note to Sirius's owl and watched as the owl headed up to the boys dorm.
Rachel paced the room in anxiety. She tried not to wake Ashley or Riley. It took 10 minutes for Sirius's owl to come back. Rachel thought it wasn't even going to come back, she was surprised when it flew through the window.
Rach,
I expected you to say that, what I said is a lot to take in and I understand you thinking this is a joke. But no, I am serious. I've mucked around with our friendship enough, I don't want to anymore. I've taken you for granted, and im sorry.
If only I hadn't done what I did, we wouldn't be writing letters to each other this late at night. I've made a terrible mistake, but I've learnt from it. I broke it off with Suzy, you were right, she's not right for me. I look at girls, if I say their hot im looking at their body, if I say their pretty im looking at their face, if I say their beautiful im looking at their heart. Not to one girl have I said there beautiful. Only very few have been pretty.
I understand that you probably hate me for doing all those horrible things to you. But I'm asking for your forgiveness. I want us to be friends.
Sirius.
Rachel now had tears flowing down her face. She couldn't believe it. Sirius wasn't mucking around. He means every word, he's truly sorry, she thought to herself. She wondered how long it had taken him to plan these letters, not many guys could write so fluently. But Rachel had a feeling that Sirius was speaking from the heart. A smile formed on her face. It was her old, typical smile. Her smile that could lighten up any room, even if it was pitch black, her smile that even made some boys forget about her weight and concentrate on her sweet smile. This was the first time she had smiled sincerely for nine weeks. She grabbed her quill and began to write back.
Oh Sirius,
I don't know what to say, well yes I do. Im sorry. I shouldn't have let my emotions get in the way; I was such a huge drama queen.
But I doubt you ever had romantic feelings for me, I mean who would? But thanks for making me feel a bit better.
Sirius, I want more than anything to be friends with you. I don't know if I have said it enough but I love our friendship, I love spending time with you and I love you.
But I think it is me that has to say sorry.
Love Rach
Tears had fallen on the paper, making it slightly damp. They were happy tears, tears of joy, relief. Sirius had said he used to have romantic feelings for Rachel. She highly doubted this, but she was hopeful. Rachel just thought he was trying to make her feel better, it was sweet. She wanted to yell out to him, tell him that the feelings weren't one sided, that she loved him back, that she always had and always will. But Sirius couldn't possibly be serious, and he doesn't think of her that way anymore. Rachel decided to leave it.
This was all happening so fast. Rachel couldn't believe it. Before she had time to think more about that, the owl came souring through the window again.
Rach,
Don't apologize. It's taken me 9 weeks to realize that none of this is your fault. I feel so bad for making you cry. When I walked away from you that time in the corridor, I turned around and saw you, lying down, beside yourself in tears. That imagine will never go away. I feel so guilty.
Rach, I have taken you for granted. I promise to never to that to you again. I feel the same, I love our friendship, I love our connection and I love you, I always will.
So are we all sweet?
Love Sirius.
Rachel fought back the tears. This was a new beginning for her and Sirius. She quickly wrote back.
Sirius,
Yes, I think it's safe to say we are friends. We have a lot to catch up on! I've missed you so much, as you've probably guessed. Is it ok if we catch up tomorrow, im really tired and I don't want to give the teachers a reason to yell at me tomorrow!
Love Rach.
Rachel sent the owl off once more. She gathered Sirius's letters, deciding to keep them. She smiled to herself. He was the only guy who could make her smile for no reason at all. The owl came back within minutes.
Rach,
I'm glad that's over! I've missed you too.
Talk to you tomorrow at breakfast.
Night.
Love Sirius.
Rachel folded up the letter and put it safely in a box with the others. She wanted to keep them. She scanned her watch again. It was 10:20. Deciding it was late; she jumped into bed and fell asleep almost instantly with a huge smile on her face.
"Should we wake her?" Ashley asked. Her and Riley had woken up first, which was no surprise.
Riley walked over to Rachel's bed and smiled. "Look, she's smiling, she looks so peaceful. Let her sleep."
Ashley smiled. "Ok, but if she's not in classes I blame you!"
Riley waved her hand. "Whatever," She said grabbing her bag. "Come on, she will meet us at breakfast." The girls left Rachel alone, sleeping in the dorm.
It was 15 minutes after Riley and Ashley had left when Rachel finally awoke. She remembered last night, she was sure it was real. To make sure she opened her box she had placed the letters in. Her heart pounded as she saw several letters in the box. This was no dream.
Rachel took a quick shower and put on her new jeans and hogwarts jersey. Running out of time, Rachel brushed her blonde hair a couple of times and sprawled on some lip-gloss. She grabbed her bag, glanced one last time in the mirror before leaving for breakfast to see Sirius. She couldn't wait.
Rachel ran down towards the great hall at top speed. She got to the entrance hall. The great hall doors were open. Most students had finished breakfast. Rachel stood at the door looking at the Gryffindor table. Finally, she spotted him. There he was, seated with the marauders, Lily, Riley and Ashley. Rachel felt nervous. Sirius looked happy, back to his old self.
James turned and looked in Rachel's direction. He looked completely normal, like Sirius hadn't told anyone.
"Hay Rach! Come over here!" He yelled from the table.
Within seconds Sirius spun around searching for Rachel. He found her, leaning against the doors, smiling. Sirius smiled. Rachel blushed and smiled back. Sirius stood up. Judging by the looks on everyone's faces, Sirius hadn't told anyone. He took 3 steps forward. Rachel took 3 steps forward. Sirius stopped, Rachel stopped. Rachel smiled her classic smile. She couldn't wait anymore. She dropped her bag from her shoulders and ran, ran as fast as she could towards Sirius, ignoring glares from nearly everyone in the great hall.
Sirius took a few more steps forward and opened his arms. Rachel, still running at full speed jumped into Sirius's arms. Rachel wrapped his arms around him and quietly sobbed into his strong chest. Sirius wrapped his arms around Rachel and stood, not caring that everyone was watching. He let her cry. Sirius only held her tighter as each second pasted. His shirt was now dripping wet. After what seemed like hours, they split apart. They still had their arms draped around each other's waist, not having a care in the world that they had hugged and cried in the middle of the great hall. He looked down at her. She was still crying. He whipped her tears away with his thumb.
"I hope their tears of happiness." He said so only she could hear.
Rachel smiled. "You have no idea." She whispered.
"Oh I think I do." Sirius said.
Rachel smiled taking his hand. "Promise me we will never, ever fight again."
"Promise." Sirius whispered.
Rachel smiled letting some more tears escape freely form her eyes. Sirius extended his arm in a business like way.
"Friends?" he asked.
Rachel smiled. She had missed her chance to tell him. Right now, friends sounded good. "Off course!" she said taking his hand and shaking it. Sirius squeezed it hard and looked over at the marauders, Lily, Ashley and Riley who all had their jaws dropped as far as they would possibly go.
"Shall we sit down?" Sirius asked.
Rachel nodded leading him over to the table, her face wearing a smile large enough to fit a truck into.
"Oh my god!" Riley said, still with an expression of a stunned mullet.
"What just happened?" James asked confused.
Sirius laughed. "Let's just say I've realized what's important in this world, true friendship."
"Took you long enough!" Lily muttered.
"Nine weeks to be exact," Rachel said joining in the joke.
"So you guys are all ok now?" James asked.
Rachel nodded.
"When did this all happen?" Ashley asked confused.
"I wrote Rach letters last night." Sirius muttered.
"Can I read them?" Riley asked at once.
Rachel looked at Sirius quickly. She understood he wanted them kept private. "I threw them away." Rachel lied. Sirius looked up quickly not believing what he was hearing, she threw them away, he thought miserably.
"Oh," Riley said sounding disappointed. "Well im so glad you guys are back together, you're made for each other!"
Rachel shot her a look. "What is that supposed to mean?" James said sharply.
"Nothing," Riley muttered. "So let's head to classes." She said changing the subject completely.
Everyone agreed it was best not to be late to class. Riley pulled Rachel ahead of everyone else.
"I saw how happy you guys were when you hugged. There's something there, he just hasn't realized it," She whispered. "So you must be pretty happy."
Rachel smiled. She hadn't stopped smiling all morning. "Course im happy, it took him long enough to realize though."
Riley smiled. "I bet he made up for it with that hug though."
Rachel giggled. "He was being so sweet."
"I bet he was," Riley muttered. "Oh looks like he can't get enough of you." She said looking ahead. Sirius had ditched the group, obviously wanting to talk to Rachel.
"I'll leave you alone." Riley muttered, as Sirius got closer.
"I was wondering if you wanted to do some catching up after classes?" He asked.
"Nothing I'd like better." Rachel said, still smiling. She had tried for a moment at breakfast to stop smiling, but she couldn't manage it.
"Uh I've noticed you can't stop smiling!" Sirius said laughing.
"I think everyone's noticed." Rachel said.
"I am really sorry." Sirius muttered.
"Hay," Rachel said grabbing his shoulder. "It's in the past, don't worry about it."
Sirius smiled. "Come on, we will be late for transfiguration."
Rachel had been waiting all day for classes to finally end. Her and Sirius had planned to go for a walk around the lake after classes to 'catch up.' Rachel hadn't had a chance to talk to her friends privately all day. As she was getting ready to meet Sirius, she took this as her chance.
"I think this is a dream!" Rachel yelled from the bathroom.
"It's no dream honey," Lily screamed back. "This is real!"
Rachel came out of the bathroom with her hair tied up in a towel. She sat herself down in front of the mirror, took her hair out of the towel and began to brush it.
"Where are you going again?" Ashley asked from her bed.
"For a walk around the lake, then were going to raid the kitchens for food!"
Lily laughed. "Count on Sirius to include raiding the kitchens!"
"I don't think Rach cares where she goes with him, unlike all the other girls who insist top restaurants!" Riley said truthfully. She was right; Rachel didn't give a dam as long as she was with Sirius.
"I can't give him the impression that I'm basically in love with him," Rachel said sadly.
"That's why your going dressed like you are then?" Riley asked looking at Rachel who was wearing plain jeans with a brown hoddie. "You look like your going to quidditch practice."
"That's my point," Rachel said while brushing her thick hair. "It has to be casual."
Ashley scanned her watch. "Holy cow Rach, you're late!"
Rachel looked at her watch, Ashley was right, it was 5:55, and she was supposed to meet Sirius in the commonroom at 5:50. "SHIT!" Rachel cursed loudly, throwing her hairbrush on the floor and running out of the door. Completely forgetting she looked like a mess. Her hair was barely brushed, she had no makeup on and she had just realized how dirty her jeans actually were. She hoped Sirius wouldn't get the wrong idea.
Sirius was standing in the middle of the commonroom. He was facing the other way he hadn't seen Rachel yet. Rachel quickly glanced around the room. For the first time she realized how much of an impact Sirius actually had on girls. Rachel thought it was pathetic, she hated girls who would suck up to him, only doing it because Sirius looked hot, when they didn't care for what was inside.
Rachel ran up to Sirius and tapped him on the shoulder playfully. "Surprise!" she yelled as he turned around. "Sorry I'm late, I got distracted." She said stupidly with a goofy smile.
"No problem," Sirius said sounding sincere. "Shall we get going?"
Rachel smiled. "Sure," She took one last glance around the commonroom. The giggly girls were now giving Rachel evil glances. They had never given Suzy smirks Rachel didn't care though. Infact, she felt sorry for them. "Where are the marauders?" Rachel asked as Sirius stepped aside to let her walk through the portrait hole first.
"I dunno, they disappeared as soon as I told them I was going out with you." Sirius replied behind Rachel.
Rachel smiled. That would be Remus's doing, she thought to herself.
Sirius and Rachel walked outside. The Hogwarts grounds were beautiful at night. The sun had just gone down and the lights from the castle shone on the grounds and the lake. It was lightly snowing and the grass was completely covered in snow. Rachel thought the grounds looked like a Christmas postcard, it was that beautiful. Both Sirius and Rachel knew they shouldn't be outside at this time, but neither of them seemed to mind of they got caught. Taking a walk around the lake with Sirius was well worth a couple of detentions in Rachel's opinion.
Sirius and Rachel decided to walk around the lake. They made footsteps in the snow as they walked.
"Sirius, what made you send me that letter?" Rachel asked curiously.
Sirius stayed silent, not to sure what to say. "Something hit me inside, I had been acting like a stuck up pig," Rachel laughed. "I didn't want to loose you."
Rachel's heart skipped a beat. "I don't want to loose you either, specially on Suzy's account!"
Sirius laughed. "I'm glad I broke up with her."
Rachel snorted. "I bet."
Snow was now falling heavily. Snow had covered the top of Rachel's head it looked like she was wearing a small white hat. Flakes had fallen further into her strands and onto her shoulders. It was now completely dark. Sirius and Rachel had made it half way around the lake and the castle lights had vanquished. Rachel struggled to even see her hand in front of her face.
"Sirius, I can't see you!" Rachel hissed with a hint of panic in her voice.
Sirius laughed. "I'm right here," Sirius said seriously grabbing Rachel by the hand. Rachel could feel her face heat up. She could feel that Sirius's hands were freezing; Sirius could probably feel that hers were freezing too. The force of Sirius's hand seemed to make a huge difference. Rachel had never felt anything like it; it was like she was flying in the clouds, like she had just drunk a huge cup of hot chocolate. Her whole insides seemed to have heat up. "Can you see where I am now?" he asked stupidly.
Rachel giggled. She looked to her right where Sirius obviously was. "I can see you." She replied.
Rachel expected Sirius to let go, but he didn't. He grasped her hand tighter, not wanting to let go. He didn't show it but he felt the exact same feelings Rachel did. His whole insides warmed up. No one had ever made him feel like that before. He knew something was up, but he didn't know what.
As the couple walked further around the lake, the castle lights came into sight again. Rachel could now clearly see what was around her, she was sure Sirius could too. But still, neither of them let go.
It was now 8:00. Sirius and Rachel had caught up on nearly everything. Rachel didn't have much news, she didn't want to share the fact that Sirius was all she had been thinking about, he could spare that detail, she kept telling herself.
Form what Sirius had told her tonight; she liked to believe he was being honest when he said he liked her more than a friend at one stage. Rachel felt like there was an imaginary glass between her and Sirius, she wanted to scream out to him, tell him she was in love him, tell him she had lost nearly 20 kg, tell him that she too dreamt of the pair of them running away in the sunset together. As much as she wanted to tell him this, she knew she couldn't, Sirius probably didn't like her anymore, she feared rejection, she knew she couldn't open up to him fully, he might think her diet plan was a crazy idea.
They walked into the much warmer, dimly lit entrance hall. Both Sirius and Rachel were covered in snow. Rachel quickly shook the snow off her. It was in her hair, on her shoulders and even on her shoe tops. Sirius did the same, looking like a dog itching its fleas as he brushed all the snow from his shaggy black hair. Sirius looked up at Rachel who was hiding a smile forming.
"Sorry," She said trying to laugh at Sirius. She didn't even know what she was laughing at. "It's just you."
"So uh you wanna still go to the kitchens?" Sirius asked.
Rachel thought for a minute. She didn't particularly feel like going to the kitchens. She wasn't hungry and was tired. "Uh, not really, but if you want to, I don't mind!"
Sirius sighed. "I didn't want to go either!" he said almost too relieved. "So do you want to head back to the commonroom?"
"Suppose." Rachel said not wanting this night to end. They weren't even on a date, they were just friends. It was only the beginning.
Yes, I suppose some of you thought Sirius would realize his love for Rach in the click of a finger…. wrong! It's going to take a lot more than that! Throw in a mysterious ex GF, an arranged marriage and a hunk of jealously and what do you get? A huge mess! Opps! I've said too much! Lol.
Next Chapter – Christmas is just around the corner…and with Christmas comes a Christmas ball and word of an old girlfriend.