Chapter 12

Flashback

"Just look at them, mate. Have you ever seen such a disgusting display?" Spike said at lunch as he watched Buffy and Angel snog in the distance. Xander rolled his eyes.

"What annoys me is the fact that you can't seem to talk about anything else. If it bothers you so much, you could always stop looking." Spike knew his friend was right and finally turned away.

"I just wanted to see if one of them would choke on the other's tongue. That bloke is a bloody pain in the arse. She's just as irritating; the bitch thinks she's so special and everyone should worship the ground she walks on." Xander couldn't take anymore and decided to give Spike a piece of his mind.

"You know what? I'm not gonna sit here and listen to this anymore. You may be my friend, but you don't really know anything." Spike was surprised by his tone.

"Just what don't I know?" He wondered with raised eyebrows.

"Buffy's not a bitch. She may be popular and everything, but she doesn't let it get to her head like most girls would. She cares about people and she doesn't look down on them just because they're not popular. Look at me, man. I'm nowhere near popular and she's still my friend. She stuck up for me once when the jocks thought it was funny to pants me in front of everyone. She told them off and they haven't bothered me since. She's a really nice person and she deserves to be treated like one. I don't know what your problem is with her, but I really don't care. You need to get your facts straight before you judge her like that. I'll see you later." With that said, Xander got up and walked out of the cafeteria. Spike was still surprised by everything he said and felt even worse. He really didn't know what his problem was, but he knew the problem wasn't Buffy.

End Flashback

Spike looked at the sleeping girl next to him and thought back to everything that happened with them. He couldn't believe that his jealousy of Angel led him to treating this amazing girl like she was nothing. Xander was right; he had no right to judge her. He felt worse thinking about everything that they had now, he didn't think that he deserved it. He caressed her cheek lightly and the movement caused her to open up her eyes and look at him. "Hey, you okay?" She wondered when she noticed the expression on his face.

"Yeah, I just can't believe that any of this is happening. I don't deserve you, Buffy." Buffy was worried now as she sat up.

"What are you talking about?" He ran his fingers through his tousled hair and thought about what to tell her.

"I was horrible to you, pet. You didn't deserve that. I see what an amazing woman you are now and it makes me regret that I didn't get a chance to know you in the past. Xander tried telling me how great you were, but I wouldn't listen. I just kept seeing you with Angel and nothing else seemed to matter." He explained as he started to feel tears in his eyes and tried not to let them fall. "I love you, Buffy. I'm so sorry for everything." He told her as he lowered his head and Buffy moved closer to him. She wrapped her arms around him and guided his head to her shoulder.

"It's okay, Spike. It was all in the past, we're different people now. You've made up for it by being here and helping me with Katie. We both love you." Spike looked up at her and didn't care to hide his tears anymore. He leaned closer and planted a kiss on her lips. He then moved his lips to her forehead and closed his eyes.

"I'll never let you go, pet. I'll always be here. You and Katie are my whole world." Buffy started to feel tears in her eyes now as she held him closer to her.

"I know." She replied as they both continued to hold each other, they knew that no more words needed to be said.

Buffy and Spike were at the park the next day. Katie was in her stroller and they were sitting on a bench, watching the kids that were running around. Buffy hoped to have more kids in the future. She wanted one that was both hers and Spike's, but she had plenty of time for that. Right now, she was happy with what she had. Spike took Katie out of the stroller and placed the child on his lap, so she could watch the other children also. He started to bounce her on his knee and she let out a giggle. Buffy smiled as she watched them, when a young woman then walked over to them. She smiled at what looked like a happy family. "You both make such an adorable couple." She stated and Buffy smiled up at her in gratitude.

"Thank you," she replied and the woman nodded as she walked away. Spike was starting to notice that Katie was getting tired as he placed her back in the stroller. He was too busy with her to notice the other woman.

"I think it's time for someone's nap." Spike said and Buffy agreed as they both got up and headed for home.

They both headed to Buffy's room after they put Katie in the nursery when they got back to the house. Buffy closed the door and then looked at Spike. She had a devious look in her eyes as she pushed him on the bed. He looked up at her, with lustful eyes as she got on top of him. She gave him a hard kiss and slipped her tongue into his mouth. He wrapped his arms around her and held her tighter as he kissed her back, with just as much passion. She pulled away after a while when they both needed to breathe. He tried to get his breathing under control before he spoke. "So, do you ever think about getting a place of our own?" He asked her and she had a smile on her face.

"Yeah, that sounds like a good idea." She said as she got back to kissing him. She loved living in her mother's house and Joyce was really helpful with the baby, but they could both use the privacy of their own house. It was definitely something to think about.