Doesn't Remind Me
Summary: AU, WiP: What would've happened if Severus Snape had choose a different path and proved is loyalty to the one who trusted him when no one else did?
Category: Angst/Drama.
Rating: PG-13 to R. For safety, deals with violence and suicidal themes.
Notes: I'm sorry, I would've posted this chapter last night but Telus decided to be a dickface and make it so the internet didn't work. So blame Telus if you're angry, not me. Also, if you know what has happened in books 2 to 6 (which I asume most of you do know) there really is no point in reading this chapter unless you want to point out errors I have probably made. I have not read the first 4 books since Gr. 7 and now in Gr. 10 I have just finished the last 2 books. Seeing as there is movies for the first 3 books I'm pretty sure I didn't leave out anything really important from them. But the 4th book was a total crap-shoot for me, I really can't remember much of it so therefore I've probably forgotten something really important. So, if I have forgotten something that happened in books 2 to 6 that are really important just tell me in a review or an e-mail and I'll try to fix it as soon as possible. I've never claimed to be an expert of the Harry Potter books and I never will claim to be one. So again, please forgive me if I've forgotten something really important or royally screwed up something.
Also, can I say really long paragraphs? I'm sorry but I've come to hate this chapter. I might redue it later but then again, I might not (it is like 4:13am right now sigh). It seems I'm having a difficult time writing non-action, non-anything-really-interesting-happening chapters. The next one will be better, I promise! And it will answer many, many questions (including that really big one, you know that one winks). So just be patient. You don't even really need to read this chapter if you don't want to. It just deals with trivial shit.
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, if I did I'd be rich and not writing fanfics, now would I? Sue me if you wish but the only thing you'll get out of it is my pointe shoes because it's the only thing I've ever bought in my life. Anything recognizable is credited to J.K. Rowling anything unrecognizable can be credited to me, understood? Good. Now I'm going to shut-up so you can read the story!
Ch. 6 - Five Years Gone
Severus Snape stared at the Headmaster in complete shock, "But, but that's almost five years," he stammered, "Why would he erase five years of my memory? Has he really been in power for five years?"
"No, not five years. It's been about two years," Dumbledore replied, with a small smile, "And if I'm not mistaken I don't believe that Voldemort meant to remove five years of your memory, not that he would particularly care either way. Tom Riddle was never gifted with memory charms."
"Then why didn't he get someone else to do it?" Snape whispered, turning his head to stare at the ceiling.
"Because I doubt that he trusted anyone else to do it. You, Severus, was his most trusted Death Eater, most trusted advisor. If you could turn your back on him then I believe he feared that many others would do the same."
"What has happened," Snape muttered, his voice shaking slightly, "What have I forgotten?"
"Severus, five years of memory is a long time for me to fill you in on. I'm sure it could wait for another time. For now you should sleep."
"No!" Severus yelled, grabbing Dumbledore's forearm and turning his head to stare into the Headmaster's eyes, "I am not an idiot, I know I won't survive for much longer. Tell me what I have forgotten, maybe, just maybe, I might remember something that could help."
Dumbledore stared into his friend's pleading eyes. He looked so lost, and, was that fear? Dumbledore had not seen fear in Severus' eyes since he had been a student at Hogwarts.
"Very well then," Dumbledore said, leaning back into the chair and getting comfortable, "But it will take a while and I ask of you that you do not ask any questions until I am finished."
Snape nodded, released Dumbledore's arm so that only his hand rested on the older wizard's hand, and turned his head to once again stare at ceiling.
"In Harry's second year the Chamber of Secrets was opened. It seems the Heir of Slytherin was no more then Tom Riddle himself, preserved as a sixteen-year-old in a simple diary handed to a child. That child being the youngest of the Weasley's. I believe Lucius Malfoy gave said diary to young Ginny at Diagon Alley, proven by some witnesses. The diary turned out to be one of Tom Riddles' Horcruxes and Riddle managed to posses Ginny and cause her to open the Chamber of Secrets and release the monster within. The monster turned out to be a Basalisk, that fortunately did not kill any students but only petrified them. It was also discovered that Harry was a Parseltongue and was therefore able to hear the Basalisk whispering from within the castle walls, as it was using the plumbing to travel. Ginny was then taken into the Chamber of Secrets and Tom Riddle almost succeeded in becoming powerful by feeding off of Ginny. Fortunately Harry, Ron, and Hermione had been able to figure out what was going on. Well, that was before Hermione become petrified. It was then up to Harry and Ron to get into the Chamber of Secrets and save Ginny, which, of course, they managed to do. The entrance to the Chamber of Secrets turned out to be no other then Moaning Myrtle's bathroom.
"In Harry's third year Sirius Black escaped from Azkaban and Remus Lupin came to teach Defense Against the Dark Arts, against your wishes. It was then discovered, by Sirius and Remus, that Peter Pettigrew was indeed alive and well. Living as Ron Weasley's pet rat, a rat that had been in the family for many years. Sirius Black was then discovered to be innocent, well, at least by the Order. The Ministry of Magic still believes him to be guilty. His house, number twelve, Grimmauld Place has been converted into a headquarters, with the proper magical protection of course. Anyway, that is all that needs to be said of that year, for now.
"In Harry's fourth year the Triwizard Tournament was held here, in Hogwarts. And Harry Potter was selected as one of the four contestants in the Tournament. Yes, I know, only three contestants participate in the Tournament but that year there was four as Harry was selected by the Goblet even though he had never put his name in it. Quite interesting really. But anyway, Harry competed and during the course of the Tournament Voldemort managed to pursue Harry out of Hogwarts grounds where he proceeded to use Harry's blood to return to power. Unfortunately the other Hogwarts student participating in the Tournament, young Cedric Diggory, was murdered by Voldemort. It was then that Voldemort regained power and called the first Death Eater meeting in many years. I believe it was two hours after the Dark Mark had started to burn that I told you to return to Voldemort. It was then that your job as a spy was reinstated. And after some carefully crafted lies and skilled Occlumency you managed to deceive Voldemort and was once again his most trusted advisor and Death Eater. He believed that you were spying on me for him. He was too arrogant to notice that everything you suggested that he do did not work for him but worked for the Order. He was much too arrogant to believe that any one of his followers would betray him.
"In Harry's fifth year The Ministry of Magic had, quite unfortunately, decided that not only was Harry lying about Voldemort's return but that I had lost my marbles. Quite amazing really, that they could be so blind. It was then that they assigned a one Professor Umbridge to the school, quite an interesting woman. Throughout the year many rules were instated, including banning all school groups besides Quidditch. All in an attempt to make sure that no one believed that Voldemort had indeed returned. Professor Umbridge became the Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher and refused to allow the students to perform any magic in her class. Sometime during the year Fred and George Weasley and Harry managed to get themselves banned from Quidditch, not that it was particularly hard to get yourself banned from anything during that year. Also, Professor Trelawny was sacked and so was Hagrid. I believe most teachers were put on probation, including you. Harry also managed, with the help of Hermione, to start an illegal school club in which they called the "D.A.", or "Dumbledore's Army." The classes were held in the Room of Requirement and were mainly focused on Harry teacher a group of students Defense Against the Dark Arts seeing as they found Professor Umbridge quite, incapable shall we say, of teacher the class properly. In the end one of the students, who was a member of the club, told Professor Umbridge and as a result I had to take the blame for creating the club and therefore was forced to resign and avoid the Ministry of Magic for a short while. Harry also developed quite the connection with Voldemort and had disturbing dreams, or visions you could say, of what Voldemort was doing. These visions helped save Arthur Weasley from an almost certain death while he was doing a service for the Order. But on the other hand, Voldemort realized the power he had all of the sudden acquired over Harry. He used these "visions" as a tool to trick Harry into going to the Ministry of Magic. He made Harry believe that he had Sirius at the Ministy of Magic and was torturing him. As it turned out, Voldemort was only trying to get Harry to retrieve the Prophecy that was at the Ministry of Magic. Oh, and during that year you were also teaching Harry Occlumency, but that is a story for another time. Anyway, Harry and some of his friends, most who were members of the D.A., managed to get to the Ministry of Magic, the details I will inform of later, and there a fight ensued with the Death Eaters present. You alerted the Order to what was happening and they got to the Ministry of Magic themselves soon after Harry and his friends. Voldemort then arrived when he realized that his plan was not going according, to well, plan. In the end Sirius Black was unfortunately lost and the Prophecy destroyed. But on the bright side, the Ministry of Magic finally believed what I had been telling them for about a year and removed Professor Umbridge from Hogwarts, not that she was in much condition to stay, but again, details for a later time.
"In Harry's sixth year, the one he is currently just finishing, I granted you permmision to teach Defense Against the Dark Arts, which you gladly took. And Horace Slughorn came out of retirement to teach Potions, seeing as you could not possible teach both subjects. Voldemort's power has been growing steadily and his wrath no longer affects the Wizarding world but has reached out to the Muggle's world also. Draco Malfoy, whose father, Lucius, is now in Azkaban after being captured at the Ministry of Magic the year before, become a Death Eater. I instructed you to watch over him and protect him because I feared that if I talked to him, and Voldemort used Legilimency against him, that he would be killed. After two unsuccessful attempts to kill me, one of which was a cursed necklace that reached the hands of Katie Bell, not me, and the other, poisoned mead that was unfortunately drank by Ron Weasley, Draco managed to get Death Eaters into Hogwarts. He did this by using the Room of Requirement, there he fixed the Vanishing Cabinet that has been broken for many years. Turns out there is another Vanishing Cabinet in Borgin and Burkes and the two create a sort of passage into Hogwarts. Quite clever really. But he Cabinet has since been destroyed. It was then discovered that Rosmerta had been under the Imperius Curse and that they were communicating with enchanted coins, the same method of communication that the D.A. had used the previous year. I left one night and Rosmerta alerted Draco with the said coins. It was then that Draco let the Death Eaters into the school and the Dark Mark was cast above the Astronomy Tower to act as a trap since no student was actually murdered. Of course, the Order was already in Hogwarts to act as security while I was gone and also members of the D.A. were present. Seems they have taken to protecting the school under their own orders. So therefore there was a fight, which is bound to happen when Death Eaters, the Order of the Phoenix members, and the D.A. members all meet in one room. I then returned to Hogwarts, quite weakened from my, while let's just say "evening jaunt," to discover the Dark Mark had been cast. Obviously, I hastened to the castle to find who it was that had been killed only to find that a trap had been set and that no one had died. It was then that Draco managed to disarm me, for you see, I had Harry with me and he was under his Invisibility Cloak and I was forced to wordlessly immobilize Harry so that he would not do something reckless. This, as you well know, distracted me for the split second that Draco needed to disarm me. But then Draco found himself incapable of killing me, even though he had come so close to his desired goal. After a short talk with the boy four of the Death Eaters managed to break away from the fight in the other room and join Draco. It was then that you showed up, alerted by Minerva of what was going on, and you took over. Ordered the other Death Eaters to leave, told them that Draco deserved his first killing to be alone, said you'd help Draco yourself. When they left you gave me back my wand and opened the door, that had been bound by the Death Eaters, and the Order and the D.A. members burst through. It was then that Greyback returned and labeled you a traitor and you gave me your Invisibility Cloak. Of course, another fight began and you sacrificed yourself to the Death Eaters so that they would leave, but not before telling Tonks what potion that would be needed to save me. Why the Death Eaters were content to leave without finishing off what they were first sent to do is beyond me. I was hoping that you would be able to tell me but I see that that will unfortunately not be the case. Many of the Death Eaters were captured but some did escape. Like I said earlier, the Vanishing Cabinet has been destroyed and the Room of Requirement is now being watched constantly and no students are allowed to enter it anymore, nor are any teachers unless I tell them.
"And this is where it ends. As you see, that last few years have been filled with quite the exciting adventures. There are, of course, more details, but that is the main overview. So Severus, will you now consent yourself to sleep?"
Snape stared at the ceiling, unmoving, unblinking, "That...that is a lot...a lot -" his voice broke off.
It seemed to Dumbledore that the man was barely containing his emotions. And Dumbledore knew, after being in Severus Snape's life for many years, that the man would rather prefer that no one saw him in his most emotional times. So the Headmaster did what he saw fit. He stood up and silently walked out of the hospital wing, leaving his friend with his thoughts.
And though the Headmaster might have been mistaken, he swore he could hear quiet sobs as the door closed behind him.