A/N: Because I love ya so much here is another update on Our Story!
For everyone who's interested in knowing what's to become of these star-crossed luvers! LOL
Review for me after reading! Believe me since I haven't updated this story in FOREVER it'll be a longer chapter to enjoy….maybe just this one though…others might be the same length unless I decide to wait on it again.
Chapter 12: WO AI NI
Sakura collapsed on the bed and stared across the field to Syaoron's house. She felt the tears that wanted come sting the sides of her eyes and she closed her eyes willing it away.
"Dammit Syao!" She threw a pillow towards the direction of his house and sobbed.
"Why do you still have to love HER!" she threw everything in her sight grabbing anything in reach until her hand touched a picture of her and Syaoron.
"Syao…I love you" Sakura whispered finally and sat in the middle of her mess.
"So much…" Her tears fell freely now as she sobbed silently to herself. She rocked herself back and forth and willed the pain away.
"This time once and for all…" Sakura begged letting the picture fall from her hands.
"I promise no more hopes…just take the pain…"
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Syaoron collapsed in bed and cursed himself three times over. He had laid her for the last ten minutes and he still wasn't sure what he wanted. All he knew is that he was playing with both of their hearts and he needed to stop. He also noticed that he forgot about the other one when he hung with the other one.
"Sakura how'd you react…"
Syaoron smiled
"I got it!"
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Thursday Four days after trip
"So you enjoyed you're trip?" Leiling asked writing the math problem down.
"Yea" Sakura said with a small smile. 'up until the end' she thought sadly afterwards.
"Good…I mean you were with that hottie right?" Leiling glanced up with mischief in her eyes.
"Yea but nothing happened we went with another couple", I informed with a small smile
"Oh?" She thought for a minute then smiled
"How was the sleeping arrangement then?"
I blushed slightly "separate"
"Liar!" Leiling said and smiled "did you sneak in or did he?"
"Him of course…I mean…"
"Ah! So something did happen!" Leiling squealed in happiness.
"Nothing actually" I looked away in embarrassment "he just held me and we just cuddled"
Leiling pouted "You adults! So cautious…he must be bad at it then…"
"Well we almost did!" I defended wanting to stand up for Syaoron.
"Oh?" Leiling smiled
"Leiling! Stop getting information!" Sakura yelled.
"All right! Sheesh, I need some excitement in my life to!" Leiling mumbled as she returned to her math problems.
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Sakura sighed and stepped out the house to head home. Suddenly someone grabbed her and her tiredness faded.
"What the Fuck?" Sakura said and whipped around to face her attacker. It was none other than Syaoron and Sakura glared at him although inside she was relieved it was only him.
"Saku…Wo Ai Ni!" Syaoron said looking me straight in the eye.
I froze and searched his amber orbs…I saw fear of rejection inside yet there was something else that unsettled me.
"How dare you say that to me?" Sakura asked with tears in her eyes. She looked away "Do you think you can just tell me that and I'll be jumping in to the void with you?"
"Saku…I only wanted to know if you felt that same…"
"Then you ask Bastard! Don't you ever say anything that you don't mean again…I don't want anything form you…you have nothing to gain from me and yet you push me to this!
You can't buy Love Syaoron!"
Sakura tore away and ran towards home hoping the tears would disappear and leave her eyes but it stung and trickled anyways.
Syaoron watched as Sakura ran. He felt bad that he just did that without truly meaning it but he wanted…needed to know soon if what he'd do is going to be right.
"Gomen…"
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"Ma…"Syaoron came into her study and bowed a lazy bow to her.
Yelan sighed and looked back at him removing the frown from her lips.
"What is it Xaiolang?"
"I told Sakura I loved her today…I feel bad…"
Yelan lifted an eyebrow slightly. 'What have you done?' Yelan thought and sighed.
"Did you mean it?"
Yelan awaited the answer and knew it already before he said anything.
"Not really"
"Xaiolang…" Yelan rubbed her head and wanted to smack him swiftly across the face but she didn't and instead she came around her desk and sat next to him lifting his head to meet her gaze.
"If you didn't mean it, why say it?" Yelan shook her head, as he didn't reply.
"If they mean nothing Xaiolang then they're just words"
"Ma…I know but I wanted to know…it's eating at me as I look at Sakura to Ying…I want and need to know who loves me for me!"
"By asking them both you love them?" Yelan asked incredulously
"Yea" Syaoron blushed
"That tells them you love to toy with them," Yelan said sternly
"Look dear…the one person you choose will bear your heir, life the rest of their life with you, and serve you as a wife would do to their husband. Whatever and whomever you choose is up to you but if you don't make the right decision then you're life will be miserable…Like Meling's father."
"Oh…"
"Marriage is forever between two people"
"But divorce…"
"Is scandalous! Us people of the high class cannot disgrace ourselves like that and that is why Meling's father doesn't marry whom he actually want to marry!"
"But he could remarry a second wife!"
"He could but he already has that! Plus others that follow…yet he tires of all of them…it's time like your father said he should just play and not want!"
"So I could…"
"Would Sakura allow that? Think of it this way Syaoron would you mind sharing you're wife with another guy…let's say Eriol?"
"NO!"
"Exactly" Yelan smiled "Would Sakura want to share a bed with Ying whom she hates?"
"Not the best idea…" Syaoron mumbled scratching his head.
"Think carefully about your life…distinguish want from need"
Syaoron thought and stared off. He was aware his mother hadn't moved and was watching him intently and he thought of the beginning till this point. He thought of Sakura's smile and friendship that had blossomed into love then he thought of Ying whom he fell in a lust with, who he wanted with a rage…
"That's it!" Syaoron said snapping his eyes open and looking at his mother "Will dad be home tonight?"
"No but he'll call and I can tell him…"
"I've changed my mind mother…I can't marry Ying…I only wanted her but I need Sakura…I can live with her and it'll be okay because we were friends before lovers and that makes our bond strong"
Yelan smiled "I'll inform him of your decision"
"Thank you ma…For everything" Syaoron ran to find Sakura…he now knew whom he truly loved.
"But Xaiolang…"
"Yea?" He popped his head back in.
"Why?" Yelan asked standing there. This she had to know before announcing to Xaio of Xaiolang's decision.
"Well…I've been foolish mother…the one I love…she's always been in front of me!"
Yelan smiled as she heard him leave through the front door more confident than when he entered her study.
"Thank god you chose Xaiolang," Yelan whispered. This was definitely something she'd have to inform Nadeshiko that was happening. There children. Yelan stopped before picking up her cell.
"I wonder…will Sakura…say yes though…"
Yelan removed her hand from his hand
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Syaoron smiled softly as he clenched the ring he bought her in his hand. Sakura was the one. He was so sure now…so very sure…
"Sakura…please…"
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"Tomoyo!" Sakura screamed
"How you Sakura….he could said he loved you! YOU!"
"Give it up Tomoyo…he didn't mean it"
"Of course he did! It's you of all people!"
"Tomoyo…okay maybe I was a little rude….
"LITTLE!"
"Okay a LOT" Sakura shouted back a little annoyed "You're supposed to be my friend!"
"I am but I'm also here to tell you when you're doing the wrong thing! If I were you I'd tell him how I feel fuck his fiancée and marry his ass or drag his ass up to the alter; marry him and end this fucken story!"
"It's not that easy!"
"It sure sounds easy!"
"Well it's not, Life isn't written in nice print Tomoyo!"
"It is to me!"
"That's to you…I don't want to do what you just said and end this fucken story that way…I'd rather keep the pain and have him marry happy then drag him to the alter and let him be miserable with me…" Sakura said softly.
"Saku…" Tomoyo's voice softened as well…"It'll be a whole load off you're chest when you say it…I promise…I mean It's always been my nature to rush into anything I thought was good but you're way to cautious…"
"Thanks Tomoyo…you're the best friend to yell and love me all at the same time"
"You bet…Saku…Please give him a chance…just one…for me…for Eriol…Hell! For yourself!"
"All right!" Sakura laughed a little slumping to her bed in defeat "I'll give him a chance…but one wrong move and…
"I know …I know…out right?"
"Of course…"
"Love you Sak"
"Love ya too Tomoyo"
Sakura hung up and sighed. Her mind drifted over her conversation and Touya had to come to the door and yell at her.
"Youma!"
"Huh?" Sakura looked up lost.
"You're cell has been going off for the last three minutes IF you haven't noticed"
"HOEH!" Sakura reached for it only to see it skid away when she accidentally pushed it.
"Hello…"Sakura answered breathlessly and nodded at her brother in thankfulness that he had warned her.
"Saku…"
Sakura smiled faded as she realized whom it was "Syao…"
"Saku…I wanted to fix our wrongs…if you'll let me come over I'll…"
"Touya's home…"
"Oh…"
Sakura smiled a little "I'll meet you at the back gate"
"Now?"
"If that's what you want!"
"Of course!" Syaoron's voice reached her.
"Meet you there!"
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Sakura saw him run there and she smiled. Slowly she walked up to him and he smiled at her. She smiled at him to.
"Syao…"
"Saku…I…I want to be with you…"
Sakura stared at him and saw the sincerity in his eyes. She felt her heart break as he reached for her…
"Syao…it shouldn't be this way…"
"But it should and it has!" Syaoron insisted holding her "this is what was destined and I won't fight it any longer Saku…I want you!"
"Syao…There is Ying…"
"I thought about it and I understood a few things about marriage…I'll always lust for her but it's only the body I'll enjoy…I don't really know if I want to get married at this point…I don't want to I just want to be with you…"
Sakura closed her eyes 'Strike three'
"Xaiolang…I love you"
He smiled at her
"But I won't be with you…Marriage is something I look forward to in the future…and I f you can't give me that there's no point in us trying to be at all…It's best we go our separate ways…"
"Saku…You don't understand…"
"But I do…you made it very clear for me at this moment Xaiolang…It's not working and you know it as well as I do…Goodbye Xaiolang…"
Sakura stepped out of his arms and gave him a small kiss on the cheek; she turned away and walked from where he stood frozen.
Syaoron was frozen. He felt a piece of himself tear away as she turned away from him…it hurt like a bitch…he'd never felt this way before…
"SAKU!" Syaoron yelled, "Don't go…Please"
"Gomen" Sakura mouthed and turned away. He could tell this goodbye had hurt her as well for her tears flowed without stopping as well. Syaoron felt the same wetness on his cheek and cursed. Never in his life had he cried when a girl walked out on him, it was because Sakura had always been there to cheer him up…but now he lost her…the girl he wanted…the friend he loved…the center of his world had suddenly left…
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Sakura sobbed until the last of her strength willed her to sleep. She had ignored her mother's plea for opening her door and refused dinner. Sakura had just woken up and her eyes were all swollen.
"Damn" Sakura cursed softly as she looked at herself. She was a mess…
Her cell rang and she stared at it. Softly she turned the phone and flipped up the screen to see Leiling's cell number. Breathing a sigh of relief she picked up…
"Hello?"
"What's wrong Sak? Why did it take you so long to answer?"
"Oh…busy daydreaming…sorry"
"Okay…you still up for tomorrow night?"
"Of course…meet you at Blaze tomorrow," Sakura said with a faint smile.
"All right…I'll meet you at the door tomorrow"
"Okay…" Sakura said trying to sound happy
"Sak…Thanks…"
"For what Leiling?" Sakura asked lost. Did she even deserve a thank you…and if she did for what reason?
"If you weren't coming my father would never allow me out of this house!"
"Oh!" Sakura dawned on the fact…"NO problem girl…I'll always be there…besides you forget this girl used to be the thing back in High school!"
"That was so four years ago!" Leiling giggled reached Sakura's phone
"Hey…I'm still pretty "IN" Sakura pouted to the phone
"I know…you're the coolest friend/tutor I have…I mean all my friends are jealous I got the queen of Shuyin High tutoring me!"
"Exactly…I told you my rep still proceeds in the people who came after me…"
"Yeah…so Sakura…why didn't you keep the title even in college and just let it drop? Is it because you're friends and you split?"
"Yeah…"Sakura sighed. It was mostly true but it was more like financial trouble and Syao…
"Well see ya tomorrow and thanks again!"
"Anytime!" Sakura smiled softly.
Sakura hung up and lay back in bed. Suddenly her stomach growled.
With a slight smile she got up…
'At least mom will be glad I ate…' she thought.
Sakura called the maid In with food and they were all so relieved that she was okay.
"Don't ever scare us like that again mistress" Sung said.
"I won't" Sakura smiled slightly at Sung…She had served the family for many generations and was very loyal to Sakura who she basically raised.
Crawling under the covers Sakura closed her problems out and wished for a good night's rest for tonight…
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"HOEH!" Sakura screeched as she continued to look for any good looking party clothes…this would be a good opportunity to meet new guys and move on…Sakura had decided last night to go on and maybe the lonely feeling would leave her heart…If Syaoron could do it than so could she.
"Where are you going Youma?" Touya stood at the door way eyeing her outfit with distaste.
"Out!" Sakura yelled meaning going out and so he'd get his ass out.
"Whatever just don't do anything stupid so I'll have to kill the poor fucker…"
"Shut it Touya! I'm almost twenty-four…"
"And way to reckless!" Touya muttered turning away.
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Sakura finally was satisfied; she looked at the black leather skirt and her black tight t-shirt that read sexy on it. Flipping her honey brown hair she strutted to the top of the line. If anyone still knew who she was it'll be Joe the Door Usher.
"Get to the back Hoe!" a few comments flashed but Sakura continued on her way up and when she saw Joe she grinned.
"Get to the back!" he said absently without looking at her.
Sakura gasped "Doujinshi Joe!"
He glanced up and saw his former classmate in all her glory again
"Kinomoto Sakura?" he eyed
Sakura nodded.
"Get in!" Joe said with a sigh
"I love you" Sakura gushed and drifted in ignoring the grumbles behind her.
"Sak!" a voice yelled over the music
Sakura turned to see Leiling in all her splendor as well.
"Well Leiling…you better show them what you're mama gave ya!"
Leiling smiled and looked her up and down as well…"Not bad…so how'd you get in so quick I mean I thought I was going to have to stand here forever since the line got so long and I couldn't see you."
"I have my ways!" Sakura announced. She winked at Joe and Leiling gasped
"No way…you like him?"
"Joe? NO! We were "friends" in Shuyin High," Sakura said brushing it off, then she noticed Leiling's quick glance towards him.
"You like?" Sakura asked naughtily
Leiling nodded with a blush…
"Tell you what…Give me two minutes!" Sakura said breezily "Stay here"
Leiling nodded and her gaze trailed back to the man by the door. His black hair hung over his forehead slightly and went great with his black shirt that hugged his buff body.
She sighed in want…
Sakura breezed in farther until she spotted whom she wanted.
"Justy!" Sakura hung on to him a cute grin touched his face as he realized whom it was. His brown hair slicked back messily and his green eyes could drown any girl…Sadly he was a security guard here…
"Sak!" Justin smiled "long time. No see"
"I know" Sakura smiled "Listen I need you to pull something for me…"
Justin groaned "still playing high school I see?"
"Always!" Sakura grinned, "I need you to take Joe's place at the door"
"Why?" Justin arched a brow suspiciously.
"My lil friend wants to take a shot at him….please!" Sakura gave her prettiest pout he could never resist in the past
Justine sighed forlornly "Fine…but you owe me!"
"I'll dance with you later for sure!"
"Okay…I hold you to that!" Justin said running over to the door.
Sakura watched as Joe was distracted by Justin and Joe left the door. Sakura gracbbed Leiling by the arm.
"Sakura what did you do?" Leiling hissed as we headed Joe's way.
"Introducing you guys of course" Sakura smiled evilly and Leiling saw a glimpse of the famous Sakura.
"JOE!" Sakura shouted over the DJ.
He turned and smiled at her "Sak" he greeted casually.
"Joe I want you to meet my student and friend Leiling Chaolin." Sakura turned to Leiling pushing her up more "Leiling, Joe"
"Hi" Leiling said not quite looking at him.
"Hey" Joe just said casually.
"Joe…"Sakura ushered him to one side
"Hmm?" Joe asked leaning down.
"This is Leiling's first time out and I need you to entertain her so she won't be bored"
"Me? Why me?" Joe asked incredulously.
"Because my friend you're free and you think she hot right?"
"In a way… but"
"Then get the hook up! She likes you too!" Sakura pushed.
"Okay…." Joe said and walked back up to her. Sakura sat back and relaxed as Leiling shyly took his hand and they went to the dance floor for a slow song.
Sakura could hear Leiling's friends chatter about her catch on her first time out to a club.
Sakura retained a smile as Leiling glanced up once in a while at her with silent thank yous but Sakura felt like shit! She headed to the bar and ordered some martini.
"Cheers…to a new beginning!" Sakura lifted it slightly. She drank it in one gulp and ordered something different.
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Syaoron sighed as his heart sank. She'd not answer any of his calls tonight and it pissed him off. Syaoron stared at the phone and wondered if he had a higher chance of talking to her if he called her phone number except cell number.
"What the hell!" Syaoron mumbled "What do I got to lose?"
Syaoron picked up his cell and dialed the Kinomoto residence.
"Kinomoto residence, how may I help you?"
"Is Sakura in?"
"No, Mistress Sakura is out at Blaze tonight can I take a message?"
Syaoron froze…Sakura never went to Blaze anymore…it wasn't safe for Sak to go by herself! He'd have to get his ass there…Rushing to his closet he grabbed a jacket and remembered who he still had on the line.
"Thanks but no thanks I'll just call her cell"
"All right…"
The phone line went dead and he hung up. Looking into the mirror he pushed a hand back through his hair once and slid his jacket over his black muscle shirt. Slipping on some faded jeans he headed out with a wave to Wei his butler only.
"Don't wait up!" Syaoron ordered and drove off.
"He's going to kill himself one day…"
Wei turned to see Yelan shaking her head disappointed at her son. "Where did he go?"
Wei smiled "Wherever it was Ma'am I'm sure it had to be something important concerning Mistress Sakura…"
Yelan smiled "You're right…I think I'll go call Nadeshiko and see if Sakura's home…"
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Sakura felt queasy but she didn't care she was having way to much fun! She grinded with guys she didn't even know and laughed at the corniest joke.
Once in a while she relented as a man's kiss pressed on her cheek and neck. Her lips wouldn't be touched…Sakura giggled as she felt the man grab her ass and she booted him off her.
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Syaoron cut the line and girls sighed while guys told him to fuck off back to the end but he pushed forward anyways. He was in no mood to fuck today…all he wanted was Sakura safe! (In his arms)
"Justin!" Syaoron shouted
Justin groaned when he realized who it was.
"What's up today; reunion of some sort? I mean Sakura's got us running where she wants in the club and now the player of all players show up? Whose next the whole gang from Shuyin High?"
"Just get me in," Syaoron said impatiently and Justin did. Syaoron scanned the area quickly and spotted his angel. She was never to far from sight as even drunk, the world revolved around her. Syaoron studied her smile and realized that many were trying to get underneath that skirt. With a curse he pushed through the crowd.
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"No!" Sakura smacked a guys arm away lightly "just because I'm drunk don't mean shit ya know…"
"Sak"
Sakura turned and saw amber eyes staring at her.
She cursed slightly. She spent the whole night trying to forget him and here he was again…back in her life.
"Dammit Syaoron…leave me alone'
Syaoron caught her and held her close telling the guys off with his famous glare.
"You're drunk," he stated
"Fuck it Syao…its fun…dance with me since you're here and never far…" Sakura walked to the dance floor.
Syaoron couldn't say that she wasn't drunk but she could walk as if she wasn't with her head held high.
"Sak let's go home…I need to talk to you…"
Sakura laughed and turned around "Talk? We are so through that Xaiolang…let's do something else…"
Syaoron growled "Now!"
"No! look do you want to be forgiven by me?"
"Yes!" Syaoron said without hesitating.
"You're forgiven…"
Syaoron sighed with relief and wanted to take her home now…
"So get out of my life…"
Syaoron world fell apart again.
"Now you don't have a guilty conscience so leave me alone…I don't need you…there's many others out there who'd appreciate me Li!"
Sakura started to move to the rhythm and Syaoron stood besides her trying to move the guys advancing off.
"Sak…Please…"
"Shut up and dance with me!" Sakura said pulling him close and laying her head on his shoulder.
Giving up he did that and when a faster song started he gave up the cares in the world and grinded with her shamelessly as well. There was no one but them to him and he didn't give a fuck now…
Sakura laughed and smiled at him. He returned the smile and before he fully knew it her mouth clamped onto his in urgency. Syaoron met her demand with a longing of his own and before they knew it they were getting farther than usual.
Syaoron felt himself harden completely and he cursed. Carrying Sakura and her stuff he headed to his car.
"Bye Justin!" Syaoron called out
"She out?" Justin asked
"She's horny!" Syaoron smiled
"You Dog!" Justin called with a smile.
Syaoron didn't care…tonight they'd have their night they had been lacking in…and he was going to give it his all!
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Syaoron couldn't concentrate on the road, as Sakura would reach over and demand a kiss every red light and press on his erection again and again.
"Fuck Sak…I can't wait…" Syaoron whispered
"Then let's get it on! I've been waiting for you only Syaoron…"
Syaoron reached his house and noticed all the lights out. He didn't care…it'd be his room tonight…no Touya to interrupt. Getting Sakura in and locking his front door he dashed up the stairs with her in his arms. He held a groan as she sucked lightly on his neck and trailed her tongue at that special spot as well.
Getting into his room he dumped her on the bed locked the door and joined her. They're no chance he was letting anything do wrong now!
"Sak" he whispered and placed himself above her. He gently nipped her neck and she groaned pulling him closer.
"More" she demanded and opened his jacket letting it slid form his shoulder blades. Syaoron knew they had gotten this far before but never all the way…
Sakura captured his mouth again and he heard her giggle as she was looking down on him. He just noticed that he was lying bare of everything and under her.
"I win!" Sakura said in a sing-song voice…
"Really?" Syaoron questioned before pinning her down and covering her clothed body. He captured her lips and quickly reached underneath her shirt to casually touch her breast and hold it possessively. It caused him to earn her sexy moan as well.
"God" Syaoron moaned as he lifted her shirt off and unclasped her bra… "You're as beautiful as last time I saw them…"
"When was that?" Sakura asked softly…
"In your room on Christmas day…"Syaoron said softly bringing his lips to kiss he nipple.
Sakura moaned and grabbed his brown hair
"More Now!"
Syaoron chuckled lightly as he continued to use his tongue to encircle her nipples before taking the whole thing in.
"Holy shit Syao…" Sakura gasped wigging under him. He smiled softly; he liked the feel of her underneath him wanting him only.
Sakura dimly remembered as he unclothed the rest of her. All she knew is that when he was busy doing that she wanted the top. Rolling him underneath she didn't hesitate to take his member in her hands. Moving it up and down she herd him curse and loved it when he pinned her down with a ragged breath. Sakura looked at him with innocence in her eyes.
"What/" she asked innocently.
"Gad girl" He whispered and captures her lips again. Slowly his hand found its way down and between her thighs.
"You wouldn't dare…" Sakura started
He probed deeper and touched her nub "I would!" He smiled as she forgot her wanting to best him and groan as she gently swayed her hips up to meet him…He could tell she was a virgin… and like it.
"Saku you actually waited for me?"
"Of course silly…" Sakura laughed as she played with his member
"Sak…" his voice betrayed his wants and Sakura sighed.
"Screw this…" Syaoron swore and went for it…
Sakura screamed in pain and as he went on slowly it slowly turned to moans as he held her and rocked her silently.
"Wo Ai Ni Ying Fa…"Syaoron whispered.
There was no rest that night for him as he made up his speedy first time with a longer one next time... They didn't stop till one in the morning when she snuggled up besides him and fell asleep.
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A/N: So? How was that my people?
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