The Dream: Luci's Destiny Chapter Eighteen: See How Boredom Kills

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1 Week Later: Excerpt from Luci's Diary

…So I guess everything's returned to normal now. We went home and I've been going to school ever since. No one really talks to me, nothing's really changed. I mean, it's like nobody's even noticed I was gone! But, I guess they shouldn't… I was only gone for about a week from school. Aren't I supposed to learn a lesson from all of this??? Well, I haven't. I just keep thinking about that magical night when Hiei carried me out of my room.

I'm so stupid. I've been kidnapped, tricked, and tortured. Do I really want it to happen all over again? Yes, it hurt… but I'm still living. The only thing that was so special about being kidnapped, tricked, and tortured…. was that I actually felt loved. Yusuke actually cared! Other people came to help me for once!

I can't believe what I'm thinking. I really just feel overwhelmed. I don't know… it's always seemed like (ok…Yes, I know….I'm changing the subject suddenly, but…) I could tell the future. Yeah, I know I sound crazy. It started out with small things, like guessing people's ages. Then I had dreams…that turned out a reality. And then I was kidnapped. IT WAS a frightening experience, but it caused excitement within myself. When's the next time something like that'll happen?

Since I'm really bored and don't feel like studying for the Biology final (which is tomorrow. Ooh and after that is Christmas break! WOOHOO… I've really gotten bored of school, but now that I think of it, there's no reason to be celebrating because there's really nothing I can do. It's probably going to snow, and then I'll get hit in the nose by a snowball… ah, shut up…this is so boring), I'll just write on.

Let's start with this: I was kidnapped by a dark stranger, by a cute dark stranger… well, no, he was just wearing black, but still.

Ah, I'm bored. I really don't want to write about what's happened. Besides, the beginning's always boring. So anyways, I was carried to this fortress, and then I watched a fight… a fight between my brother and this dark stranger. I guess I was in shock, I think I still am in shock. (Sighing) Then I blacked out and found myself alone. Cold, in the dark. Well, actually I was about to be tortured. BOOM. Yes, literally, at that time when I was being tortured, literally, I was in shock. I was shocked (literally) by a fat guy with a bump on his head…a hideous bump. Then my brother and his buddies carried me away… I've been all cloudy ever since… I was carried off by something else and fell…. A hundred thousand million feet until I plummeted into my own thoughts. Cold thoughts, sad thoughts, lonely thoughts. Then I… I really can't say what happened. Some say I was kissed by the angel of darkness (spiffy name, huh? … … oh look at all the ellipses), yet some say I was saved…by him…I'm still drowsily thinking about what is the real truth.

So many thoughts… just one could drown me alone… I think my tears could drown me as well.

Look at me,

I suppose if I could think enough,

I would drown myself to death.

All my tears could fill a pool,

All my thoughts could fill the world,

I really can't explain how I feel.

Ok, what's the point of writing a crappy poem?? It's really not going to help me at all. NO, NOT AT ALL!

Wahoo…ok now my hand hurts… my head hurts more.

Stupid pen. Stupid person. Stupid nonsensical—I don't know.

Whatever.

I'm gone.

End of entry.

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Luci stared at the clock. Tic. Toc. Tic. Toc. Tic…. Slouched on her bed, she watched the minute hand go from 23 to 57. She stood up and walked out of her bedroom. Then toward the front door. Her hand turned the knob.

"Where do you think you're going?"

Luci ignored her brother and left the house, closing the door. I don't, bro, I really don't know. All I can say is, 'Who do you think you are to tell me where I'm going?'

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Yusuke watched her close the door. What does she think she's doing? There's no place for her to go! Angrily, her opened the door that Luci firmly shut in his face. And she was gone. Disappeared.

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Luci's POV:

I remember that old …thing. Miss Mary Mac, Mac, Mac, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back. She asked her mother, mother, mother, for fifty cents, cents, cents, to see the elephant, elephant, elephant, jump over the fence, fence, fence. He jumped high, high, high, he reached the sky, sky, sky, and didn't come back, back, back, to the forth of July, lye, lye. Yeah… I remember it nice and clearly.

I think that happened to me. Except I ran, ran, ran, so fast and quick, quick, quick, I left the house, house, house. Yeah, I took a stroll by the lake. There was something odd about it. It was such a beautiful lake. With flowers, trees, birds—everything that a lake was supposed to have. Only, I couldn't see my reflection. I saw the reflection of everything else—the plants and animals—but not my reflection. It just made me feel worse.

So it's true then, huh? I really don't exist.

Could that lake be a reflection of my feelings? Maybe I filled up that lake with my tears. Maybe my thoughts could drown me. The only question was, did I have to guts? Sure, I did, but I don't think I had the choice. Before I knew what was happening. Yusuke appeared.

"What are you doing, Luce?" He asked me.

I didn't answer him.

"Are trying to drown yourself or something? You know that won't work, you're a swimmer. Swimmers don't drown. But on the other hand, I don't swim. So watch me drown."

What? What did he say?

"What?"

"You don't believe I'll do it? Answer me!" Yusuke demanded.

I really can't let him trick me like this! He's not really going to do anything. He's just trying to get me to be all like, 'You can't, Yusuke! No! Thinks about all you can do with your life!' I'm not that stupid, nor that emotional.

"Thanks, but no thanks," I said. It was probably the lamest thing I could have said.

"Luce, so you really don't believe me. That's too sad. You better watch closely and learn something!"

Yusuke stared running, but then he disappeared. He fell into the lake!!! How hilariously funny was that! He didn't fall in willingly though, he had tripped! HAHA! The only problem was, he didn't come back to the surface.

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