Yes, your eyes are not fooling you; Nooka is back with another chapter! And earlier than usual. Go me! Dances around room before she realises that she actually has to type it up Thank you all for the reviews, I love you all!
Yes, ok, so Lily acted a bit motherly in the last chapter, but I do it all the time! I don't know, maybe it's just me? Must be something to do with being the eldest Looks at Peniel could that be it, do you think? Ok, enough with mine and Lily's actions and on with the chapter.
Disclaimer: Are they together in the books? Nooooo. Would they be if I had written them? grins Do you really need to ask?
Thoughts
Beginning with Remus' pov of the kiss, the answer is right there my dear Lykaios Nyx. Enjoy all!
Remus made no resistance when Sirius lowered his hands from his face. He looked into Sirius' grey eyes, eyes that were swirling with concern and something else. He was so transfixed by Sirius' eyes that he didn't notice how close Sirius had come. His thoughts disappeared when Sirius' lips touched his, they felt so soft and inviting that Remus couldn't help but press into them. He felt Sirius' tongue open his mouth, felt it against his own tongue. He tensed as the realisation of the situation hit him with full force.
Remus pulled away, confused at what had happened, at what he was feeling. His lips were still tingling and he didn't know what to do. He felt Sirius let go of his hands. "I'm sorry, Remus. I never meant to. Forgive me." He faintly heard Sirius leave the room.
What was happening? Or had happened for that matter. Why had Sirius kissed him? Did he really mean it or was it some prank? I'm not supposed to be feeling this. I'm not supposed to love Sirius! I can't love him! He buried his head in his hands once more and cursed himself for getting into this confusing situation.
Lily felt her heart clench at the sight of Remus looking so lost. She sighed and sat down on the bed, next to him. "Remus?" she asked in concern.
He looked up at her with eyes full of despair. "I'm so confused, Lily"
She wrapped her arm around his shoulders. "Confused about the kiss or your own feelings?" she asked, gently.
He didn't look surprised that she knew. She tended to know almost everything that happened in their little group. "Both, I suppose." Lily didn't say anything, but she squeezed his shoulders in reassurance. Remus sighed as he sorted his thoughts into order. "I can't understand how I could like Rebecca one minute and Sirius the next."
"So you do love him?" she asked with a small smile, maybe this wouldn't be as hard as she had first thought.
He was silent for a moment as he contemplated this. "I don't know."
Lily turned so that she could look into his eyes. "Remus, what do you feel? Be honest with me, I'm here to help you not to judge you."
He looked into her reassuring green eyes and felt his fears melt away. "I think that I'm attracted to him, but I shouldn't be because he's my friend and I feel like it's too soon after my break up with Rebecca. I'm afraid that I'm on the rebound and that I'll hurt him if we get together."
Lily listened to all this in silence. She smiled gently at him. "Remus, there's nothing wrong with being attracted to Sirius and I don't think that you'd hurt him. You love him too much to do so and the fact that you're worried about hurting him shows that." She hugged him. "Rem, love doesn't come around everyday and when it does, you've got to grab at it and hold on¹. Don't let this opportunity go or you'll regret it for the rest of your life."
Remus bit his lip. "But I pulled away form him."
Lily rolled her eyes. "Remus, he loves you. Just because you pulled away doesn't mean that he'll stop loving you. You just have to show him that you love him too."
He chuckled humourlessly. "You make it sound so easy, Lily."
"Look, you love him and he loves you. You don't have any of the uncertainty of how he feels about you, so that should make it easier on you."
He frowned; it made sense in a weird kind of way. "So what should I do? Go up to him and kiss him?"
She grinned. "Why not, he did!"
Remus blushed as he realised what he'd said. "Point, but I don't think that I could do it."
Lily shook her head and sighed. "Well it's an idea. I think you should go to him, at least. He said he was off to the kitchens, if you want to catch him now. I have a feeling that he'll want to avoid you after this."
Remus nodded. "I don't think that I'd be able to work up the courage if I had to wait. They stood up and Remus smiled. "Thanks, Lily."
She grinned. "What would you four do without me?" she hugged him. "Good luck."
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Sirius tickled the pear on the portrait and entered the kitchens of Hogwarts. Instantly, he was surrounded by about ten house elves asking him what he desired. Sirius forced a smile and ordered some ice cream as he was being led to a table. Once the elves saw that he was satisfied, they left him alone, sensing that he needed the space.
He half heartedly picked at his ice cream, silently berating himself for being such a fool. He didn't know if Remus felt the same way and now he had ruined their friendship over one foolish mistake. But it had felt so right, so good. How could it have been so wrong?
Sirius roughly wiped away the tear that he didn't realise were falling. He sighed, pushed the bowl away and buried his head in his arms. Merlin, he was so stupid!
He tensed as someone sat down next him and sighed, he didn't want to talk to Lily right now. He looked up to tell so and paled.
"Remus!" he gasped. "I…I'm so sorry, I don't know what I was thinking…" he was stopped in mid-apology by Remus' lips on his.
He froze in shock. Remus was kissing him? Was he dreaming? It had to be that, only half an hour ago he had kissed Remus and been pushed away. Or perhaps Lily…he didn't get any further with that thought for he felt Remus gently pull away, blushing. Seeing Remus sat in front of him made Sirius' mind jump back into focus and he smiled. Remus had kissed him! For real! It wasn't a dream.
He leaned in and captured Remus' lips with his own. He felt a shiver run through him when Remus pressed closer. Sirius wrapped his arms around Remus' shoulders, pulling him closer. He smiled when Remus' arms went around his waist.
They kissed, slowly and gently, savouring that taste of the other. Too soon, they had to part, gasping for breath, their foreheads touching and their breaths mingling. Sighing happily, Sirius buried his head in Remus' hair, breathing in the sweet smell. Remus, in turn, rested his head on Sirius' shoulder.
"I'm sorry I pulled away, 'Rus."
Sirius looked down into Remus' eyes. "You don't have to be sorry. I didn't mean to confuse you by kissing you; I was only going to tell you how I felt."
Remus smiled. "I'm glad you did." He kissed Sirius, who was only too happy to respond.
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Lily pushed her food around her plate distractedly and glancing from her watch to the doors of the main hall every so often. Where on Earth were they? She hoped that they'd sorted things out between them.
She jumped when James touched her arm. "Lils, are you alright?"
Lily smiled at him. "I'm fine, just a little tired. I think I'll have an early night." She kissed his cheek and hurriedly left the hall under James concerned gaze.
She walked quickly through the deserted corridors of Hogwarts to Gryffindor Tower. With any luck, Remus and Sirius will be there. I hope they got together; they make such a cute couple. She thought with a smile. Lily gave the password to a very merry Fat Lady and entered the Tower. She crossed the common room and made her way up to the boy's dorm.
Lily entered the room and smiled at the scene before her. Remus and Sirius lay snuggled on Remus' bed. She felt tears come to her eyes. "Awwww, look at you two!" they smiled at her. "I think I'm going to cry."
Sirius pulled her into a quick hug. "Don't cry, Lils."
Remus handed her a tissue, which she accepted with a sniff. "Sirius and me want to thank you for banging our heads together."
Sirius nodded and wrapped an arm around Remus' waist. "We couldn't have done it without you."
Lily sniffed. "What are friends for?" she smiled at them. "Are you going to tell James and Peter? After all, they are your mates."
Sirius nodded, but Remus wasn't so sure. "What if they don't approve?"
Sirius hugged him closer. "Well their reaction can't get any worse than my parents when they find out." He joked, earning a laugh from Remus and Lily.
Lily smiled in reassurance. "It'll be fine and if they don't like it then I'll beat them up for you!" they all laughed at this.
"Why are we laughing?" interrupted a voice from the door.
Sirius squeezed Remus' hand and grinned at his nest friend, who was stood by the door with Peter at his side. With a glance at Lily, who gave him a look that said 'get-on-with-it', he took a deep breath and prepared himself for what he expected to be a long discussion. "We, that is, me and Remus, have got something to tell you…" he frowned as he tried to find the words to explain the new situation, but he was beaten to it by an impatient Lily.
"What he's trying to say is that he and Remus are together." That earned her a blank look from James. "Romantically." She emphasized.
Silence.
James opened his mouth, but closed it again, clearly at loss for words. Peter, on the other hand, grinned and rushed forward, shaking their hands whilst congratulating them.
James watched the scene, feeling strangely detached. It was as though he were watching one of those muggle films. Sirius and Remus are together. The thought kept repeating itself. How was it possible? So distracted was he that he didn't notice when Lily took him by the arm and led him out of the room, he didn't notice when they left Gryffindor Tower or register being sat down in an empty classroom not to far away from the Fat Lady.
He did notice when Lily slapped his face. He blinked a couple of times and stared at her, one hand touching his cheek. "What was that for?"
Lily looked relieved. "You weren't responding to me! I was worried, I had to do it." She stroked his cheek. "How are you feeling?"
"They're together?" his girlfriend nodded. "As in, romantically?" She smiled and nodded again. James frowned. "It'll take some getting used to."
She wrapped her arms around him and rested her head on his shoulder. "Are you willing to get used to it?"
He looked at her and sighed. "Yeah, if it makes them happy. I wouldn't be a good friend if I stood in their way."
Lily smiled and kissed him before taking his hand and pulling him to his feet. They walked back to Gryffindor Tower in a comfortable silence, James was trying to get his head around Remus and Sirius and Lily was congratulating herself on a job well done.
They entered the boys' dorms amid the laughter coming from the three marauders they had left behind, who seemed not to have noticed their absence. Lily hugged James and gave him an encouraging push towards his friends.
James smiled at Sirius and Remus and, although he as still a little shocked, he congratulated them on finding one another. Lily smiled and slipped her hand in James'. "I think we should leave the two lovers alone, don't you two agree?" Peter nodded and grinned at the new couple before leaving the room, closely followed by James and Lily, who smiled at them before following James out of the room.
Sirius smiled and wrapped his arms around Remus. "See, I told you it would be ok." He was rewarded by a heart warming smile and a kiss from Remus.
¹ Sort of quoted from 'The Prince and me.' I love that film.
Well I hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as I did writing it. I had to slip in some Lily/James moments, how could I resist? Don't worry, this is not the end! The Next chapter sees the return of our little Rebecca; did you really think you'd seen the back of her? Laughs evilly
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