Kuu: Wow guys, sorry for the delayed update! I've been busy this week..And for some reason I've been really procrastinating this chapter, I dont know why..Maybe because I feel that this is starting to get really cliche..I just don't want everyone to get bored, if you know what I mean. but yeah..Anywho! Just..Sorry!
Ohh! And did I tell you guys that for the Anime-Con in April next year (KamikazeCon) I'm going as Haru? And what's even better is one of my reviewers is going to go as Kyo! -does a happy dance- It's gonna be so coooool!
Answers to reviews!
Aoi Umenokouji: Rofl. That's mean! hahaha. No, Haru will get his memories back..Actually..I think he gets em back this chapter -doesn't really remember- rofl. Either this one or the next, I dont know?
SakuraKino: Oki dokie!
Bludragon: Hahaha. If you break your computer then you won't be able to read and see what happens next! Rofl, but I agree with your reaction completely. Kyo needs to get smacked around a bit for being so stupid! Haru will have to remember -frown- otherwise the story would just be depressing, now wouldn't it? Don't worry, I plan on keeping my promise!
Amarilys: Aww! Thank you! -glomps- I feel all special. rofl. But you know, if you make an actual account here, you can just add the story to your 'alerts' list and when I update or anything it will automatically get sent to your email! It's the perfect thing for lazyness! But, I'm glad you like it, thanks for reading and reviewing.
Kuu's Bitch: Jim. You're not my bitch. That makes you sound like I own you or somethin'. Rofl, and don't threaten to drown Hatori! WE LOVE HIM!...Even though he erased Haru's memories..I'm trying to forget that...-mumbles under breath- And I cut off the dream because it would get way more naughty then some people want to see. I got a few reviews saying I should up the rating in this fic already. -rolls eyes-
Mishiko Shinsei: Well I'm glad you're enjoying it! That's what I write it for, so my goal has been accomplished! Sadly, I'm too poor to buy the mangas, I've only got volume 1 2 3 and 8, which is why I base my fic mostly off of the anime rather then the mange. -pouts- But at least I know what I want for my birthday! Muahaha!
Overlord crazyjane XIII: Rofl, I didn't mean it like that! Yeah he'd been the one to make Haru Black ALOT! I meant he hadn't done it in a long time, so he wasn't used to it. So when Haru did that, he was pretty shocked, ya know? Ehehe
Astria: Yes yes! I love constructive responses! Even if they're mean. (Of course they're not as fun but I still like them) It's kind of nice to write a serious response to someones review every once in a while, sometimes I feel really immature when I'm talking to the reviewers..Rofl. Yeah, I like to use italics, it makes it feel like they're actually talking and you're not just reading it, ya know? I'm glad you like it though. It my be just me, but when I see italics in a sentence I emphasize the word. Some people might not do that, so it may not make as much sense to them. Anyway. Yup yup! You seem to have grasped the chapter quite well! Yay. -gives you treats- Muaha! Thanks for the fun review!
Nikkler: Awww. I'm very sorry Nikkler, that was just a joke..Please forgive me, I didn't really think anyone would really react like that, eheheh. -gives flowers and cookies- Eheh better?
Anne Cwa: Damn, you caught my bluff! -shakes fist- lol. At least I got a look of worry though, right?
Leviah Raine: Glad ya like it, it makes me feel all special that you keep up with it!
Amberblood: Yeah! They sell Kyo kitty plushies, why not COWS too! lol. I don't really need a stuffed animal though, since I have Kyo. (My orange REAL cat) Mauaha! He's evil though..Once I had a dream that my cat turned into a human while we were sleeping in my bed one night. It was strictly PG..It was like -night time- "Nighty night Kyo! -Kyo lays on chest and falls asleep-" (Morning) -rolls over and WTF THERES A GUY IN KUUS BED! then proceeds to fall out of said bed.-
Sango-maru: Wow, that was a very evil laugh! Woot! -arches a brow- Slave? lol. YES IM WORKING ON THE NEXT CHAPTER! -bows- Poor Haru, confused aboout his naughty dreams..I think he secretly likes it and looks forward to them! Ahahah! -laughs evilly- lol.
01-FAD3D: Lmao, I'm glad you are amused by the dreams, I try not to make them too serious sometimes. What's the point of remembering something if it's boring? -sigh- And I'm sorry. I have a thing for naughty-ness on tables, what can I say? My favorite thing EVER is when someone is getting pinned to something! Usually it's a wall or door..But a table will always suffice. IT's okay, next time i'll make sure it's the couch or something slightly comfortable if that makes you feel any better? Rofl. I liked the little story I wrote there..I was like 'Hmm, I should somehow use that in my new fic.' XD No it wasn't the neji one, it was the sasuke and naruto one, where Naruto is like, in his boxers looking like a tard. But I did drew a new fanart of Sasuke Gaara and Neji (My three favorite people ehehe..)
Windchasor90: lol. So nice of you to put it so bluntly "MENTALLY ILL THAT IS MAUAHAHAUHAUREGRESDgs!" Rofl. Does that make me mentally ill for writing it? Kitty-cat Kyo. Rofl, that reminds me of one of my reviewers, "Syit". She always calls me "Kyokichi kitty cat". It's a very interesting nickname and it makes me feel all special, rofl.
M.T.Dog: Don't get too enthusiastic, I'de hate to have you get disappointed or somethin' lol. yeah I was thinkin' that too, but he's too confused to actually thing that dar into it. Beside, he has to reason to think that Hatori would do that, since he doesn't remember his relationship with Kyo, ya know?
Flyingdaggers: Hey, mine did that too, so I switched to using firefox instead of internet explorer, and now it work's just fine. By what nuku looks like did you mean his hair and eye colors? lol.
Nikkler: IT's alright, I don't really mind all that much. -is mentally thinking "OMG NIKKLER HOW COULD YOU BETRAY ME LIKE THIS!"- Hhee..He kind of did pass out..In a 'holy crap all of the sudden im really sleepy' way. Otherwise he wouldn't have practically fallen down while he was walkin, ya know? lol.
Moonlit sonata: Rofl, happy late birthday! Aw..Our Koushi-Chan is getting all grown up.. -wipes away tears- Yeah I remember you tellin' me about the math assignment thingy. I wish i could gone, but sadly I live too far away. But one day we'll meet and ill bring you a special birthday presant! Like..Pocky or something! rofl. Aishiteru Koushi!
Kaeleer: Rofl. I guess you're right. It's okay though, because Kyo-uke is totally in. Rofl. We all still love him. -updates once in a blue moon- O
Heartbrokenalloveragain: Gah, what's with that long name! -faints- lol. Sorry about the lack of action? I shall do my best to make up for it. What kind of action are you speaking of..? Rofl. Oh, As in Haru goes black and pwns everyone Action? Rofl. I shall try!
BakaDen: Hahaha. Yesm very very good! -gives ziplock bag full of cookies- I BAKED THEM MYSELF! -smile!- Rofl. I think a dominate yet uke Kyo would be really hot..But that' just me, hopefully everyone will agree? rofl. AND good night! (Even though it's 2 in the afternoon)
JEEZ! Answering all of these reviews takes forever. I almost don't feel like writing the whole chapter after spending so much time writing answers to the reviews. But it's fun to do while it's also bothersome, rofl. God, I'm so lazy! hehe.
Warnings:Language, violence ANGST Some of you might not like this chapter alot. rofl.
GAHHH! This sucks! I keep making careless typos! It's like I'm typing, but I'm used to typing something else, so I type that instead! If you see and it I forget to correct it..TELL ME! Rofl. Everytime I try to type "Neko" I keep typing "Neji" ZZZ!
...Chapter 15...
Yuki walked up the stairs after getting off the phone with the doctor. Haru had taken the cat up to his room since it would be harder to move him once he transformed back, which had probably been a good idea since he'd transformed back as soon as they'de gotten him there.
Deciding there was really no reason to knock, Yuki walked into the room. Haru looked up at him as he pulled a blanket over the unconcious boys body. That's of course, after he put some clothes on him. He would have just put him to bed, but he was worried about the neko getting even sicker then he already was. He'd eventually got it done. He'd been so nervous and flustered, he hadn't even taken the time to noticed any of the cats self inflicted injuries.
He didn't even want to think about what would have happened if Kyo woke up in the middle of it. He coudl just picture the look on his face.
'What the hell! You peverted cow! You don't just go and molest people in their sleep!' is what he'd say'.. Haru thought to himeslf. He almost wished it had happened, just so Kyo would speak to him.
"I just called Hatori, he should be over in a while. How is he?" Yuki asked, shaked the ox out of his musings. Haru gave the Yuki a skeptical look that said 'what do YOU think?', but answered the question anyway.
"He's got a fever." Haru stated obviously. "He's not shivering anymore, but it would probably be best to keep him in bed until Hatori gets here to check him out."
Yuki nodded and glanced at the cat. He looked somewhat at peace while he was asleep. It was probably because when he was sleeping, it was the only time he could escape his thoughts and fears.
He frowned thinking back to the a couple of days before, when he encountered Kyo. This could be his chance to see if his sneaking suspicions about the neko..But what would he do if Kyo really was hurting himself..? The thought alone troubled him..Deciding he had to know, Yuki stepped forward and reached out toward the cat.
"W-What are you doing?" Haru asked as Yuki went to touch the sleeping cat, panic laced in his words.
"I need to check something." Yuki answered quietly, and was about to lift the boys arm to inspect the underside when there was a knock at the door down stairs, which caused the rat to jump. He hadn't even realized how nervous he really was..
"That must be Hatori.." Yuki murmured as he turned and left the room. He and Haru made their way downstairs and allowed the dragon to come inside. Hatori didn't waste any time once he was inside.
"Where is he?" He asked immediately.
"Upstairs in his room." Yuki answered. Hatori nodded and turned towards the stairs.
"Hatori, wait." Yuki said, effectively stopping the mans trek toward the stairs. Hatori turned and gave the boy a questioning look.
"What is it?"
"It's just..Well..I think there's more to this then it seems..I think..Kyo has been..Well, I'm not really sure..But I think he's hurting himself.." Yuki explained, noting that a certain spot on the wall seemed very interesting under the dragons scrutinizing gaze. Haru was shocked and Hatori frowned at the rat. It wouldn't surprise him if the cat had starting doing something like that.
After all the boy had been through, something such as that is all he'd be able to resort to in order to put up with it all. But if that were the case, then there probably wasn't much more the teen would be able to take. They'de have to keep an eye on him, with Kyo in such a mental state, there were chances he may just decide he didn't want to live anymore..
"Are you sure?" Hatori asked sternly. Yuki nodded in response.
"Thank you." Hatori drawled and turned around to go back upstairs, leaving the two younger boys in the living room. When he walked into the other boys room, the redhead was sitting up in bed.
"Good, you're up." He said as he walked over and sat on the bed.
"Woohoo." Kyo snorted sarcastically and coughed into his hand. He really wanted nothing more then to go back to sleep, but he'd heard the dragon walking up the stairs, so it would have been pointless to even try since the man was obviously coming to see him.
"You've got a fever. You shouldn't go out in the rain without a jacket on." Hatori admonished. Kyo rolled his eyes and ignored the doctor. It was a typical thing for a doctor to say anyway. It wasn't his fault he was restless. Cats didn't really like to be shut up inside all the time anyway.
"Shigure tells me you haven't been eating anything either." He stated more then asked. Kyo shrugged nonchalantly.
"If you don't eat then your body won't have the strength it needs. That's probably why you got sick so easily. You need to eat something." He stated sternly.
"I'm not hungry. What's the point of eating if you're not hungry?" Kyo replied with a scowl.
"It doesn't matter if you're hungry or not, you still need to eat. It's probably your stress that's making you feel that way, but you still need to eat something, am I understood?" The doctor replied seriously. It was obvious that Kyo didn't really care about his own health.
"Whatever, just butt out why don't ya?" Kyo muttered and got up, heading toward the door. Hatori reached out and grabbed the boys wrist to stop him from walking away, since he obviously wasn't done with the teen. He noticed that Kyo winced and frowned. Keeping his hold on the boy, he pulled him a little closer so he could get a better look at his arm. He pushed the boys long sleeve up a bit and saw the cuts. Some were still open and starting to bleed from the contact while others looked older and slightly healed.
"Kyo..What is this?" Hatori asked quietly, knowing quite well what it was. Kyo snatched his arm back and pulled the sleeve down, glaring at the doctor.
"It's none of your business, that's what it is." He growled. The dragon frowned.
"It is my business, as your doctor. Kyo, what you're doing can be really dangerous..If you were too do something wrong..You could.."
"I don't care." Kyo replied, cutting the dragon off. "Who knows? Maybe I'll get lucky and something will happen. I've got nothing here to live for anymore anyway, so what's stoppin' me?" He asked more to himself then the doctor with his fists clenched at his sides.
Hatori's eyes saddened a bit as watched the cat silently. He didn't know what to say.
"Kyo.." He said and reached out toward the younger boy, but before he could come close, the boy took a quick step back.
"Don't touch me." He heard the cat say quietly. The dragon frowned and nodded, deciding if he stayed, things would only get worse.
"Just..Try to take care of yourself..Everyones worried about you." He said before he left the room.
Of course they hadn't been aware of the presance that had been at the door earlier since they were too preoccupied with...other things.
Haru was leaning against sink in the bathroom. He didn't really know what to think. Kyo had really been doing things like that to himself? And of his own free will?
Kyo..
He'd said he had nothing to live for..
But he had him didn't he..? He himself had told Kyo he'd wanted to help in any way.. But Kyo said there was nothing he could do.
Not only was he helpless with his own memories, but he was helpless when it came to someone he cared for as well..
But..There has to be something he could do right..?
He turned on the water and splashed his face, hoping the cold droplets would help him relax a bit. He looked at his reflection in the mirror and frowned at himself.
"You're pathetic." He muttered at his reflection. He turned off the water and grabbed a towel to dry off his face then turned to walk downstairs. Right now, he just needed someone to talk to..
Kyo walked down the stairs. He'd been brooding around in his room for the last hour after the dragon had left. He may not be hungry, but he sure as hell did get thirsty alot. It was a proven fact that the human body could go for days without food..But when it came to sustaining body fluid, he could only last a couple of days at most.
He quietly made his way toward the kitchen, but stopped when he heard voices in the living room.
"..And I don't like Kyo like that.." Was all he heard.
Kyo's breath caught in his throat at the words. That was Haru's voice...
Of course, inside Kyo knew and had been accepting how things were between him and Haru...But...Hearing the ox say those words outloud hurt way more then he'd thought it would.
Why did he hurt so much more now..? Had he actually thought things would change?
"Haru.." Came another voice.
And that was Yuki's voice!
He should have known that damn rat would do something like this!
It was too much. He couldn't handle this... He just wanted the ground to open up and swallow him right there..
He just wanted it all to stop.
He would make it stop.
He turned away quickly, so he couldn't hear anymore..He didn't want to hear anymore..He didn't want to feel anymore. He would do them a favor and end it all today. Quickly, he made his way into the kitchen and jerked open one of the drawers with so much force he accidently pulled the whole thing out and everything inside crashed loudly onto the floor.
Cursing under his breath, he dropped it and knelt, sifting through the pile of silverware for the sharpest thing he could find. When he was satified, he stood up and left the kitchen before anyone came and found him. It would do for someone to act like they cared and try to stop him.. He left the house through the backdoor, and made his way into the woods.
Hatori had come down looking even more distressed then he had when he arrived. Before he left, he'd told them to keep an eye on Kyo. Haru had known why, of course, since he'd heard them talking, and seen the cuts on Kyo's arms himself. Once the dragon was gone, Haru had decided to go and see Kyo, but when he entered the room, the cat was no where to be seen.
With that he had made his way downstairs, only to run into Yuki on his way to the kitchen to get something to eat.
"Haru? Is something wrong?" Yuki asked, seeing the troubled look on the ox's face. Haru sighed a gave a slight nod.
"It's Kyo. Why would he do something like that? Hurt himself, I mean. He's so withdrawn and depressed now...I don't like Kyo like that.." He explained. Yuki's eyes softened a bit at the cows concern.
"Haru.." He said. "You see..The thing with Kyo is.." He started to explain, but was once again interrupted when there was a crashing sound in the kitchen. Yuki flinched at the loud noise, assuming Tohru must have broke another dish. Haru however, had a bad feeling about it.. He quickly exited the room to find the source of the noise. When he entered the kitchen he saw one of the drawers had been completely pulled out of the counter and there were pieces of silverware everywhere. Forks, spoons and knives.
Only one thing flew through the ox's mind when he saw this. Kyo.
Leaving the mess on the floor the ox quickly ran up the stairs, two steps at a time. The boys room was still empty.
'Damnit.' He cursed, as he made his way across the room. Where was Kyo at? He had a really bad feeling stirring in his gut. Kyo wouldn't do anything that drastic would he..? He wanted to say no, but his concious told him otherwise..
He took a deep breath.. He needed to calm down and not panic.
'Just think.' He told himself. 'Where would Kyo have gone..?'
His attention was diverted from the bed to the desk across the room. He recognized the small plushie that was sitting there. It was the same one that had been laying on Kyo's pillow a few days ago..And there was something else..
Haru walked over to the desk and picked up the object that had caught his attention, his eyes widening in recognition.
It was..
A picture of him and Kyo asleep..
'Shigure took this picture..' Haru thought to himself with wide eyes as he remembered.
This all made sense now!
He remembered everything...Saving Kyo from Akito when he'd been locked up..Threatening Akito, attacking Kagura!
...And waking up every morning to see Kyo's loving smile...
But it had all changed..
Haru dropped the picture and buried his face in his hands. He remembered when Hatori did it. At the time, he had no idea what was going on until the last minute.. He would never be able to forget that feeling..He'd never felt so terrified in his life..
He'd forgotten the best thing in his life..Even after he'd promised he'd always be there for the cat. He'd betrayed him.
He'd made Kyo go through something no one should ever have had to go through!
Haru didn't remember ever feeling so angry in his life. Angry and himself, and also angry at Akito. The smug bastard would get it for this.
..Ordering the family doctor to erase his memories just to make them suffer..He'd would never forgive him. It made him sick that the supposed 'head' of the Sohma family felt the need to mentally torture one of his own family members...
How could he have been so stupid as to not figure this out before? It was so obvious! Waking up at Hatori's, the memories..Everyones weird attitude, and Kyo's behavior most of all..
How could he have been so blind..? How could he had let Kyo suffer through this alone? And now...
Haru head snapped up.
Kyo!
He had to go and find Kyo before anything happened!
Just as quick as he'd ran up the stairs, he ran down them again. He ran into the kitchen, ignoring Yuki's confused calls from the living room and ran out the back door.
He had to find Kyo before it was too late...
Kyo stared at the knife in his hands through tear filled eyes. It had stopped raining, but it was still wet outside. He could feel the water in the ground seaping through the knee's of his pants. The sun had long since set behind the tree, giving the forest a rather eerie feel, but it wasn't bothering him.
He lifted a trembling hand and let the blade hover over his exposed wrist. Why was he so scared? This was what he wanted..Wasn't it?
To not feel the pain anymore? To make it all go away?
'Then stop shaking you idiot! Stop being a wuss and do it! Get it over with!' He scolded himself.
But still..He was terrified..He could do it so easily with just one smooth slice..
"What are you waiting for?" Came a cold whisper in his ear.
Kyo tensed at the voice..He knew that voice, it haunted him day and night.
"My poor poor kitty cat, what am I ever going to do with you.." Akito drawled boredly as he stepped away from the cat. Kyo ignored the man and continued to stare at his hand.
"Actually, it's probably for the best that you did this." The man continued. "No one here wants you around, and your moping is rather tiring. Your existance only makes life harder on that poor cow."
Kyo clenched his eyes shut and pressed the metal to his skin, but did nothing else. He could hear his heart beating rapidly in his ears.
"Why are you hesitating?" Akito asked in disappointment. "Do it."
"Come on! Do it!" He yelled, laughing.
"Shutup!" Kyo said through clenched teeth.
"There's nothing for you here, no one is here stopping you, are they? So just do it!"
"Come on you scaredy cat!"
"No body wants you!"
"I know! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" Kyo screamed through his sobs and pressed the sharp edge against his skin. He barely felt the sharp sting that came with it, and the feel of the thick, warm liquid that trailed down his arm..
'Just a little more..' He thought to himself.
"STOP!" All movements ceased when he heard another familiar.
Everything froze.
To be continued..
Oh ho ho, is that a bad cliffy? -smiles innocently-
Why don't you guys be sweet hearts and leave me a review, ne? -elbows playfully-
I hope this chapter was angsty and had enough action to keep you people satisfied.. I don't want it to be boring!
So, until next chapter! Sayonara!