GoldCatMaster- YES! I was reading your profile… I see that my "HemoPheelyacs" label is catching on! Most excellent.
Pathos of the Skies- Believe me, Phil considered using the SkyAk, but… the SkyAk just can't make that far.
"Well…" Keely said, as her mom started the car, "… Goodbye, Phil."
The two embraced, and stayed lost in the moment for a good while. "I love you, Keely," Phil whispered, when they pulled apart.
"I love you, too, Phil…"
A tear ran down Keely's face as she got into the car, and watched Phil slowly disappear from her view.
Keely, Ashley, Bonnie, and Mandy all boarded the red-eye flight to London (with a stop in Boston). Keely was strangely relieved that the Concords stopped making flights. She had learned that those planes could go up to about Mach 2, which, by her calculations, was about seventeen miles a minute.
There was something unsettling about that. It'd be all the faster she'd be leaving Phil and everything else she loved behind.
"Are you alright?" Bonnie asked, while they were sitting on the plane. Keely was staring out the window, a very distant look on her face.
"Yeah," Keely said, looking down at the book, flipping through Phil's book for the fourth time that day. "I'm okay."
"You sure?"
"Yeah, I'm telling you the truth. I'm okay… I'm not okay, Bonnie. I'm never going to see him again…"
"You don't know that…"
"Yes I do! He'll never come back from me, his dad's going to fix the ti--" Keely caught herself.
"Fix the what?"
"Nothing. Nothing at all…"
"You'll work through this, Keely. I know you will."
"Thanks, Bonnie…" Keely muttered, unable to shake the feeling that she'd never see her only love again.
Phil was lying on his back, staring at the ceiling in his room. She's out of my life, he thought. Oh, it cuts me like a knife, she's out of my life. Damned indecision, cursed pride… why did I keep my love inside?
Though she had just left two days ago, he could swear that she had been gone for all eternity.
But to know that she would be gone for all eternity wasn't exactly a comforting thought in Phil's mind, either.
A hundred days have made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
Thank you… he thought. Thank you for all the love… the honor… You'll remember that day, I still haven't escaped the pain. And thank you for these little dreams that live with me.
But all that remained of her was a distant memory. A faint whisper. A whisper, saying, "I am here for you…"
I'm here without you baby but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
While the memories still lingered, he sometimes felt as if he barely even knew who she was anymore. It was almost as if he was slowly forgetting something. Perhaps that was just because she was gone. He knew he loved her just as much at that moment as he did before she left him. She had been his soul. Without a soul, what was he?
The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
His family was a little worried about him. He hardly came downstairs, even to eat. He just stayed holed up in his room, writing songs and playing them back on the keyboard. Even Pim had begun to worry about her brother. He insisted that he was okay, but he knew he wasn't. He knew he couldn't be okay. Not without her.
I'm here without you baby but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
She was gone. To think that he was there for four years, and that he took it all for granted. It was a cavalier thing to do, he knew. But it was too late to turn things around. She was gone. More than likely, he'd never see her again.
More than likely, he'd never see her again.
More than likely, he'd never
(be happy)
again.
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
Because of her, he learned that love needs to be expressed. He learned that love doesn't wait for anybody. But he learned it too late. She had left him, and there was no turning back. She was out of his life, and he didn't know whether to laugh or cry. He was just… confused. Without her.
I'm here without you baby but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
She meant the world to him. She meant more than the world to him. He was lost without her.
But still, he preferred it this way. He preferred that he was the one that was left behind. This was the same thing he would've had to do to her, if the time machine ever got fixed. He'd much rather feel the pain she felt than deal it out.
I'm here without you baby but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
I'm yours forever, he thought. If you want, I'll be forever yours. I'm here for you now.
Without her, he wouldn't know how to behave.
Without her, he wouldn't know how to act.
Without her, he wouldn't know how to love.
I normally would've written more in between the verses of "Here Without You," by 3 Doors Down (I don't own that song. Ha ha, there's my stupid disclaimer.), but I thought the song spoke for Phil fairly well, wouldn't you agree? I think it makes up for my writing. Tell me your opinion by reviewing!