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Title: Remember me?
Author: sapphire-Lady-of-the-night
Chapter 8: I'll Remeber
An auburn haired girl walked slowly towards her classroom in White Star University. She was carrying her violin with her left hand the other one was carrying a notebook. Several students turned to her as she passes by. Well who could blame them? This girl is really pretty and it even seems to intensify in her sadness. Yes she was sad. You would have thought she'd be smiling in satisfaction by the dozens of roses she receives everyday. But no she isn't. How could she when the boy she loves… her one and only… her heart and soul… her life… her air… forgot her. What's worse is that he may never remember…
"Hey Sakura!" Someone called behind her.
Wiping all traces of her sadness Sakura turned smiling. She faced her amethyst eyed best friend.
"Aren't you supposed to be in your class?" Sakura asked.
"Yeah… well Professor is absent so I decided to sit in your class." Tomoyo answered.
"Are you sure you want to sit in my class or Eriol's class?" Sakura teased.
"Don't you mention that man's name! Anyway I might loose my marbles there."
"Loose your mind because of him or loose your heart to him?" Sakura smiled knowingly.
Tomoyo blushed. "Far from it" She answered looking away. "Don't tease me about him Sakura" Tomoyo said. "I might… fall" She whispered.
Sakura smiled and looked away. How she envy Tomoyo. She had Eriol who was obviously so taken with her. Eriol… whom she could fall in love… while me…
"Sakura are you alright?" Tomoyo asked. "You've grown so silent."
"Uh… yeah…" Sakura answered.
"Here we are!" Sakura said trying to sound cheerful.
They arrived in her classroom. Her teacher hasn't arrived yet. Her classmates were busy chatting with one another. Sakura walked towards her seat and wasn't surprised to see another bouquet of roses.
"Another one." Sakura mumbled.
"Who's it from?" Tomoyo asked.
"From your secret admirer" Sakura read the card lamely. She wished it was Syaoran. But that was too impossible. Of course Syaoran has his own girl to send flowers to.
"These are really beautiful Sakura." Tomoyo said smelling the flowers.
"You can have them if you like." Sakura said right away.
"Are you sure? I mean you never gave your flowers away" Tomoyo asked surprised.
"It's not the flowers I won't give away but the love and thoughtfulness of the person I love" Sakura whispered. Syaoran used to give her bouquets of flowers and she never gave them away, not once.
Tomoyo stopped in her mid smile and it completely faded. She turned to Sakura and saw the glistening tears Sakura tried to suppress.
"Sakura…"
"He invited me to a concert that's going to be held tonight." Sakura said staring at nothing.
"Just the two of you?" Tomoyo asked.
"Of course not! Kari would be there I know. Meilin would probably come along too." Sakura answered facing Tomoyo. "I have to go too and I pray for strength that I may endure the blows of reality on me."
"Why do you have to go anyway? Why not stay?" Tomoyo frowned. "That way you'll not hurt yourself and be forced to sit with the happy couple that you were supposed to be avoiding in the first place."
"It's easy for you to say Tomoyo because you don't know how hard it is to go against your deepest yearning." Sakura smiled sadly.
Soon enough Sakura's teacher came and their class started. Tomoyo sat at the back watching the students and listening to the music they produced.
"If I'll be like Sakura I'd rather not fall in love. I may not know the joy of love but I will not also know the pain it brings." Tomoyo whispered to herself. She cannot understand why her friend continues to let herself suffer.
"So you're going to the concert tonight?" Tomoyo asked Sakura once the class was over.
"Yes" Sakura confirmed.
"What will you wear?" Tomoyo asked.
"I don't know. It's supposed to be formal." Sakura answered.
"Oh! May I help you with that then?" Tomoyo grinned.
"If I'll say no you'd probably barge in my room anyway." Sakura answered smiling.
Tomoyo smiled sheepishly. "Let's see… you'll need white…. And hmm…. Emerald…. Ribbons…. Laces…." Tomoyo trailed off in her own world.
"Oh God!" Sakura shook her head. "This going to be one dizzying afternoon." She muttered.
"Please don't make it too frilly Tomoyo." Sakura said.
Tomoyo didn't answer. She was lost in her own world still carrying the roses given by Sakura's admirer. She was on this state when they bumped into Eriol. He was obviously preoccupied for he didn't even notice them until Sakura said hi.
"Oh h-hey!" He said with a tired smile.
Tomoyo ( finally back from the clouds) just stared at him.
"Are you alright Eriol—I mean Hirigazawa?" Sakura asked with a glare from Tomoyo. She highly disapproved of Sakura calling Eriol by his name.
"Fine, fine" Eriol answered pushing back his glasses. He looked exhausted.
"Is everything okay?" Tomoyo couldn't stop herself and asked.
"Nothing to worry about" Eriol smiled wanly. "Nice flowers" He said.
Tomoyo only smiled. She did not tell him Sakura gave them to her and neither did Sakura. But Eriol figured it out anyway.
"Another one from your admirer?" Eriol asked.
"Yeah!" Sakura answered exasperatedly.
"Well I'll see you later then." He said walking away.
"He's weird today, isn't he?" Tomoyo said after he left.
"He's weird because he did not pay you enough attention?" Sakura teased.
"Of course not!" Tomoyo said indignantly.
"Oh really?" Sakura smirked.
"Stop it Sakura" Tomoyo frowned.
"Don't you have a class to go to?" Sakura asked.
"It's still for another ten minutes." Tomoyo answered.
"You better go or you'll be late White Star isn't small." Sakura advised.
"You want to get rid of me already?" Tomoyo asked playfully.
"Yeah!" Sakura answered playfully too.
"Hmp! I'll be coming around this afternoon for your dress." Tomoyo said.
"Sure sure…"
Sakura watched until Tomoyo disappeared into another corridor. She then continued to walk without direction this time. She just walked and walked until she found herself face to face with Eriol.
"Hello again Eriol!" Sakura smiled. He was sitting underneath a tree reading a book.
"Hi!" He said closing the book.
"Would you mind if I sit beside you?" Sakura asked.
"No, I won't mind" He smiled.
"What were you thinking a while ago?" Sakura asked.
"Oh nothing!" Eriol answered.
"Don't fool me Eriol. You weren't yourself even Tomoyo noticed it." Sakura said.
"Oh well... I'm just tired that's all" He said.
"You're doing something, aren't you?" Sakura said eyeing him.
"W-what?" He looked away.
"You heard me." Sakura waited patiently for Eriol's reply.
"Oh well I just had a call from my folks last night." He answered.
"And they kept you up late last night?" Sakura raised an eyebrow.
"Well not really. Our telephone conversation didn't even reach a minute." He answered. "They just gave me things to ponder upon." Eriol answered.
"Like what?" Sakura asked.
"It's confidential" Eriol answered.
"Oh was I snooping? I didn't realize I was, sorry!" Sakura apologized.
"It's alright I know you were just trying to help me." Eriol answered. "You try and help others and worry about them too much you forgot to help yourself."
Sakura didn't answer.
"Don't you know you need help too?"
"Yes, I know I need help but no one can give that to me… not even myself." She answered.
"But you can help yourself. In the end it's only you who's left to help yourself."
"I don't have the strength to help myself for now. I don't even want to help myself now that I've realized it." Sakura said leaning against the tree. "I just want to slack off and let things pass by without any care in the world."
"I don't know what happened but should it affect you that much?" Eriol asked.
"Yes" Syaoran's accident really affected her to the point that she wanted to stop existing. The only thing that kept her going on during those times was the hope that Syaoran might eventually remember her.
"I don't know what your story is but you really need to help yourself." Eriol said.
"Yes… maybe someday I will but not now."
Not now… for now I'll just slack off… It's enough to be with Syaoran even if he doesn't remember…
"I just feel so emotionally battered for the mean time… I'll just have to go with the flow." Sakura said. "I don't have the strength to go against the current yet."
"So when will you have that strength?"
"I don't know…"
I guess I'll never have that strength
"If you're really meant to be then he'll remember you…"
Yelan's words came back to her.
Time doesn't stand still and the rest of the afternoon ticked away. At last it was dismissal time. Before Sakura could get out of the school a pair of hands grabbed her.
"Wait for me!" Tomoyo breathed. "You're not forgetting me are you?"
"How can I?" Sakura answered.
"Now I've thought of a design for your dress while in class." Tomoyo said excitedly.
"Tomoyo the concert is tonight not next month." Sakura reminded her. How can she make the dress ready at seven if it's still a design?
"I know that" Tomoyo answered. "That's why I'll only do some revising with the dress I made for you last time."
"Which dress?" Sakura asked since Tomoyo has already made her at least a dozen of dresses.
"Oh you'll know!" She smiled starry eyed.
"No not this one!" Tomoyo said throwing what must be the tenth dress on Sakura's bed. She still hasn't picked the dress she had in mind.
"Tomoyo can't I just wear this one?" Sakura said exhausted picking a lime colored dress.
"No absolutely not." Tomoyo answered pulling out an ivory dress from Sakura's wardrobe. "Now this is the one."
At 6:45 Sakura was ready wearing the ivory gown revised by Tomoyo. She had added laces on the edges and ribbons on the closing on the back. Sakura didn't put on make up since her natural beauty was enough.
Tomoyo's design had an elegant effect yet it was also simple, enhancing Sakura's beauty. Sakura sat nervously in the living room.
"Wow you look great" Eriol smiled.
"Thanks! Courtesy of Tomoyo" Sakura said.
"Indeed? I thought you bought it from an expensive boutique." Eriol said.
"Well Tomoyo really has a talent." Sakura answered. Tomoyo had left right after she finished Sakura's dress. She said she cannot stay long. Sakura suspected she avoided Eriol.
The doorbell rang and Sakura stood up nervously to open the door. She walked towards the door and reached for the knob. Her fingers closed over it and she slowly opened the door.
Syaoran stood there so handsome on his black suit. For a moment they only stared at each other, not moving, not saying anything.
"You look stunning" Syaoran finally smiled.
"Uh!" Sakura inhaled sharply. She blushed and looked away.
"You too" She said softly.
"Shall we go?"
"Yes" Sakura said getting out of the house.
Syaoran brought her over the car. He opened the door of the front seat. Sakura looked at him surprised.
"Isn't Kari supposed to sit there?" Sakura couldn't help but ask.
"She called just a while ago saying she couldn't come." Syaoran answered.
"I'm sorry…" Sakura said softly.
"Don't be… anyway you're still coming right?" He smiled.
Sakura's heart stopped for a second. Is he really glad that she was coming?
"Y-yes" She stammered.
"Let's go then." He said.
Sakura got in the car. Syaoran closed the door after her and got inside on the other door. Meilin wasn't in the car either. Sakura's heart raced. So was it only the both of them?
Syaoran started the engine and drove towards their destination. All throughout the ride Sakura looked away to the window. She was riding alone with the man she so helplessly loved, the man she might never have…
No matter Syaoran… no matter that you belonged to someone else… no matter that this love is only one sided…I will still continue… I'll enjoy this night and keep this precious memory in my heart where all of our memories are kept.
They were seated on the third row. There were many couples who were also there. The theatre was dark just like in the movie house.
Here he was sitting next to the woman he told himself he would avoid. She was breath taking on her ivory dress. He remembered the way she blushed prettily on the door. He smiled to himself. He was definitely going nuts. Well he hadn't planned this. It wasn't in his plan that Kari would back out. Meilin's mind also changed the minute she heard Kari wasn't coming. He wonder why?
The lights suddenly flooded the stage to reveal an orchestra. There was a piano on one corner. The pianist sat there ready to play. Musicians were seated. They were so near he could clearly see their faces. The theatre immediately hushed and waited for the melody to start.
The violinists started to play and the melody engulfed them all. The other musicians joined in. They were playing the "Air on the G String" which was composed by Johann Sebastian Bach. The title comes from a later arrangement of the piece for violin solo in which the melody is played on the lowest string of the instrument.
The melody was so smooth so soft so mellow. Just like the woman he was sitting right next to. Wha—! Where did that come from?
The blend of instruments sounds so wonderful. It beckons the listeners to get lost into it. Finally the piece came to an end. The audience applauded strongly.
They played another piece it was "Symphony No.40 in G minor" which was composed by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. It was rather different from their first piece. The first one was rather mellow and peaceful while this one is rather energetic. It is said that this piece is a reflection of Mozart's nature.
"You can hear this piece's deep melancholy sighs running side by side with it's boyish good humor and brilliance" Syaoran remembered the caption underneath the title in the program.
Sakura on the other hand wasn't even aware of the music. She wasn't aware of the musicians in front of her either which she should be since she is one herself. She wasn't even aware of the people around her.
She was only aware of the man sitting beside her, of his warmth, of his presence, of his movements. When he shifted she was aware of it, when he moved his hand she was also aware of it and even the slightest movement of his Adam's apple.
The music was a mute silence to her. Her eyes rested on Syaoran only. All she can see is Syaoran, his smile of appreciation, his eyes shining with interest. All she can hear is Syaoran, his sigh of satisfaction and even his even breathing.
Eventually the performance came to and end. The audience shouted for an encore. The musicians looked to each other as if to decide whether they will grant the audience an encore. Finally they seem to agree for they positioned their instruments.
They played one last piece. Like all others it was brilliant.
"I wonder what this piece is. This isn't in the program." Syaoran said turning to Sakura.
Sakura caught herself in time and listened to the music. Thank goodness she listens to her teacher so she recognized the piece immediately.
"It's titled Spring Night." Sakura answered.
"It's rather moving, is it not?" Syaoran said.
"Yes. All of Schumann's songs are moving." Sakura said trying to smile.
"That's right Miss Kinomoto." Someone said beside her. She nearly jumped. She turned to see who it was.
"Professor!"
"It's wonderful to see you here Miss Kinomoto."
"Same to you Professor." Sakura answered.
"I see you are with your boyfriend. This is piece is so right for you two for this piece is full of romantic love."
"Uhh— n-no… Professor… you're wrong…Syaoran is just a friend…" Sakura said turning away blushing.
"Oh I'm sorry." Her professor apologized. "But you two look… uh well…"
How Sakura wished it were true that Syaoran was her boyfriend.
"Did you know that the inspiration of the Spring Night came from the true story of Robert Schumann's pianist friend?" Her professor said changing the topic.
"Truly?" Syaoran smiled.
How she loved that smile.
How she loved everything about him…
Yet she isn't sure if he'll remain out of her grasps forever…
"Sakura let's go."
Sakura looked up Syaoran was looking at her worried.
"Are you alright?" He asked.
"Uh yes" Sakura said standing up abruptly. The people were already going towards the exit. Her professor had gone too.
"Shall we go?" Sakura said.
Sakura was surprised when Syaoran took her hand.
"Yes let's" he answered looking deep into her eyes then he turned around leading her towards the exit.
"So how did the concert go?" Eriol asked the moment she arrived.
"It was fine…" Sakura answered not looking at him.
"It's him, isn't it?" Eriol said. Sakura looked at him.
"W-what?"
"He's the cause of your misery. He's the one affecting you."
"Is it that obvious?"
"It was to me." Eriol answered.
"Do you think he noticed?" Sakura asked.
"Maybe. Syaoran strikes me as a smart man but then again maybe he didn't because he seems to be preoccupied too often." Eriol said.
"Preoccupied?"
"Yeah… I see him at school and he always appears deep in thought."
Deep in thought about Kari…
Sakura closed her eyes. At least she got to be with Syaoran tonight. She'll always remember the warmth of his hand, the smile on his face and the gentleness of his touch.
I'll remember Syaoran even if you don't…
I'll remember for the both of us…
I'll keep our memories…
I'll treasure them…
…even if you'll never know…
I'll remain in this snow of misery…
…so that our memories won't melt away…
A.N. There I finished it! Please read and review people! I know this isn't as good as the others but please be generous enough to still give your reviews. Thanks! By the way the information I gave about the pieces in the concert were true. Oh and if you have suggestions please tell me I might yes only might consider it. I can't promise that I'll put in the story for some reasons… anyway please do give them! I'm running out of ideas already!